I sit on the balcony of my traditional house and look out at the world around me with nothing interesting happening. It was as if I was alone in the world, which I was.
My white silk dress shows the wise and pure side of me, which I have had from my earliest childhood until today. This impeccable whiteness makes me think of fragments of memories of my possible future.
I felt bored and rolled my eyes. I sighed heavily and waited in vain for something to happen. Nothing happened, absolutely nothing, it was a complete blank. There was no one, and I mean no one! There was no one to say 'hello' to, so my only wish at that moment was to stay here, alone and without friends.
Suddenly, as I closed my eyes, I felt a mysterious hand on my right shoulder. I jumped up in surprise and then turned my face to see the stranger's face. He was young, about my age, and he was sitting next to me, looking at me, which didn't make me feel comfortable at all...
In a very mature tone for his age, he said to me, "Why are you out there, all alone, in the cold?"
I replied, trying not to look him in the eye, "Because I wanted to, that's all."
He said, putting his hand on my left shoulder as if we had been buddies for a long time, which we hadn't: "Come on, I'll take you somewhere warm to warm you up!"
At that moment, I knew I would hate myself for saying what was on my mind, "Let's go, where is this? Is this a place?"
"You'll see ..." , he retorted in an angry psychiatric voice.
I looked at him strangely, got up and looked at the sky for a moment, took a deep breath and ran away, which didn't last long. By the time I got to the city market it was too late and he held me hostage, one in front of my mouth and the other on my chest. He took me into an alleyway and took the opportunity to take a white silk and blindfold me, by then I could see nothing, it was total darkness.
Fear seized my body and my lips and the rest of my body trembled wildly. As we walked down the aisles of the market, as I walked at my own snail's pace, he gave me a violent shove. What had I done to deserve this? Buddha, what have I done wrong? I shed a few tears of despair as I thought about what was going to happen to me...
The sheriff said, continuing to push me hard so that I fell to the ground like an aggrieved slave." Come on, don't waste my time!"
I replied, trying not to cry, "No..."
He gave me a slap that everyone heard, only they didn't notice that the victim was me, but the man who dominated me like a common dog. In that moment, I felt that all this human cruelty was dirty.
He turned back to me like a wild animal and shouted: "Go away, bad dog. Or I'll kill you in front of everyone around us!"
In a barely audible voice I said, "No..."
He gave me another harder slap as he lifted me up and then pushed me repeatedly in the direction of the unknown. Tears flowed from my eyes by the thousands, like winter snow falling from the sky. As we continued on towards the fresh grass, I soon recognised the sweet smell of green hay as we reached the top of the hill of eternal rest!
I said in an almost unbearable voice, struggling as best I could, "What are we doing at the top of the mountain? What are you going to do to me? I haven't done anything wrong!"
He turned my back to the void, my eyebrows drooping and tears falling from my cheeks to the ground like spring rain. Would he kill me? In what way? I told myself in my head that I was waiting in fear of what might happen.
I shouldn't have... This was a bad idea on my part...
It was as if time had stopped and the fate of my life was about to take a completely different and unexpected turn!
"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!" I screamed as I felt myself falling backwards.
My hair was blown away by the wind and when I stopped screaming, my mouth closed and I couldn't feel anything anymore. It was as if I was metamorphosing. Anyway, as I pass through the clouds, at this point I don't understand. But my appearance had completely changed, I was nestled in the clouds and my coat was white, like a snow wolf... Oh, yes,... To my horror, I and my human soul were instantly transformed into immortal white wolves.
Why? Why am I hated by so many humans? What have I done so wrong that I wouldn't hurt a fly? How did fate bring me here? I asked myself as I slept peacefully on my little cloud.
At first the days were good, but this day..., but now it is not the same.
I still have my human soul, but I have become a wolf that humans can eat. I hate myself for being so nice to everyone when I do my best to do the right thing around me, that's what's wrong with me! I don't know what to do. That's the kind of person I am. I will never forgive myself for what I did!