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Chapter 4 - Chapter 3

I went to bed thinking about how I had killed three people without feeling any remorse. I looked out the window and saw the full moon. My nose bleed came back. I rolled off the bed and grinded my teeth as my body stretched. I felt my bones break and lengthen. I wanted to scream but I was scared that I would kill my family. When the pain stopped I walked up to the mirror and saw a huge wolf the size of horse. Then suddenly the seizures came back then I fell in front of the mirror. I saw my body changed back to me but my skin turn turn violet and blue. I watched my fangs changed back to normal only to have some of my teeth turn back to fangs. Then my eyes changed to silver and then gold. The seizures stopped and I felt like I had given birth. I walked toward the mirror and wondered what the rest of my life will be like. I sat down to listen carefully and hear bats calling. I closed my eyes and felt with other senses. I let out a breath and I was admiring how the everything sounded, smelled when my body was bombarded with a sound that showed the entire room. I opened my eyes and asked myself what the heck happened. A few tries later I was able to tell what was where with my eyes closed. I was amazed that I saw the everything. It means from now on I won't lose anything.

I looked out the window and felt like going out. I never did get to cliff jump. So I quietly snuck out of the window and ran to do something. I saw Bethanne outside talking to a guy. He was making her uncomfortable. I asked him nicely if he could leave her alone. He sneered at me as pulled out his knife. I sneered back at him saying that he won't be able to hurt me with a toy knife. I flicked my hand and it became claws. He didn't see but she did. She flinched backed away slowly. He smiled at me and I did the same. Only his smile vanished when he saw mine. He screamed and tried to run. I chased after him and beat him senseless. He didn't get very far. I beat him black and blue.

When I was sure he was unconscious I walked away happy. Wait a minute. I was happy to beat him up. That's not a nice thing to do. This has to stop. I have to gain control over myself. This has gone far enough. Remorse kicked in and I tried to call the nine one one but Bethanne stopped me. She said that he is one of the bad guys her stepmom was involved with. She thanked me for not killing him. I told her that I have different urges from time to time. She asked me why I was up. I told her that I wanted to go to Kuilei cliffs. I explained that I wanted to go cliff jumping. She told me I needed to go home and get some rest before I end up in handcuffs. She was right. I thanked her and turned around. I climbed up the pipe and slid into the open window. She waited till I waved at her to walk back to her house.

The next morning I slide downstairs on the railing to see mom wasn't making breakfast but she was on the phone with one her gossip friends. She was telling mom about a girl beating a guy bloody. Mom thought it was a rape victim getting even with her rapist. The guy on the other hand is in the hospital. He refused to tell the officer who had beaten him. He chose to be silent. I shook my head asked them if she had nothing better to do than this. I made myself a grilled cheese sandwich and washed it down with a glass of OJ. Mom reminded me that I was grounded so I can't take my car to school. I kissed mom on her cheeks before heading for the school bus.

Bethanne saw me and asked me if I needed a ride. I politely turned her down. She insisted saying that she knows I won't hurt her. I told her not to push her luck. I have no control when my instincts take over me. I become something that terrifies me. I have done things that I have never had the urge to do. Bethanne gave me a look and asked me nicely to sit in her car. I sat next to her and we head straight to Damien Memorial school. We live in Hawaii so it was a dream all by itself.

I tried to think of something daring to do. I remembered the Haiku staircase. I would love to go there but mom would bust her gut if I did. When we arrived I thanked her and hopped out if the car to see a few boys from school checking me out. I didn't care if they stared or not. My interest was finding Syd. I tried to listen to her voice. I heard as though she was right next to me. I saw her by the stairs arguing with her boyfriend about the trip to Oahu. I walked up to her and she was shocked.

She wasn't the only who was surprised. I knew that one day I would have to answer them but here is the thing even I don't what cured me. It is a secret even to me. I had made my peace with death while Syd was going to war trying to find a cure. She wanted her life to be normal. Here she was dying while I was living. She stared at me with utter shock. I gave her a shy smile. She was about to ask me how I had cured myself when Bethanne showed up and asked me to join her. I followed her up the stairs to see that Devon the most gorgeous guy in school was yelling at his ex girlfriend. He brushed her off and walked towards Bethanne. He was her older brother. He asked her who I was and she said that I was the one who saved her life. I felt my face become hot as he stared at me for a moment before he extended his hand to say thanks. I shook his hand and withdrew it. The bell rang and I walked inside to get to class before Mr Potter gets there. He has an ill temper. I felt someone staring at me. It was Syd. She wanted answers and she will wait till lunch to interrogate me. She won't stop harassing me till she gets answers. Answer that I don't have.