"Dear dairy,
I first taught it was his ugly... no!no!no! It was his cold, imposing nature because there is nothing ugly about Loyd.
But now I see it's not his nature it's just him.
During lectures I always watched him from the back since I sat and still sit there where the not so cool people sit.
I would always watch him from the back and not so surprised he'd never turned to look at me. Not even once. Never! But why do I even care? I'm used to it by now.
With all this I still couldn't resist him . Even though he'd never notice me I found it normal since nobody ever noticed me in college except Erica and Clara.
And who am I kidding? Erica and Clara both are my friends so definitely they had to notice me or else who would. By the way nobody did notice me just so you remember, dairy.
We had our mid-semester test and God being do good I did well enough. Mr. Nillocks who was our biology lecturer insisted that we sat according to our performances during his lectures.
So unfortunately for me, I had to sit and share a desk with Loyd. According to Mr Nillocks the first ten had to sit in the middle of the class between the second ten and last ten infront and behind us respectively. So he was smart and so was I.
Ow! How great I thought this opportunity was . I could finally get the chance to admire him from up close and then maybe he could give me a few lessons since he came in first and I came in second he could tutor me on some stuff I didn't know yet.
But even then he gave me a cold shoulder. Then I thought we did not know each other well enough or maybe he still held grudges from our first inconvenient encounter that I'll tell you later. So I gave it some time.
Let me tell you dairy, that did not work. He then wouldn't even pick my pencil of it fell right in front of him. But he'd rather ignore it even though he knew I needed it for the ongoing test. And I bet he wanted to step on it and crash it even though he didn't. I still think he wanted to.
Then I let my imagination run wild again. "Maybe, he just didn't like girls being his friends " I thought.