Things ended up with us... I did not tell anyone about it, even Chika.
i went home like i do every time, removed my shoes, bathed and went to bed. I didn't know what i was feeling, my heart stabbed with a knife? disappointment? sadness? whatever it was, i didn't know it.
i looked at our conversation of 5 months... all the heart emojis, smile emojis and even us planning our dates... it was all now a memory, something that happened in the past, something that couldn't be brought back.
before i knew it, tears were coming out of my eyes. I finally realized what i was feeling, the fantasies i had when we were together all shattered like a glass, i realized that forever never existed.
i clenched my heart, feeling hopeless, feeling alone and feeling betrayed, "why did i do to deserve this" that was my thought, i laid in my bed crying and eventually sleeping with our precious memory in my hands...
I went to school the next day, they knew that something happened but didn't ask me what it was, "are you okay"? Chika asked me while holding my hands.
"No..." i cried again... i couldn't hold it back, i wanted to share my feelings, i wanted someone to hear what i felt, i wanted to slap that guy who made me this way. I was angry, and sad at the same time.
When you are in a relationship, you start dreaming about your future together, the things you would do and much, much more, but little did you know these things we call love never ceased to exist, The only person who cares about you is yourself and these things called love come to destroy it
I told them everything, my mid was finally peaceful, Chika was calm and consoled me, Akari cursed him, Atsuo told me that she would beat him.
i realized that the most important things to me are my friends and family, for those who love me sincerely, i hope you forgive me for any mistakes i have committed
THE END.