For the next few days no one spoke to me, no one looked at me, they acted like I wasn't there.
Not that I cared much. I felt like I deserved it. So for the next few days I only left the safety of my room twice a day once for breakfast and once for dinner.
I just drank water and listened to music in my room. That was until one day when I was called to a meeting.
" So, we have called this meeting to discuss the future of this team." Steve announced.
'Oh-no it's happening I am getting kicked off'
"We have worked on missions for awhile now, and we recently got a new member, so I got some recordings of some missions so we can see what we can do to improve." Steve said sitting down as the first video came on was of a Hydra take down the team did before I came, they did pretty good.
`See they don't need you'
''shut up''.
The next one was of my first Hydra take down. I have never seen myself fighting and I looked so cool and I looked like a bad b#tch.
''Wow I look so good''
'that doesn't mean anything'
''oh shut up''.
The next one was the team the first time the chitary came, they did good, tony almost died so that's not good. The final video showed of the latest mission.
It showed me taking down monster after monster, it did show me getting injured. But it showed me saving the kids and I smiled seeing the way I helped out.
At the end of the video it showed the team yelling at me. I looked down and frowned seeing and hearing the things they said ...again… It hurt all again, ever more so than the first time.
Once the video ended with me running off to the abandoned building Steve stood back up," Okay so there is a side by side comparison of with Aria and without. "
Everyone nodded.
" so we are going to say some things we all saw." Steve told us.
I raised my hand. "Yes, Aria."
" I think you guys did a really good job on the videos" I said with a smile.
Tony scoffed," Of course we did, I can't say the same for you though."
I looked down at my lap.
" I mean look at you sloppy, untrained, I mean I had to call you twice before you showed up just to get Nat injured. I mean why are you even here?!?! You are no use here on the team when you can't even listen to simple orders and help out a little!!"
I took all the insults knowing they were true.
" Tony, please sit down," Steve tried.
"No, let him continue. I want to hear what else he has to say." Clint added.
" I mean why can't you do anything right? We have you on missions, you are practically useless and just a liability at this point. I mean why do we have to train a stupid little kid?!" Tony yelled standing up.
" Your are a useless member of this team. I mean it makes sense why S.H.I.E.L.D didn't want you. You can't do anything, all you have is some powers, that's it!!"
I slowly started to lose it.
" Ya why do we have to babysit, can't she go somewhere else she is just causing issues on this team." Mr. Barton added.
" After all she's the reason Nat is in a coma right now she couldn't even use her powers right." He continued.
" Let's just calm down." Steve tried again but failed.
"She's a waste of space here when we could have a good teammate, just send her back." Mr. Wilson said.
"Why do we have to take her?"
I had tears rolling down my cheeks as I stood up, I couldn't take it anymore.
" Do you think I want to be here, well no I don't!!"
" Then why are you here? No one wants you, loves you, or cares for you here, you are just our responsibility that we didn't want!! If you were better-"
" I can't be better cause I don't know how, I do everything I can but it's never enough. I try to be a better team player, no I am an attention seeker, I try being quieter, she doesn't care. I try working harder and when I need a break or I don't do something perfect, she's a bad teammate. I can't take it anymore!!"
" You aren't doing enough. We put our lives on the line everyday!! That's the job you signed up for!!"
" No I never did, I got thrown into this!!"
" It doesn't matter cause this is your life!!"
" I didn't ask for it!!"
"THAN WHY ARE YOU HERE!!! You are a useless, unlovable, immature, annoying, burden of a person!!"
I was shocked. I have thought that before but hearing someone say it made it all true.
"I'm sorry, I'm not perfect!" I needed an answer," Do you guys even want me here?" I asked quietly.
Everyone stayed silent for a moment until Tony interrupted the silence, " No, no we all you to stop burdening us"
"Fine if that how you feel, I will leave and you won't have to see me ever again." I said then ran out of the room.
No one called after me. I got on the elevator with tears pouring down my face.
"J.A.R.V.I.S, to the room please" The elevator moved to my floor and I packed all my belonging, there weren't 2 pairs of jeans, Pj's, toletiers, hairbrush, and undergarments then a few personal items like my journal, teddy,Ipod with headphones, and 2 photos one of my bio parents and one of my orphanage family.
I hugged the photo frame with the only family I have ever had, that I failed to protect, and I put it in my bag. I was about to climb out through the window when I thought of Matthew.
So I got a paper out and wrote him a note. Once I was down I climbed out the window and left the tower not looking back, knowing they saw the real me and couldn't accept me, so I will keep to my word….They will never have to see me again.