Okay... I am perfectly Calm.
I have done such a thing like this multiple times where I had to dissect diffrent beings, and was also taught how to disect humans and there weak points this should not affect me so why do I feel a repulsion in doing this?
No.. I dont feel a repulsion in doing this action, rather I feel a repulsion in doing this on James.
I dont understand why he is so confident in Jarvis, Jarvis is just a machine it makes no sense and he does not even seem to be worried about the fact that I have the right tools here to kill him super easily.
"Miss Wednesday!"
"Hmm?"
"Please focus"
Right, I grabbed the scalpel which felt comfortable in my hands, Like it was meant to be there.
Jarvis's Hands moved and injected the area around his nape with Anesthesia meant to numb the pain in that specific area and now it is my turn to slice open his nape and Thing will put on the ointment meant to stop the blood flow outwards.
I aimed the sharp tip of the scalpel feeling unnatural brought it closer to the point where I was supposed to create a cut on his nape.
The Scalpel grew closer and pierced his skin causing a blood drop to come out.
"Ugh... I cant"
I cant, I just cannot bring myself to do this, I need to find out how he can just give me a Knive that I can use to very well kill him if I decided to and he wouldn't be able to do a thing.
Just why is he so trusting, It does not make any sense at all, I Have never seen a human so trusting, Previous situations could be explained as surface level trust but this?
This is not surface level anymore, This is his very life, I have to find out, just why, Although my current theory is that he should think that I am good at these things... no that cant be, he wont trust me to do it he couldnt ask any doctor out there and they would do it.
I need to find out Just why he Trusts me so much?
I dropped the scalpel on the Table and started backing away, and he got up with his upper chest bare.
"Wednesday What's wrong?"
"Why? Just why is it that you Trust me so much, You handed me a blade and asked me cut your back open, do you realize how easy it would have been to kill you right there and then? I slightly poked you with the scalpel and blood came out, what do you think will happen if I just decided to kill you?"
He had a smile appear on his face which I failed to understand.
"Wednesday, I had once Learnt That Trust is Basis of any good relationship"
Huh? So?
He got up from the bed and started walking towards me and came closer to me.
"Wednesday, I Like you, I Like you very much, I Know how you are so I wanted you to understand that I truly do trust you"
He held my hands and looked into my eyes with his dazzling grey eyes.
"Honey Jarvis could have performed this whole surgery by himself, But I wanted to show that I was willing to trust you completely even if you have a knife to my neck"
Hah...
"That's the stupidest thing I have ever heard"
He got really close and stared into my eyes and although I wasnt showing anything much inside however, It was a mess of emotions, The emotions and feeling I had for James were just having a field day causing me to be a mess.
"Wednesday, The first day I met you I found you odd, But for some reason I had just slowly began falling for you overtime, I guess you had just grown over me"
He is being... Genuinely honest, Call it intuition, I realized that I myself had fallen for James over time, in the beggining I thought he was a basic Human, But later he proved me wrong which got me intrested in him and then slowly due to his actions and interactions i had just began falling for him more and more, I tried to run away from it and use some logical explanation according to me but that was just excuses.
"James..."
"Wednesday"
He started getting closer and it just felt so natural and comfortable, As he got closer I decided to finnaly for the first time in a long time truly let my gaurd down, I let it down and it made me feel vulnerable a feeling I hated.
His lips got closer to mine and I closed my eyes and waited until I felt contact with my lips, It felt nice...
We kissed for a little while before he pulled back.
"Wednesday, I love you, Will you be my girlfriend"
I couldnt help but scoff at the idea.
"Girlfriend?, isnt it a bit to late to ask now?"
"Haha yea it is isnt it, Let's do this surgery okay babe"
"Never call me that again or I will strangle you to death, Understand"
He went back to the bed and laid down on it and murmured to himself, but thanks to my special hearing I heard what he said
"Maybe it's a bit to soon... well with the attempt atleast."
Hmm, The next time he calls me that or Honey which I had ignored, I am strangling him, as a matter of fact I just remembered something he had done previously at the Poe cup awards.
But that is something for another time, Today... I felt good letting my gaurd down intentionally, Although I felt super vulnerable and it was actually a bit of a scary experience when I let it down but for some reason when I was close to him and he was holding my hands, I just felt safety and comfort.
It felt nice and it's like my body and mind want to experience that feeling of safety and comfort again, which again I couldnt help but scoff at.
I grabbed the scalpel once again feeling lighter, I only know realize how much keeping my gaurd up all the time against peoplel had burdened me and I now felt like I was super light and free, which was a pleasantly enjoyable feeling.