Her heart feel so heavy .
So very heavy that it hurts.
So heavy that she wants to scream.
Scream so loud to the world.
Her heart hurts that she wants to cry.
Cry all of her depression.
To scream and cry all.of it away.
But she can't even do any of it
It feels just like she lost her voice.
And the tears isn't even coming.
Maybe her tear gland dried up or what?.
Maybe because she knew even if she scream and cry,the aching pain in herbert wouldn't go away.
It wouldn't leave.
Just a splitting headache is all what she is going to get herself.
The worst mistake she have ever made all of her life is having so much trust in someone.
High hopes .
She trusted him.
She trusted him that he will never leave her .
That he will never and ever leave her side ,most especially her life.
She trusted philip.
She trusted him to keep his promises.
One of it is being there for her and their daughter always.
But he broke his promise.
He broke her trust.
He break her .
So bad.
He did all of that by dying.
How could he die just like that.
How could he even think of leaving her and their daughter all alone in this world.
How could....
He should have just fight .
Fight for his life .
Fight for his family.
For their love.
But it send he didn't care at all.
For his death made her this miserable.
It isn't like she is blaming him .
But she just can help it.
She can't stop the throbbing pain in her heart.
The pain that is doing so good in consuming her.
All of her.
She doesn't want to feel this pain anymore, but she still don't want to die.
Who will be there for katherine,for sergio if she choose to end the immeansing pain in her heart by fading away from this world.
Philip will never forgive her.
For leaving their only daughter alone.
And that is why she have to be strong.
Like real strong .
Stronger.
Strongest.
And the very first step is by letting go all of her pains.
Her sorrows.
Her heartache.
And she is trying to.
An also leaving behind another source of headache in her life.
Matt.
The very big mistake,like biggest mistake she have ever done all.her life is by marrying matt.
What was she thinking.
That he would end her pains.
Her sorrows.
That he would make her and katherine happy,and make their once happy filled life which was full of hurt colourful.
No.
Capital NO.
He did nothing.
Absolutely nothing.
It feels like she was out of her mind when she married matt.
She was crazy.
Let's assume he really did love her.
She can never love him back.
But all af his word was a lie.
All he did was say a few sweet words and she thought he was a good man.
I don't know ,but it feels like he is just trying to tie her down with the stupid marriage thing.
But he failed already.
She is going to leave.
She is going to leave and file for a divorce.
And she is going to make sure to take her children with her.
Yes children.
Katherine and sergio.
She will take sergio with her and there will be nothing he will do.
She will try all of her best possible to take him with her.
Not like matt cares anyway.
He is going to let him go easily.
One wouldn't say he is his father.
Yvonne mind's travel to all what sergio told him just before she tucked him to sleep.
"Dad isn't someone you think you know,he is a worst person that care about nothing...not me ,not mummy ,being neglected and abused by your own father after your mother's death isn't what one wants",he
had said earlier.
Yvonne has seen all of the pain in his eyes,the pain he is bent on hiding.
The least she can do is take the boy with him.
She is her son now.
She have so many things going on in her life right now.
And she have to be strong always.
For her children.
She have to protect them and be there for them.
Always.
Her mind to the video she watched and a shiver ran through her spine.
She felt old.
What was philip doing with that?.
She knew the person on the video but how is her husband connected to all of it.
What was philip hiding from her?.
Yvonne tied her hair upwards before moving to the bed to lay on it.
Then the door cricked open .
Someone entered.
Someone who is matt.
She didn't bother turning ,she just lay on the side of her own bed before grabbing the duvet.
"Yvonne"he called .
"Mmhm",she replied not wanting to have a talk with him,not now .
Or should it be another argument.
Then suddenly a thought niggled into her mind,like she remembers something.
"Matt",sha called her tone stern as she sat up on the bed.
"What",he said and yvonne felt like slapping that little snug out of his face.
"Matt I have told you countless time not to interfere in my business,what is wrong with you?",she said and he eyed her curiously.
"What did....",he was saying but she interrupted his talk.
"What were you doing at my house today matt?I never remember telling you to go there ,do I?,so tell me why you barged in there like it is some sort of your property",she fired angrily.
She doesn't even know why she is overreacting.
But that anger just keep coming from nowhere.
"Ohh that",he drawled.
"Ohh yeah",she mimicked .
"I was just trying to help yvonne,you told me you are going to give the house out for rent so I went there",he said and she stared at him .
What a excuse.
"To do what?",she questioned and his brows ceased.
Silence.
"Matt",she called
"To check,or can't I help my wife in anything",he said spreading out his palm.
"First matt,I am not giving it out anymore and second ,matt you can't just walk in there like you own it , especially without telling me , without my permission.It is my house ,my home",she said and Matt stared at her angrily .
"Your home?",he scoffed angrily.
"Then what about here yvonne ,what is this place called?hun",he yelled and yvonne stared hard at him not flinching a bit.
Silence .
Silence.
"Should I tell you what it is called ,should I?",she challenged as she stood up from the bed walking to him until she was few steps away from him.
"A prison prison , hell,that is what it is called ",she yelled on top of her voice as she was breathing heavily.
"I wondered how Ashley was able to put up to this ,with you ,how she was able to bear this so suffocating place .....",she trailed.
"Maybe that was what killed her ,maybe this place was what suffocated her till she die, maybe you suffocated her to her grave",she said and next she felt a stinging pain on her cheek..
He hand found it's place to her cheek as she stared at him straight in the face .
He slapped her .
He really did slapped her.
Penned by:✍️ Aisha Humayrah.
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