The one thing I don't believe is that the aliens were kind of mess with my DNA and trying to hurt me in someway for their scientific experiments. That was still dumb founding for me and confounding for me that they had scrambled or shuffled or whatever my DNA and as well as autopsies me alive on this human Doctor that was still littering at me in my dreams as they have trying to scare me. I will finally fell asleep for the first time and felt safe but then had a dream of the mysterious doctor who is going around having aliens autopsy people alive while he was still there and I was waking up screaming right at 8 o'clock in the morning and you would be like what the hell are you screaming about and I said I had the dream again. that was one hour was diagnosed with PTSD with the rare cause that is very unusual to most people. That's what they put it out there and put it has PTSD induced by alien abduction but they Joe said as it is it was just my natural or rare occurrence. This is the first time in my life where I had to be on medication was I throwing rages and his sea fits all the time and was right in the corner screaming and crying all the time no but I was going around dreading the next sleep as my body needed it. It wasn't fun to have to go to sleep at night and I end up having to take pills to suppress the nightmares yet the nightmares had a supernatural way of getting into my skin and coming back to me this was unusual and I had to go through more therapy for trauma and I didn't want to say you're actually was a trauma wise except for the fact that I was a very rare occurrence that very rare people go through at times. The nightmares still continue to bother me but I still believe in what I believe and that these are aliens are still around nonetheless that they will be around for a long time will they, I hope not. I was hoping to be happy and proud to be on the medication proud I don't know why I said that but happy because I would be saying again but I couldn't sleep without the nightmare as soon as someone who is new age Told me to write a dream diary and see what happens from there so I ended up setting up a Wattpad account just for the dream diary not just for me but for other people that understand people like me that are have these "" rare experiences. every night that I had a nightmare I would find a way to make it different through Lucid dreaming and other stuff but I still believed and I'll always believe in what I had seen in my monitor at my station but that was beside the point that is the past and it still haunts me to this day.
When I ended up having children if I was able to have children I didn't know until one I made love to Joe and he ended up wanting children and I did not have the morning sickness that's when I knew something was wrong. I love going to the doctor and finding out and I didn't wanna go to a doctor but I had to anything I always found out to be sterile. Because of my experience or rare occurrence or alien abduction. It wasn't exactly my idea of a good time going to the doctors and finding out you cannot have children anymore when I wanted to give the man I love children it was very disturbing. I couldn't even have in vitro or a surrogate mother to help me with this this was like a curse on me by the aliens as if this Mangele like doctor was trying to hurt me again.
You are a believe this doctor was human or was he an alien in sheep's clothing or a wolf in sheep's clothing I think he was a wolf in sheep's clothing because he was still trying to disturb other people he might be even harming someone else in a spaceship as I speak trying to do horrific experiments Just to shuffle our DNA and try to make another race of humans. This is why I would get racist as well NFI met someone who is very smart smarter than me and yeah I'll put it together then I would tell them to get the hell out and call them aliens..... That was the only time I ever got racist but I still believe that they were out there these human alien high breads and that these hybrids are continuing their blood line through people like you know when I hear love finding someone in Mensa that was a lot better and was able to give them shoulder and I was really angry.
Have this plan I thought anyone in Manso was an actual alien or alien hybrid there was in disguise of humans you never know why do you think about this. If you have an unusually high IQ over 200 it's very disturbing to think that that could happen in the first place without any kind of intervention within your DNA. It was very disturbing that the only technology to do that was by aliens it would be done by man it would be even more disturbing and scary because then we can make things like god-awful dictators and stuff and I would be very disturbing.
There is a form of genetic engineering that I went through was not what I wanted to go through again he was dating someone else and I was not believing that but I believe than what I was going through all the time which was a nice made contact and that I was abducted that you don't want to remember and stuff I decided to leave Joe alone to his own devices and say well if he gets a doctor that his goddamn problem not mine.
The last Friday had was Joe over his new girlfriend was very last time I ever saw him again apparently according to urban math he had disappeared off the face of the earth as if never was even born. That prick my curiosity and my imagination in the world could happen to someone if they trust these beings in the first place is Anthony's. These entities are nothing more than harmful things that were Southlyn your DNA and you and maybe even your organs.
Then last time I heard about him he was in another state in the nude as if he was abducted by someone who is trying to hurt him in a very personal way but it turned out he just materialized in the middle of the road naked and didn't know what the hell is going on. What goes around comes around I guess I think but That was him making contact with the alien and he ended up being why incision and other things it was very disturbing to see that there was articles of man being found in the middle of the night in the middle of the road. Another disturbing thing I was very creepy and I call Liz Creepypasta far because it's just a creepypasta to go through this kind of thing do I believe in the siren head or smiling room or the cartoon cat or Piggly Wiggly no but I do believe in aliens and that's Creepypasta enough that they have done what they have done to us humans is important to believe in these things to me because these things are out there and they might be coming for us as we speak.
I thought that the aliens when I come out this lifetime but when I end up dying at the age of 60 not by a heart attack but just by listening to a good song and then drifting off to sleep forever I remember the song correctly it was I don't cerci find my Madonna and this is what I was more or less listening to before I ended up passing on to the next.
Finally, enough love
I don't search, I find
I don't search, I find
I found love
I found somethin' new
I found you
Yeah, I found you
Platinum gold
Inside your soul
I found light
I found emotion
I don't search, I don't search
I don't search, I find
It's our gypsy blood
We live between life and death
Waiting to move on
And in the end
We accept it
We shake hands with our fate
And we walk past
There's no rest for us in this world
Finally enough love
I don't search, I find
I found peace (I found peace)
I found a new view (I found a new view)
I found you (I found you)
Yeah, I found you (I found you)
, I find
(Inside your soul, inside your soul)
I don't search, I find (inside your soul)
Finally, enough love
Finally, enough love
(Finally, enough love) Yeah, it's coming (inside your soul)
Finally, enough love (inside your soul)
(Finally, enough love) Yeah, it's coming (inside your soul)
Finally, enough love (finally, enough love)
Yeah, it's coming (inside your soul)
(Inside your soul)
Finally, enough love
Why not I heard the lyrics
"It's our gypsy blood
We live between life and death
Waiting to move on
And in the end
We accept it
We shake hands with our fate
And we walk past
There's no rest for us in this world"
That was when I took my last breath and that was the end of it at age 60 I was now going to be posthumously famous but I didn't want to be. I was just going to be still to the town of cookie old lady who believed in flying saucer is another thing but I ended up falling sleeve I never Woke up to a Susan song that was something that I was listening to when I was younger at this point I was nothing more than a crazy lady in room C 12 C 12 is now a shrine of people who believe in aliens and alien abductions. Which was my room that I was in the nursing home to. All my stuff I never was able to pass on to my children because I never had a chance to have children. Pretty sad and all my stories and stuff my books were being actually giving away to the library and stuff but I guess someone had to read about the stuff in the first place. I am very happy to know that people are reading my books and taking my word seriously weather there a sceptic or not.
~fin