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Chapter 8 - MIXED EMOTIONS

I nodded. "I've never seen him in my entire life, mom. I don't know him, please I need to be alone. I need to be alone." I instantly got up and ran upstairs as fast as I could, went to my room and shut the door behind me. I Sprinted to my bed and cried so bitterly, soaking my blanket with my tears.

I'm so stupid. An idiot. I had to deny him, he would never accept me.

I know Remus so well and I know how many hearts he had broken to pieces at school and I don't want to be one of them.

No way! No way, will I ever be one of them, I don't want to be Remus's plaything. I didn't want to be at his mercy and had to beg and cry for him to love and show affection to me.

I don't want that for myself, I want someone to love me, not the other way round. This was why I didn't want to tell my parents because they will insist on meeting him right away and I don't want that from them.

They will never understand.

I cried so bitterly, my face puffed up and was so red, and my throat hurt so bad because of my cries.

This was just the beginning of my nightmare, I kept itching for Remus, to touch me, to fuck me as he did at the club and I hated myself for it.

Days passed, I didn't show up at school and neither did Scott because he was grounded and also kept trying to talk to me and my wolf wasn't saying anything either, she was just silent and whimpering for her Alpha, Remus.

I got up, wanting to take a glass of juice when I began throwing up and coughing at the same time when Scott came up to me and helped me.

I calmed down after some minutes and went to the living room to see Allison sitting down, but when she saw me, she quickly got up and hugged me tightly.

"I'm so sorry about what happened, Hayley. It's my fault,' her eyes were getting teary. "I shouldn't have left you, if I was there, this wouldn't have happened. I'm so sorry, Hayley.' She burst out in tears and I could only sigh and gave her a warm hug, patting her back and then I muttered, loud enough for her to hear me.

"It's not your fault, Allison. I was the one who left and unknowingly went to the room because I needed to throw up. Only to discover that he was there, so, it was not your fault and stop crying…"

"It was Remus, wasn't it," Scott spoke behind me and strolled, touched my shoulder and sighed. "I knew you were lying that you didn't know who the Alpha was, because his scent was in that room and I could fucking recognise that scent, I can never forget that scent for a second. I always perceive it, whenever I walk past him and his stupid bunch of people he calls, his friends.' Scott furiously uttered and clenched his fist.

"Remus was the one that marked Hayley," Allison enunciated in shock. "If he could mark Hayley, get taken over by her pheromones and do it for two days straight, that means…"

"Remus is Hayley's mate,' Scott finished, dropping the bombshell and I felt my legs weaken at the realization that Scott stood right.

"There is…is no way, he will be my mate,' I held my head and screamed panicking, falling on my knees and kept muttering no and no, was this happening because of me.

Remus was not my mate.

"Yes, he is your mate and Scott is right about that." My wolf confirmed. I couldn't say a word, getting up from the floor again, I felt nauseous and ran towards the sink.

Scott and Allison rushed after me and helped me till I was done.

Scott brought out my supplements and suppressant from the package Allison was holding. Ripping off the seal, brought out the injection and injected it into my arm as I silently winced.

When he was done, I felt relieved, I wanted to lean on the wall, so I could take a breath when Allison supported me to sit towards a chair nearby and I did.

"How do you feel, Hayley." She asked concernedly as she touched my forehead with her palm and I just smiled at her.

"I feel so much better now." Scott sealed the package once more and said. "This is the fourth injection, will you be alright? Too many suppressants are way too dangerous for your health."

"Four injections,' Allison gasped. 'Isn't that too much, what if it has side effects?'

"Calm down, nothing will happen," I muttered, wanting her to stop talking for a second.

"Nothing will happen? You can't take more than even two injections in a day, that's risky."

"She's doing it to keep her pheromones in a tab, to keep herself in control, just a little bit worried if she can handle it,' Scott perked up.

"But, that's different, Scott. Did the doctor prescribe this for her, it's dangerous. It's not…"

"Hayley had bonded with Remus, if he gets close to her, her pheromones will leak out and that wouldn't be good, you know."

"I know but doesn't this mean, she needs to…"

Three days later, I went to school for the first time after telling my parents that I would be fine, even though they still insisted that I stay at home to make sure I was okay, but I told them otherwise. However, I knew one thing, they'd caught Remus's scent and were searching for him already and I could hear my father ordering the warriors to look for him, while I was walking away. My only hope was that they don't come to my school or me, bumping into Remus.

Leaving home with Scott, who also had been feeling guilty for what happened, tried as much as possible to help me out and be by my side and I sincerely appreciate him for that.

Sooner or later, Allison caught up with us. We walked together to the school building and I almost felt my heart stop when I sighted Remus talking to a girl, laughing. I enlightened my eyes elsewhere, feeling the pain within my heart seeing how he was laughing with those girls.

I felt awful.