In a sunny day, Lucas, a seventeen year old boy was laying on the couch, wearing a black shirt. His hair was golden, his eyes were blue as the ocean and his face was almost picture perfect. Among all these beautiful things of Lucas, there was one thing that made people look down on him despite his height, that is his daily habits.
"Man...when will night come. I wanna sleep." said Lucas as he threw the magazine he was reading away. He somehow tore the cover page up so the thing his sister, Lily, a ten year old girl could see was some stupid advertisement which said that a certain man can foresee the future for others. Lily's hair was golden brown and her face was round. She had a deep voice and her eyes were heavy blue. She was wearing a long blue frock with her hair braided as a ponytail.
"Lucas." said Lily with her hands on her waist.
"Yeah shorty, what's up?" said Lucas as he smiled at his sister.
"Get the hell up lazybones."
"Oh! You scarred me!"
"I know that I didn't. Stop being like this all the time. You think Astrid would love to see you like this?"
"You heard mom saying that couple of times and now you are repeating what she says and it's getting annoying."
"Ugh...What is that stupid magazine you are reading?"
"What if it's about 'those' things?"
"Mom! Lucas is seeing 'those' things!!!"
"Hey wait! I said 'what if'..." said Lucas as he got up from the couch. When he was about to stand up he tripped and fell. He looked at his own belly and realized that he has gotten a little fatter than before.
"*sigh*I'm gonna look like a thirty years old man with this belly in no time...when will I die?" said Lucas as he got up.
"Honey, is it true?" said Mrs. Smith, mother of Lucas and Lily. Her hair was golden brown and her eyes were light blue. She was a tall skinny woman with pale skin unlike Lucas and Lily who have warm medium skin tone.
"No mom...do I even go out these days? Who would have given me that kind of magazine anyway? I was just kidding with Lily."
"Oh...Well I thought you snuck outside like last night."
"I'm telling you mom, I DID NOT SNEAK OUT. I don't even like going outside these days."
"I saw it with my own eyes. You walked outside and...kept mumbling about something."
"Okay mom enough about that bull. Maybe I was sleepwalking. Now please leave me alone."
"Okay...come downstairs when you feel like it. I made some cookies for you." Mrs. Smith looked away with a helpless face.
"Thanks...But I'm fine with these bags of chips."
Mrs. Smith and Lily left the room. Lily hugged her mom tight and said,
"Mom...what exactly happened? Why is Lucas like that?" said Lily with a lower tone of voice.
"You already know honey." said Mrs. Smith.
"But Uncle Jack wasn't that sad when he lost Aunt Laura. I mean he lost his wife."
"Oh...Honey, it's the different case with Jackson. He is mature and your brother is still young and not that good with dealing with these things. You remember how he would cry when your dad went abroad, right?"
"Yeah...what are we having today?"
"Chicken soup and some juice if you want."
"Okay..."
From another room in the big house, a male voice called Mrs. Smith.
"Mia! Where is my tie?" yelled a man with deep voice. Hearing his voice, Mrs. Smith went towards the room he was in. The man had deep brown hair. He was about six feet tall. His skin was warm peach. His eyes were ocean blue. Their family and status were picture perfect.
"I will get it. Relax." said Mia Smith.
The man moved his head and hinted Mia to go towards him. Mia got close to him and he moved his lips close to her ears and said,
"How is Lucas dealing with it?"
"Why are you being so silent?" said Mia.
"There is my colleague in the sitting room. We can't say his problems out loud you know..."
"No...he is still like that. He still can't believe that he snuck outside last night. He said that maybe he was sleepwalking."
"Alright. Can I-"
"No you can't Jose, I'm busy." said Mia and grinned at him, then she walked away.
After a short while, Mia brought him a tie. Meanwhile, Lily was chatting with her friends who came to visit her. One of the kids said,
"Hey Lily, how's your brother doing?"
"He is doing alright, why ask?" said Lily as she looked at the kid with a dubious face.
"Well...you know...I was just wondering."
"Nah, don't believe her Lily, she has a crush. That's why she asked." a boy among the kids smirked.
"Well she just has a crush so I don't mind." said Lily.
"What if I do?" The kid who mentioned Lucas frowned.
"Just as I said. Even if you do it still does nothing, Sarah." Lily shook her head.
"Damn, Lily is sassy as always." the boy who accused the girl on having a crush on Lucas grinned once again.
Lily tilted her head. "Aren't you a little bit too young to say those stuffs, Steve? It doesn't suit your mouth."
"Seriously Steve? You are my brother and you are embarrassing me in front of everyone." said Sarah.
The other kids laughed. They were chatting in the middle of the garden. Lucas was seeing everything from the window of his room. He suddenly heard a bell ringing. He did not pay it any heed. Soon, he got bored and got back on the couch in his room. He opened his laptop and started playing some MOBA game.
"Oy..." said a girl from behind as she slapped on his back. The girl was short and had long black hair with brown eyes. Her skin was fair and smooth. She was wearing a short skirt and short sleeved top.
"Hey Sam..." said Lucas. The girl's name is Samantha but they both calls each other by shortening their names.
"You are playing that shit again? The players are fucking toxic."
"Yeah...a friend of mine called so..."
"You do keep your online friends satisfied these days where your real life friends are worrying about you."
"Yeah...so? They don't know shit about me so it's easy to go on with them."
"So you mean that we are useless to you now?"
Lucas moved his face left and right. He got a kill and then he died in the game on purpose. Samantha slammed his laptop and shut it.
"It's been one fucking year! Grow up already. She is dead. She ain't coming back and you can't go on like this either. That goddamn Astrid. She just left you in pain."
"SHUT UP!"
Samantha starred at him with a stern face. Her eyes got filled with tears.
"What? Are you gonna throw a tantrum now? I know everything and I'm still keeping myself away from you so fuck off!"
"What? You know what?" Samantha yelled.
"You liked me since elementary school. You hated Astrid since the time I said that I liked her. When me and Astrid became a couple, you went away from us because you couldn't bare it. AND THEN YOU CAME BACK BECAUSE SHE DIED!"
Lucas threw the laptop away. Samantha got startled and moved back.
"Yes I was jealous Luca and I AM still jealous. But it doesn't mean that I came back because she died. I came back because...I thought I could help you-"
"I know I know. Now go. Never come back. Tell others to never come back again to me. I suck, you suck, they suck and everybody sucks!"
Samantha rushed outside the room while wiping her tears with her fingers. Lucas was left alone in the room. His eyes got teary as well. He jumped to his bed and hugged a pillow. He could hear Discord notifications but he still did not pay any heed. His mind was filled with flashbacks of what happened.
"Huh...what happened again? Uh...yes...My girl died a year ago...How? Well she killed herself. Why? Because I was not good enough to save her. To be there for her. To make her happy when she got sad. I am a perfect trashcan."
"The incident took place in July 2021. A fifteen years old girl named Astrid Morgans' dead body was found in the bathroom of a small apartment of London. The girl was laying beside her elder sister Agatha Morgans. The police reports say that Astrid might have killed her sister by herself and then herself. The neighbors of the apartment declares that Astrid has always had some mental problems like Agoraphobia and Dermatophagia( An illness which makes a person gnaw their skin, especially hands and fingers.)". The case is still ongoing and unsolved." said the paper Lucas was reading. He still looks for clues about the incident.
"I don't believe a thing that these reports says...Every single records say the same thing...I hate this...I hate this life...Mom and dad would be better without a crap like me. I am not the picture perfect boy anymore...I even failed on my tests. I couldn't bear seeing her like that, that day...I am not a good friend or a brother...or a student or a son. Every single day is boring and painful. I wanna die...I have to die...Well before that, maybe I should try gnawing my hands a bit like her. I wonder how it tastes."
Lucas gnawed on his hands. His hands started bleeding. He let out a small scream. He kept doing it until he couldn't anymore.
"Man...blood is hella bitter. How did Astrid swallow this. She said that it's sorta sweet and salty."
"Well...You know blood of group A is kind of bitter and the blood of group O is kinda sweet! So, I think that your blood would taste horrible. You can taste mine, he he. Huh? Why that look? Feeling disgusted, pretty boy?" said Astrid when they both were ten.
"Oh...she told me that the taste of mine would suck. Man..."
Lucas got to his bathroom and filled up the bathtub. He heard the voice of a maid in the house. He laid down on the bathtub. The water level was going higher and higher.
"Mr. Lucas. Can you open your door please? Oh it's not locked." said the maid and got inside the room.
"Ah...a maid came in...I guess I should tell her that it will take some time for me to get out." said Lucas and yelled out that he cannot come out anytime now. The maid told him that dinner is ready and that his mother and father are calling. Lucas assured her with a "Yes."
"Oh, God. I never prayed to you even once. Please grant this idiot his last wish. I want a life where I can lead it happily. Where I won't be a failure...where I will get her back. Mom and dad will be okay without me. They will just weep for a day or two and then they will get themselves back up...and about Lily...She is such a woman already. Please God...give me one last chance." said Lucas in his own mind as he slowly drowned. His body acted up as he was drowning to death. He still kept himself underwater.
In no time, Lucas took his last breath under the water. It is said that people can still hear things after they die for a certain time. He heard his friends, his family crying. His sister was crying out loud. He felt guilty for his deed. He wanted to cry as well but no tear went out. He felt suffocated. Then slowly and slowly he couldn't hear anything anymore.
Then he woke up after a long sleep. No one knows how long it was. He found himself in a wooden house. There was a small vase of white roses. He was laying beside a woman in a white dress. He opened his mouth to speak just to realize that he has no teeth.