Was it detrimental to his recovery? Arren didn't think so. Most might think it was him, fighting poison with poison, but in his opinion, so what?
Would he just let psychological treatment slowly heal his wounds? He could do that. Yet... This wasn't something that could be treated with simple counseling or therapy sessions.
The thing was... All of this debt is in the past. The memories, the torment, and everything that happened were in the past. It didn't happen to the current him, yes. Some might argue that if they knew.
However, it was engraved in his soul. It wasn't just memories. The despair, helplessness, and torment... Everything was real. It all happened—not to the current him, but he experienced it nonetheless.
It was all the same.
The him of the past and the him of today—it was all him. Arren was tired of escaping and burying the filth in his subconscious; he would embrace them.
