I own a very big mansion, I won't call it a home cause it's lonely
l have the maids, servants,guards, businesses,companies,hotels,malls, money,beauty and everything anyone could ever ask for,I just lack a family.
Mine died when I was just a kid.
I would soon be married to Jane,she's my type of woman elegant, cute, funny, independent, pretty, has nice curves, a pretty ass, perfect boobs and I love her.
But something, just something that I think I'm missing and I try to find that in her, I can't exactly tell what it is but I'm unconsciously seeking for it, I hope I find it soon
But like the cold person I am I don't think I have the right to hope, to wish, I destroy everything and anyone that comes my way, and I make sure to see it scramble to nothing , like I'm not meant to be hap-.
"Young master, boss,boss?" I felt a familiar voice say and hands tapping my shoulder.
"yes?" I asked calmly realizing I zoomed off again.
"your food sire, you haven't touched it" said Lucy my butler .
" oh okay" I replied ,totally did forget about my dinner. so I dug my chop stick into the spaghetti with hot sauce and chicken.
" I'll take my leave sir" Lucy said and my reply was
"tell everyone to take the week off including Jerald (my personal body guard)".
" oh!, okay sir" I know she was surprised by my words and worried.
Lucy is like a mother to me, I never told her thou, but she's important to me . Lucy has been my family butler for over 32yrs, she's a beta and in her late fifties has three grown kids and a stable life, but still insists on taking care of me.
"it's okay Lucy I can take care of my self, I'm a grown man you know" I reassured her as she chuckled
"I know, young master is now a grown man, and I'm sure doesn't need me anymore" Lucy joked but I could tell she was sad.
"why wouldn't I need you, you're my only family" I sincerely told her,and she kissed me on my forehead and then hugged me and I felt something wet on my tee shirt. what.....? Lucy is crying
I pulled her away from my body gently and stared into her warm brown eyes that holds so much love and said
"I really appreciate everything you've done for I and my family both in the past and now,I really am thankful Lucy"
"I'm 100% sure .your parents are proud of who you've become including flora,they loved you so much,they always will,i am sure they are happy and praying for you wherever they are"
"they sure are" I concluded and we both laughed
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Minutes after Lucy left, I went to the kitchen to clean the utensils I used (yes i Jayden knows how to cook and clean am not some lazy assed alpha)
And went to the bathroom to have my bath. But I ended up crying inside
Yesssss I cried, the Almighty Jayden Wayne cried, hell to Jayden the ruthless , hell to Jayden the boss, I fucking cried, fuck the people, fuck their words, I'm fucking human too why don't they understand, fuck it all, it hurts so much.
I was holding it for so long so Lucy wouldn't know how much her words affected me, how much memories her words brought back, I held it in so Lucy wouldn't see how weak I am. I gave in and broke into more tears
*its so lonely*sobs*that it fucking hurts* it hurts like hell*sobs*it's sad please help me moon goddess*I can't take it anymore*mom,dad flora,please come back I don't want to be alone anymore*why won't you all just come back*sobs* I need you all please come back*I cried as I slide down the bathroom's wall ,as the cold water from the shower soothes my aching body
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Immediately I was doing with my little phase in the bathroom
An: little?
Jayden: yeah whatever
An: did he just,he really did just, snubbed me?, what the guts .
I lazily picked up a black robe and boxer to wear from my walk in closet.
And then head to my library to check the email lora sent to me.