It was almost 10:30 pm when we returned from Target, the nearest shopping mall in here. Raidan bought me a tons of dresses and everything that I'll need in order to live here for a lifetime, ok a lifetime maybe exaggerating but he definitely bought me dresses for almost a year.
And when I said that, "you are buying me too much",
He said, "It's alright cause in that case you won't have to worry about luggage when we come here after our marriage".
What could I possibly say after that?? And yeah I know that I had said I would buy all my necessities with my card but my card is frozen cause according to the company I'm still in Oxford so I couldn't possibly be using my card in Boston, so it's been frozen since the moment I first tried to use it. And that's why I unintentionally had to use his card. Oh by the way I also bought some groceries from there, enough for the time being of our stay.
After coming home I told him to go to sleep, again, hoping that he was done with his excuses. And I guess he was that's why he went straight to the bedroom. I didn't go to sleep since I had some thesis to work on. Around 11 pm I went to the bedroom to get my phone from charge. And I was shocked at what I saw in the bedroom.
"What are you doing? Why are you still awake? I thought you were suppose to be asleep!!" I said looking at him with irritation.
"I'm sorry I can't sleep", he said, honestly.
"What do you mean? Are you worried that I would do something to you?" I asked nervously.
"What? No!! You know I would never worry about that", he replied.
"Well, thank you but what is it then?" I asked again.
"I... I just can't sleep", he said making eye contact with me.
I looked into his eyes and they looked pained. At first I couldn't understand. But as I looked into his eyes, I seem to understand. All on a sudden everything seemed to make sense. I looked at him with sympathy.
"Hold on, you don't right? Oh my god!! Do you really?" I asked him coating my words with worry.
"Yeah, you are right..!! I do have insomnia", he said with a lopsided grin.
"Then even yesterday...." I asked looking into his eyes.
"No, I slept yesterday. I don't know how!!" he said and once again he sounded honest.
"That's a relief", I said.
He just nodded. But then a theory came to my mind. As a student of psychology, I'm aware of situations like these. And I'm confident that I can help him with it. Even though I might need to do a little bit of acting. But I don't mind as long as it's for him.
"Raidan, listen I don't mean to be self obsessed but I think the reason that you slept yesterday is because of me", I said slow enough for him to process all of that at once.
"You?" he asked in confusion.
"Yeah. Listen let me tell you a story, ok?" I told him.
"OK cool!!"
"Alright, so the reason that you suffer from insomnia is because of me. Cause you fell in love with me when you first saw me", I told him, trying my best to stay normal.
"Oh yeah? What happens after that?" he asked with his one of those sarcastic smile.
"So.. What happened is.." I thought for a while about what to make up next.
"I lost my sleep because I was always thinking about you maybe? Or something like that?" he said looking at me with his one eye brow risen.
"Yeah something like that. So, at first you lost sleep because you were thinking about me then you lost sleep because you were thinking how to avoid me.." I said little roughly.
"Avoid you? I never did that", he said confidently.
But as I glared at him,, he admitted.
"Well, maybe just a little bit. But in my defense, I just thought you feel uncomfortable around me. So I avoided you so that you feel better", he said. Making up a stupid excuse.
"Oh!! That's absurd!! I would be glad if I run into you. Why on earth would I feel uncomfortable?" I said rolling my eyes.
"Really?" he asked with a wide smirk.
"Eww..... Wipe that smirk off your face", I said making a disgusted face, which was basically a joke.
"Ok, I'm sorry. Continue with your story", he said giving a smile.
"Ok, so after that you wanted to see me, talk to me, have me by your side but then you realized that it might be little late for that.." I stopped to to think about what to say next.
"Um.. So you proposed me and when I said yes, you could finally sleep peacefully", I again needed time to think.
"But then there came another problem, you were always worried about me. Since I am still considered a new person in UK. And that's why you always wanted to be there for me. But... no no and that's why when I was in that jet with you", I stopped to take a breath.
"I was finally relived to have you by my side and that's why I could sleep, is that what you are trying to say?" he asked, helping me complete my sentence.
"Yeah", I nodded.
"So, how do you feel after saying all these cheesy things?" he asked, amusement written all over his face.
"Disgusted, completely disgusted. You never know, cause I might start throwing up", I said shrugging a shoulder.
He laughed. And I could see him loosing whatever weight was in his mind. And so I knew that I was walking in the right direction. So, I guess I need to do it for a little longer.
"Nevertheless , what I'm trying to say is I'm your cure. Having me around will help you sleep", I said with a little bit proudness.
"Oh!! So, my cure would you like to sleep with me? Cause I'm sleepy. I guess just having you around works!!" he looked pleased.
"Yeah sure. Which side? Left or right?" I asked. Cause I knew by sleep, he asked me to sleep by his side.
"Left. Do you need any border?" he asked.
"No, you are my fiance, as in my husband to be. If I can't trust you this much then I don't think I should marry you", I said with a smirk as I laid down on the right side of the bed.
He didn't lay down with me at the same time but instead went outside the room. I sit up to see what he was upto. Apparently he wasn't upto anything. He just went outside and turned the lights and fire off (of the fire place) and brought a bottle of water. And after coming inside he closed the door.
And as he closed the door, I bit of thought maybe I shouldn't have tried so hard. Cause even sleeping beside him seems dangerous for him, and for me too if he feels the same. He came close and put the water bottle on the night stand and laid down. Both of us are awfully quiet. Now I'm remembering Elsa's words from early this morning when I had called her to inform about my trip here.
"Hey, I couldn't get a hold of Alexia. And that's why I called you to inform that I'm in Boston with Raidan", I said to Elsa.
She didn't say anything for a long moment. And the moment was so long that for a minute I thought, the call was disconnected. I was about to hung up when I heard her screaming.
"Wo... Aw... You were seriously... taught well. So tell me, did you sleep with him? How is he? Is he good? And that body of his, those biceps, those abs, are those real?" she asked in complete excitement.