Purple's POV.
Not a single day passed without having this nightmare , it's been part of my life and i lived to accept it because it reminds me of every single pain i went through .
I couldn't forget whatever happened that day especially the two people i treasured in my life. If living would be with whom you love only , then they were my oxygen and blood , i couldn't live without them since i believed even if the whole world rejects me , they would open their hands and bring me into their embrace .
But that stupid faith i installed broke down when i realized how i have been used and betrayed by them . I survived that day but dead , something died and am afraid it was too precious than anything , not even them could fit it's worth.
I never knew what i buried dead but as i lived , i came to realize that what died was me , i lost myself on the mercy of death , i guess that was the price ....my soul in exchange of my body .
I don't need emotions to remind me how i was before since i got one that engulfed all of them ...REVENGE... they all have to pay for what they did , not less but more since they are heartless , am afraid they won't feel it and so i intent to inflict it slowly untill their senses fails to handle , then only their awaken emotions would .
My hands caressed the pictures across the wall and my heart clenched , pain was what I felt all these days when i bled on the inside . Everytime am inside this room where i ensured that all of memories are kept since my heart couldn't hold them anylonger , the voice that becomes the new me always whispered ' Burn them all ' and i couldn't feel less happy as i imagine how i would feel seeing their misery .
I kept walking until my legs stopped before a huge pictures of all and here i always find my smile , with a warm feeling looking at the aged woman with her beauty , she looked young though and her face resembled so much with the one i hate the most , she didn't do a lot and she's like a third wheel to my revenge and by so her punishment would be letting her watch how they pay because , there is nothing as painful as a mother witness how her child goes through pain and there is nothing she could do when she got everything .
" It's time they pay for their sins , don't you think ?" I spoke to the woman and i smiled just like how she did on the picture , Our smile looks so familiar and that's why she makes me smile when am in here , i somehow wished she know how much i adore her.
" Don't you like the colour ?" i asked looking around the room adorned mostly with violet colour , i smiled again to the picture , " It's you literally , anyway I'll be back soon ..... this time with good news maybe " i added after caressing it slowly and walked out of the room .
The book shelf closed and became a bedroom again , i smiled on how the colour choice reflected themselves around the room , Purple and red . I just love what these colours display.
Purple display Wisdom, power , ambitions, creativity and loyality , it also gives the air of mystery around it , it symbolize heart of love and more of likely facts .
Red displays hatred , anger, aggression , heat and war , it also states ambition and what i crave the most ... Blood .
These colours held the mystery of whom i really am and with these nobody stupid is going to define my ways even when i will display them during the day and night ...it's going to be fun , like i said creativity is my name .
I walked and sat to my bed when a door knob twisted and Maya walked in , " How many do i have to remind you about knocking ?" i snapped , this girl knows me the best and yet tries with every opportunity she gets to deify my principles .
" Am sorry Purple " she pleaded and that's what i like to hear , pleading ....it's melody sounds so sweet . " It's fine , what is it ?" my voice being stern i questioned her , it was my time for a relaxing shower but i finished what i wanted to attend to .
" Well Mr.Wing demanded your self presence for him to agree the alliance " she spoke not glancing at me after i became cold to her a while ago .
" Arrogant as always " i mumbled as i stood and walked to the window , my fingers couldn't help but curl each other tightly .... " You can go " i spoke and within a minute a door closing sound reached my ears .
Now i needed a relaxing shower for really , this stupid man has always been arrogant , does he have to see me to get a profitable alliance from the best company like mine .
I sighed trying to relax my nerves then walked to the bathroom , removed my clothes and entered the bathtub . When the hot water contacted my body , i felt relieved from all the tension that was built within me a while ago .
A smile formed on my lips as an idea grouped my mind on how to deal with this arrogant human , after all he used to be my ....
My brain shut down suddenly and all i could see is blank as i dipped deep in the tub .
After a while .
" Aaarh " i gasped trying to grasp some air as my eyes bulged , i could feel them being so much of red , i know what was happened , it kept happening and it's been my nightmare for years now .
" Purple " I heard Maya calling my name and i snapped " Get out " i shouted on top of my lungs and she flinched . It was not the first time she sees me like this but still don't know what was happening , i wouldn't let her know of course , this was the last thing i can keep by myself .....a secret .
Maya left as always , i closed my eyes as my body convulsed , i tried to control it and the more i did the pain doubled . Yet i couldn't be like this , i pushed myself on the bed till i got closer to the drawer beside me .
" The keys " i mumbled as my hands stretched itself on the upper edge of the bed and drag the keys from it's depth , i hurriedly tried to open the drawer and pull it then grabbed the tablet medicines and syringes with some bottles .
My hands hardly reach the bottle i usually place on the table , as my fingers trembled i pilled some of tablet medicines and held pills on my hands .
I felt a gush of something hot dripping my nose and from my ears . I knew what it was ....blood hated the fact this was happening to me , nonetheless i can't do anything about it .
My hand hardly reached for the water bottle i uaually place on the table beside my bed , threw the pills inside my mouth and it cursed me for it's sourness , yet i ignored the taste and push my head back ward facing up and drank some water , then threw the bottle to the floor.
I tried to look down , grabbed a bottle closer and pilled a syringe from it's covers before i injected it to the bottles top and took some of it's portion , i can say untill it was full .
I threw my head back , the blood was now out of my control and these injection would help . I looked down again and straightened my hand to find the vein and injected myself.
I threw it to the floor and threw my head back trying to hold myself with my trembling hands , now i can't slip into darkness again because if that happens , Maya might came in and see this mess i made .
After a while the blood stopped and i layed myself on bed gaining some energy as tears flooded from my eyes to ears and my subconscious scolded me , " Crying means you're weak " .
" Are you a failure ?" , " Are you a looser ?" , " If you're then you're a fucking bastard , a freak , a curse " it went on questioning and taunting me as my tears rolled down , wetting my ears .
"Am not ...we..ak " I spoke more like whispering , " Not..a ..loser " i went on , " Not ..a freak " , "Am strong " i spoke that fully before i grased some more air and my subconscious shouted , " Then smile " .
I gulped and forced my smile slowly .. " wider " it insisted with the same voice and i made it wider , " WIDER " it shouted with a menacing voice and i did , i could hold it when a laugh escaped my lips ... i kept on untill i laughed louder but i didn't feel happy but pain , anger and hatred surging within my chest .
My subconscious kept quite and i knew it was so satsfied now , i understand it better than anyone and so i kept laughing as more tears rolled down to my ears ... i laughed and i laughed with pain in me .
Time went by and my laugh died as i gathered all the energies i had and moved from the bed , cleaned the mess i made . I then walkedto the mirror and memorized how miserable i looked and smirk was plastered on my face .
" It's long enough , endure for some more time ....this will ve over soon " i talked to my reflection and raised my hand slowly to comfort her as i touched her fingertips and she did too .It was so reliving knowing we had each other.