"Why are you not allowed to like me?" I needed to know.
"Well...you are his sister," he started,"I can't like my friend's sister or date her, bro code."
"Wait, what?"
"I know... I know, I tried Julie, I tried....I swear I tried hard not to like you but everytime I saw you it kept on growing, my feelings kept on growing and I asked you to be my girlfriend without thinking of Nick, I shouldn't have but I did." I watch him put words together as he ran his hand through his curly hair.
"Sooo....." I really didn't know what to say, maybe I shouldn't have asked.
"I'm sorry." He looked sorry but I didn't know what he should be sorry for, I mean why can't he date me because of some stupid bro code.
"Well...Nick doesn't have to know you like me." I just thought about it and he actually didn't.
"Huh?"
"I mean you don't have to tell him you like me, he doesn't have to know."
"He will find out somehow. We have mutual friends and....."
"Then those mutual friends also don't have to know." I told him because I wasn't about to let something I found unnecessary to ruin what I wanted to have with him(Uche). He's the first guy I have ever liked, who's not Nick (whom I am obligated to like.) and I wasn't going to let something meager disrupt what I wanted.
Honestly thinking, I don't even know if I will ever be able to like someone else as much as I like Uche. In my previous school, in the city where I live with my mum, most of my classmates already think I'm gay(lesbian) because I don't have a boyfriend like many of my mates. I wonder if they couldn't figure out that it was not just boys that I didn't like, I didn't like anyone, no one except my mum....well...and my aunt and my grandma, I didn't like my grandpa (I think he doesn't like me too but that's that) and Nick. No, I don't like Nick, ew.
"What are you saying, if we do that then we are basically having a secret relationship." Uche said sounding worried.
"Yeah, that sounds fine, we could do that, we could have a secret relationship since it's against your bro code to date me." I said but he was still looking at me unbelievably.
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah." I nodded and swinged his hands along with mine, he had been holding me all this while.
"I hope Nick doesn't hate me if he finds out." I heard him say with a sigh.
"He won't find out." I assured him pulling him forward so we could continue walking, even if I didn't know where I was taking him.
"You are sure you're okay with this?"
"Yeah." I was."If we don't tell anyone, no one will find out."
"What if I wanna kiss you?" I stopped when I heard him and turned to him with my eyes widened in surprise.
"....." I didn't know what answer to give this time."Well, I don't know...we will figure that out." I shrugged sheepishly."So you like PDA?" I asked because I didn't know he liked PUBLIC DISPLAY OF AFFECTION to be asking me that.
"I'm not a fan of it when its others doing it but I was hoping to do it with you." He replied and there was that feeling in my stomach, that rumbling but ticklish feeling."Do you like PDA?" He returned my question.
Ohhh boy, what do I tell him, I didn't know if to let him know I have not had my first kiss yet not to speak of whether I liked PDA or not so I looked away to avoid any more embarrassment other than the situation with the doughnut because I knew my face was probably red by now.
Just tell him, you already asked about he and Nick's conversation right and he was honest.....it was my inner self telling me again.
"Julie?" He called me.
"Yeah." I answered, looking back at him.
"Let me guess, you don't like it?" He assumed since I wasn't saying anything.
"How will I know, I have never...." I swallowed before I finished my sentence."I have never kissed anyone before." He stopped walking again after I said that and I was sure I heard him chuckle.
"Are you joking?" He asked with a surprised smile.
"No." I shook my head and he stopped smiling.
"You are serious?"He asked again.
"Yeah." I nodded.
"You for real haven't had a kiss before." He was now making a statement rather than a question.
"Yeah," I smiled sheepishly, squeezing his hands because I was nervous and needed to do something with my hands.
"Wow." I heard him say, not really exclaiming.
"Sorry, I do that when I feel nervous." I said about to separate my hand from his after I had just squeezed his fingers but he didn't let me.
"Please don't." He said and I let him reclaim my hands in his.
"What about you, have you had your first kiss?" I asked thinking I sounded silly because he probably had, it should be obvious enough for me, he was Uche; cute and tall and school famous and cute and nice and cute.....yeah, he's so cute with his brown eyes.
"Yeah, I have." He said in a lower voice.
"Oh." I just said."What's your count?"
"Hmmn?"
"How many girls have you kissed?" I asked, secretly shocked at myself for being able to ask that because I shouldn't want to know.
"I don't know, I can't count."
"Oh." I found myself saying again. I wasn't showing it but WOW, he couldn't count?
"Let me rephrase that," I heard him,"I'm not sure of how many I have kissed, but it's not like I have kissed every girl in this town, I know that sounded like I've kissed a lot of girls." I laughed when he said that, it's like he knew what I was thinking just now to want to rephrase what he earlier said.
"Rare number, how many would you say?"
"Six?"
"Six? How many exes?"
"None." He replied immediately.
"None?"
"None." He replied again.
"Wow, thank goodness, at least it's not just me." I said out loud and heard him laugh."Why though?" I asked after.
"I actually don't do relationships but you made me change my mind."
"Me too, you don't know how much I dislike boys but it's funny that I like you, really, I don't know why but I like you." I said words directly how they came to my mind and was pleased to see him smile.
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