A.W.K.W.A.R.D. Awkward. That was what the last few days have been like for me and Mason and I think Summer has started to notice, I mean it's only Wednesday so I am in the middle of the end of my last week of looking after Summer, I had no job and I had my catch up with Jasmine in a few, I was bricking it.
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"So let me know the goss, how has Summer been? she been behaving herself?" Jasmine asked, we were currently face timing in the living room while Summer was doing some doodles on the kitchen Island, I looked over to Summer then back to Jasmine and smiled, "she's been a star, currently she is doodling on a notepad on the kitchen Island waiting for Mason to come over and I think they are going to the zoo?" I said as Jasmine placed her hands on her cheeks with a big smile "Aw that's so nice to hear, how's he been so far?" she added as I swallowed to lump in my throat that had appeared since bringing up Mason.
Jasmine could sense the change in the aura when she asked about her brother "everything is alright with you two right?" she added as I nodded and smiled half-heartedly, I don't know if tell her about what had happened between the both of us that she would want me to continue looking after Summer, and I was enjoying hanging out with her and looking after her.
"Something did go down! I knew you guys would eventually come around to each other! did you kiss?" she asked as she was smiling from ear to ear it generally looked like her face was hurting from the smiling she was doing.
"Shhhh! Summer can hear you! It's complicated and I am so so so sorry I let it happen, it's so unprofessional of me and I swear I only initiated one" I said not realising that I had just let Jasmine know that we had kissed more than once.
"Oh so you've kissed more the once, did you hear that Ben! more than one kiss!" Jasmine called out to Ben who I guess was in the same room as her or the room next to her, the colour of a tomato ran over my face as I covered my face with my hands.
"Please Summer is still in the room! and I am very embarrassed that I am now admitting it to you" I said underneath my hands and as I hide in shame, she just giggled at the fact that I had kissed her brother more than once.
"Okay well, I am going to let you go seen as we are going to the pool for a bit before we go on a little hike," Jasmine said as I slowly removed my hands from my face and nodded "okay well I'll speak to you Saturday before you arrive home Sunday," I said as she nodded and we ended the call with goodbyes.
I turned to face Summer and she was just smiling at me as if she knew what Jasmine and I were talking about, I was hoping she didn't hear a thing but that being likely was very much false, she would have heard a lot, if not everything "You wanna get ready for the zoo?" I asked as I broke the silence and she jumped down from the island and ran off to her room.
Mason: I am on my way to pick Sums up!
Me: Coolio! see you soon
Mason: See ya soon x
He gave me a kiss via text, oh gosh! We haven't really spoken about the makeout sessions that we had and I don't think I was prepared to see him again and even though it's just handing a child over it's still going to be awkward not looking at him and getting flashbacks. I hadn't stopped thinking about the makeout sesh I always felt hot and sweaty when thinking about it, my heart raced and sometimes felt like it was going to jump out of my chest, my night has been very lonesome and well it's been difficult to sleep.
My trance was broken by the doorbell ringing, I walked over to the door took a deep breath and opened it to see my next favourite outfit on mason, he was in a black polo shirt all the buttons done up and I could only imagine how his arms looked in the top, short-sleeved polo tops were my weakness, anyway he had paired it with overly sized jeans that looked amazing on him! I think I was staring too long because he cleared his throat with a smile.
"do you think I can come in" he whispered as I shook my head and smiled nodding and moving to the side for him to enter, as he walked in I got a whiff of his cologne and I think I was now standing in a puddle of myself, not to be gross but that's just how I was feeling, "you smell so good," I said closing the door and turning around to face him, "you think?" he asked as my eyes widened and my hands flew to my mouth "I didn't mean to say that out loud" I was mentally slapping myself in the face for that comment, the atmosphere was already awkward and I had gone and made it even more awkward than before.
"So the zoo huh? that should be fun!" I said starting up a conversation because the silence was being uncomfortable to be in, he looked up from his phone with a smile and nodded "yeah! Summer loves when we go to the zoo, her favourite animal is the monkey so we go all the time" he said as I nodded folding my arms and rest on the railing of the stairs.
"Mason is here Summer!" I called out as I heard the shuffling getting louder and I smiled to myself "she really makes such a fuss when you take her places, it's so cute!" I said as I smiled towards him, he walked closer to me and stood directly in front of me.
"You've been driving me crazy! and I finally know why" he said completely missing my compliment and starting a new conversation that I was avoiding, I looked at him with pleading eyes, I didn't want to keep doing this weird interaction, it was confusing and misjudging and I didn't have the willpower to do it anymore.
"Mase, this is a bad idea, whatever you have realised needs to stop" I said in barely a whisper as he just kept walking closer to me, slowly pushing me up against the railing itself, we locked eyes and stayed there for a couple of minutes trying to read each others next move.
"I think I have fallen for you Staffie, and I know that with a career like mine there is no hope in hell my fans will accept the fact that I am no longer single, I was thinking about it, what about if we kept it secret until we were both mentally prepared for all the drama that follows this?" he said as I widened my eyes and mentally pinched myself to check if I was dreaming.
"You want to be with me?"