Pregnant?
I thought the doctor said her womb was destroyed so it would be hard for her to conceive!
When did this even happen? When did she get pregnant? I shook my head, maybe she was just playing a prank on me. She doesn't want me to talk about what I saw and the only way she can get at me is by threatening me.
I wanted to dismiss the claims but I had to trust my instinct. I need a plan B. This plan A is not working out well. Maybe I might as well escape from this place and leave without coming back. What will be my excuse though? What will I tell everyone and what reasons will I give once am gone?
I crawled on the messed bed and curled myself. All the events of today playing in my head. Kendra's words cloud every conclusion that I try to make. What will be the end game? Will Kendra win as she always does? Who will believe me?
Suddenly the bed felt cold and I walked out of the room. I looked at the bed, as much as I tried to remember all those funny moments in this place, the scene of today clouds up everything. I walk to the living room, I want to sit down but I head towards the door. I want to check everything to make sure that no one will come in to plan any evidence but this won't be a problem to Kendra.
Defeated, I walk to the sofa, beside it is the laptop. I wanted to open and check out various courses Xander had recommended. I can choose from a lot of them. The only thing I can do is pay for them before the money that is in my bank finds its new owner.
I can choose social media and Marketing. This won't be hard to handle and at the same time pursue my career. It will be hard but am betting on myself. The only day I will defeat Kendra is when I will have my thing. Something that has my name on it.
I can't take my father's company from the people who took it, I can't take back the house that my family once shared before my dad remarried. Everything is written in my stepmom's name. The only thing in my name that has been used up, is my college trust fund. All of that is used in my dad's treatment.
Making up my mind, I settled on Social media ad Marketing. It's a free course that only requires you to pay for a certificate.
I look at my belly, I don't know how I will survive out there if Kendra is truly pregnant. The only thing I want to do is get money to save my baby and me.
Shifting my focus, I look at the requirements of the course but my concentration is cut short with footsteps behind me. I hope it's not Kendra who is on my neck again.
I slowly turn around and Xander is strolling towards me. I quickly close the laptop and walk towards him. He looks tired but the moment he sees me he begins to smile, I wonder what for. Stretching my hand for a shake, he engulfs me in a hug. Funnily, I feel at peace being in his chest. He kisses my hair and rubs my back. I want to stay there for too long but Kendra's words ring in my head and I quickly pull myself from his grasp. Instead of letting me go, he bends down and places his head on my belly.
"What if I tell him the baby is not his?" Kendra's words are everywhere. Every place he touches makes me remember Kendra's warning. I try to stay still but I know am also guilty. I have never told Xander that the baby might not be his because I was assaulted. I feared the outcome, I feared he might hate me. What if Kendra opens her big mouth?
After mumbling some words to my belly he stood up and held my cheeks in his hands, "I missed you."
"What?" I asked minded.
Why would he say that? He is married but he keeps saying words that affect me and make me feel as if I have a chance.
He smiled and moved closer to me but I quickly pulled away pushing him, "You are married Xander, I can't do this to Kendra."
I walked to the kitchen to make him a quick coffee. I thought I left him standing but he followed me, grabbing the hand that had a cup. He placed the cup down and pulled me closer to him.
Forcing my eyes to look at him, I don't know what he is searching in my eyes because I don't have the answer to the question he is desperately looking for.
He caressed my cheeks smoothly, "Vee, tell me you don't feel what I feel." My body was now responsive and every time he caressed my cheeks, my body ached for more. I voluntarily moved towards him. My body was making me do what I was not supposed to do.
He lowered his head and placed a gentle kiss on my lips. He didn't stop there, he went ahead and placed another one on my neck, slowly staying there for a while.
"Vee, I want to hear you say it, I want you, do you want me?" he asked placing a third kiss on my collarbone. I felt the goosebumps build up in my body.
Am I very scared to admit that this is what I want?
He left my collarbone and looked into my eyes. He pinched my nose lightly and placed a gentle kissWhathat are you afraofoff?"
I wanted to smile and say nothing but I quickly blurtedHowhow is your mother doing?"
"Why are you quickly changing the topic?" he asked a little bit annoyed.
I wonder why he is annoyed at this time. Why is he acting this way when his girlfriend is expecting a child? I wonder even why I agreed to be kissed by him acting stupid in front of him.
"You haven't talked about her. " I said and picked the cup pouring coffee into it.
"No, until you give me the answer!" he was now angry.
"Xander, can you be reasonable, why would you like me yet you have a wife? My step-sister, you think it's easy doing this?" I asked him. I didn't understand why he was forcing this.
"I want to divorce her because I love you, why don't you understand?" he said, frustration in his voice.
"Are you stupid? Why are you going to divorce her yet you two love each other? I think I need to get out of this place. What we have, is not love. We are just obsessed with each other!"