(This chapter is dedicated to @lynn_marsden for your powerstone on 12.11.2022)
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(Kyle's POV Continuation)
"Ahhhhh~mmhm"
"Hey Shasha! Do you have a tendency of screaming or what? No wonder those Shan didn't want to take you in their colonies and dumbed you into Wolf colony!" I hissed.
Gods! She almost turned my little den into ruins! I really didn't get it till now why these Shashas like to scream so much unreasonably?!
But later I understood her reason of screaming. She screamed as she saw my full two-legged form without any animal skin on my body. And I couldn't help but chuckle a little.
She might have thought that I was unintentionally naked in front of her but that's not the case. I intentionally wanted her to see my naked self so that she could get attracted towards me.
And I guess it was my wrong move and it was also her first time seeing a naked beast. A part of mine was very happy that she had never seen a naked beast and another part...
'From which tribe is she from? Has she never seen a naked beast before?'
So I tried to reason it out with her why I was naked like that, "Well, are you screaming for that reason? Oh c'mon! You're my mate now! It's okay for me to appear like this in front you."
I saw her opening her mouth again, and after this repeated attempts of her screaming, I was sure my den soon was going to collapsed!
"Whaaaat? Are you kidding me?"
I immediately covered my ears with my hands but that moment didn't come. I slowly removed my hands and then the reality hit me hard as I stared at her deeply.
I controlled the negative emotions building up inside of me as I voiced my concern, "Why? Are you that unhappy to be my mate?"
She didn't answer and avoided my gaze. I could feel her guilt towards me and I started to get scared. When she was still sleeping in my arms I had placed so much of my hope... but still.
'Why? Why I'm the only one who's rejected all the time? Just because I'm weak and ugly?'
'This-' She was about to say something but I didn't let her to. I pulled her in my arms and buried my head in her neck. Only now did I realize she's much taller than other Shashas and the scent coming from her neck was also sweet and attracting more towards her.
'Gosh! I really want her now! Perhaps, if we mate, she might get attract to me. As a Shan, I can at least guarantee that I'm not worst in that part!'
As soon as I thought about this, my tongue automatically rolled out and started going up & down on her beautiful, delicious neck. Soon after, I found her weak spot as I started to kiss and suck on it.
'God, I really want to make her mine now! I really want her to look only at me!'
"Mmh-ah"
And the moment she moaned, I completely lost it. I started to kiss her deeper and leave my marks on her. I kissed the place passionately where I had given my temporary mark to her earlier.
At a point of time, she had also hung her hands at the back of my neck bringing us closer to each other. And I slowly moved my lips from her neck to her beautiful, soft lips. I initially wanted to kiss her softly but she's so addicting that my kisses turned aggressively and demanding.
I sucked her lips as if it would calm the fire building inside of me.
Now I understood my father's feelings towards my mom... but I bet he's feelings weren't as strong as mine towards my mate.
'Umm... I want more! More of her!'
As if my body understood me, my tongue automatically slipped into her mouth and started to taste every corner of hers. She let out another moan in between as she hugged me tighter but then she suddenly pushed me away from her.
I was still in my needy state and so I couldn't understand why she pushed me away?!
According to our ntemporary bond, she was feeling it too... then...?
'Did she suddenly realized I'm not good enough for her? Is she going to reject me?'
No!
I couldn't let that happen! She's mine! Mine! If not now, then in future! But she's mine! I'll make her mine and get addicted to me just like how I'm to her!
I clenched my jaw hard knelt down in front of her. I took her small, soft hands in between my large and rough one. I placed my head on them as I begged for the first time in my life, "Please! Be my mate."
I sensed her unstable emotions, so I continued to beg, "I promise to love you with my all, protect you with my life and take care of you in the best way."
Just as I finished, my tears that I had been holding deep inside of me began to fall, as I couldn't handle the pain anymore.
I didn't want to be rejected all the time. I also wanted to have a mate. To be loved by her, even if it's a little amount of love.
But why was my this little simple wish never fulfilled!
Why?
Am I that unlovable? Am I that unwanted?
Why me?
I was brought back from negative emotions from earlier when a sudden warmth embraced me. I opened my eyes and found her hugging me. She was patting her hands on my back as it brought a lots of comfort and warmth in my heart.
'Is- Is she comforting me? Does that mean she's accepting me? No one other than my mom has done this for me!'
"Well, there, there, don't cry. Listen to me first, okay? Then you can cry as much as you want."
I was a little shocked at first as I found it unbelievable when she kept on comforting me as her way of using the words were really weird! But still... I hugged her back... Tighter!
I buried my head deep inside the space between her neck and shoulder as I took in her scent more to feel her close.
"Please! Be my mate!" I whispered to her, earning a heavy hit on my back as she said the most unbelievable words of my life!
"I never said I won't though! It's you who assumed everything at first!"
I broke the hug as I looked deeply in her eyes, trying to find if she's faking it or not. But I didn't find any trace of mocking in it. And I felt so happy and my life felt so full for the first time.
And then she told me her reason of her breaking our kiss earlier. It was to know about me and I swear I felt so embarrassed at that moment that I stuttered to say another word to her, "Oh... oh... ohhhh... So you wanted to know about me, Shasha! Oh... oh!"
But I couldn't say anything useful as I felt like laughing and so I did. God, it was so embarrassing!
I knelt down, I begged and worst, I cried!
I really wanted to dig a hole and hide inside it forever!
Just how could I embarrass myself to this level?!
I only hoped that she didn't look down upon me earlier. But then again, sje really didn't!
And I continued to laugh.
Embarrassing! D*mn embarrassing!
But my laughter came to a sudden halt when I heard her lazy voice, which was purely teasing me, "So you're name is Haha? Quite a weird name! I don't like it at all!"
'Oh! Teasing me, huh?! I can also do that!'
With that thought, I slowly walked with my all fours (in my two-legged form), giving her a full view of my naked and well shaped body to her. And just when I had enough of her excitement and shyness, I went quickly to her side.
I rubbed my face pn her shoulder as I introduced myself and I felt her stiffened under me.
'Well, what happened? Why does it feel like she has become a mountain rock to me?'
And surprisingly she didn't even react when I called for her and even shook her. So, I decided to watch her while eating the meat that she roasted for me earlier.
'Umm... Umm... It's Tasty! More delicious than Sofia's! Awww~ My Shasha had cooked for me! My Shasha is the best! She not only accepted me but cooked for me too! I bet even those Shans out there won't get such treatment ever from their Shashas! Ever!'
And then a thought hit me!
'My Shasha is so beautiful! What if she takes in more Shans and forget me later?'
I pursed my lips in that thought and decided to make her see all the goodness of myself in this period of time before she would take in others! I would impress her with my skills that no Shan could ever do or master!
'But what is she thinking so intensely? Her emotions are unstable again! Is she hurt anywhere? That's why she's behaving like this?!'
I called out to her to get her attention. She looked at me... But with a blank expression and again dazed off!
Sigh! It's really complicated to figure out a Shasha's mind! I thought it was only applicable to my mom as she's a fox beast... But looking at her like this, it's not the case!
Then suddenly she called out for me which I obeyed and she started to ask weird questions which I didn't know how to answer.
I wanted to become my father's heir!
I wanted to sit on that throne where everyone would obey me!
I wanted those beasts to regret who looked down upon me!
But when I saw her disappointed look those things didn't matter anymore! As if my all of those wishes lost their values!
As if She was the sole reason for my life now and the only value!
"I can go anywhere with Shasha, as long as Shasha don't abandon me," I said and I felt her burst of excitement and joy!
'Is she that happy? I wish I had said these words earlier then!'
After that she suddenly hugged me and I hugged her back. I could feel her warmth and a strange comfortable emotion inside her, meant for me.
Her sweet scent coming from her neck was luring me to touch her more, to feel her more. So I started to kiss her on the neck.
'So sweet! I want to lick her!'
But she pulled herself away from me and asked me to make a strange vow! That is not to touch her in front of others?
But why?
'We, beasts touch our mates in front of others to show that our mates love us! We show others our rights and position by that! So, she's really not satisfied with me and thinks I'm an embarrassment to her, isn't it?'
I got unhappy and dejected! Most of all sad! It wasn't my choice to be born weak and ugly, right? Why couldn't she accept me the way I'm?!
But she immediately proved me wrong!
And then again another thought appeared to me!
'May be she has her mates already but didn't mate with them? They might despise me for being weak and angry, so she's hesitating! After all, no one likes a weak and ugly Shan in their pack, right?!'
But she again proved me wrong!
Well, it seemed I was never right about her from the start though!
But the way she was brushing my ears, I couldn't control myself or my body anymore. I directly pounced on her to give out some of my bodily needs.
And I had have been controlling myself for a long time. Each time she proved my thoughts wrong, I wanted her! More and more!
And I could feel her arousal too after being kissed by me. But then her words came back to my mind and I immediately stopped.
But after sometime, our positions were reversed as she started to kiss me and even awoke all of my body parts that I could hardly control.
And much to my horror, she stopped in the middle as she smirked playfully at me saying, "Revenge Taken Successfully!"
Was she serious?
Was she challenging me?
A beast? A Shan?
With that thought, I wanted to pounce on her again but she shifted. I again tried to do but she again shifted.
This went on and on until we were chasing each other while laughing. It was my first time to laugh so openly, and she was the reason why I could be so free!
But our little joy was broke by my very own Father, the present Wolf King with my mom and her other two mates.
I swear it took me all of my rationality and positive energies to not to attack them for breaking my peaceful!
And how my mom was sticking so much with her and how she almost made her my lost sister, if it wasn't for my dad's glare I would have seriously pounced on her right then and there!
And what irked me the most was that she was liking it! Liking my mom's hug! Why?! Only I could hug her! Not anyone else!
But everything changed, when my father asked her where was her home.
I felt her stiffening beside me and she struggled to breathe, as if her life would end in that instanst!
Her face that was still blushing from earlier had gone white pale and if not for my quick response she would have already fell on the ground.
All of us were panicking at the moment as I carried her on my bed, and she immediately lost her consciousness right after she uttered some shocking words!