Gui Jian fell into a long silence as he continued to stare absently at the bead in his hand.
Sometimes he lingers so long that he drowns in his own thoughts.
Why can you love a person?
This is pleasant.
He was like a warm sun shining in his cold world. There is a great contradiction in your life. While her life before that was dim and filthy, her existence alone changed her destiny.
In such a situation, how can he be willing to quit? This was love. But it could also be brother-sister love. As a master apprentice, he had taken this completely different path. Actually, it is not without reason. It also has its origin.
At first he was already jealous of his master and was reluctant to share it with others. This is the equivalent of a child not wanting to share their favorite toy. How it curved over time..
It's an embarrassing fact.
The truth is, perverted desires in the dream of the night she entered puberty were enough to open the door to another world. Of course, he has knowledge of the brothel, but he has never looked at it that much.
On the morning of the first day, he felt extreme shame. He kept the sheets and burned them. He took off his clothes and threw them away. He even avoided his master. He couldn't even stay in the same environment, let alone eye to eye and looking at his face.
He felt like he was going crazy, and he kept muttering inwardly, "I must be crazy, I must be crazy.." how could he act so perverted?
What is this palpitation in his heart despite his refusal?
Where do the fidgeting feelings in you get their basis? Gui Jian held it inside until it exploded. It was embarrassing, but he couldn't help but think. Finally. He really couldn't stand it and approached with a sense of curiosity leading to the strange feelings inside him.
"I wasn't like this."
As the bead reacted, the smoke inside him stirred. The "Master" voice was muffled. He approached the bead and blew out his hot breath. He continued, narrowing his slanted eyes in a smile. "You fascinate me"
This forbidden love, master-apprentice relationship clearly couldn't be more embarrassing, and even the gender issue was an obstacle.
His voice was hoarse.
"But I guess I really do feel like I'm in a trap—" his dangerous breath was felt. Death was raging in his eyes.
"I was neither that impulsive nor obsessive-" Even at first, his love for his master was not beyond respect. She truly admired him.
Where were things starting to go wrong?
He closed his eyes tightly, as if trying to suppress something.
"Expert"
"I think we were tricked"
From the heart demon flower, which is not easily obtained in the market, to her love for her master, it can be a manipulation.
After all, this urge, this obsession is not normal.
When his mood finally improved a bit, he realized that he was acting like he was crazy. But knowing is one thing, changing is another matter.
"But hahaha, so what?"
What if it was a trap? When he opened his eyes, a deep paranoia flashed inside him.
Those who had set him up were now burned to such an extent that their bones remained. The grass in which they were buried was already more than an inch long.
He took a deep breath.
His hands were shaking a little.
He put it in his heart, feeling the beating heart under his strong pectoral muscles.
What is love? If these feelings are artificial, what are their real feelings?
These feelings really hurt him.
Has he already promised his master that he will give up? That way, he'll actually suffer more in the future.
Since manipulation, there was of course a way to get rid of these impure things.
"Master" finally moved his lips. "I really like you, really more real"
"But I really can't stand this pain" is to continue nurturing it and not taking a single step, knowing that it will be unrequited. You can just shut them up.
Gui Jian really isn't like that. Because he knew himself well, he would get rid of them. "Master, answer me, this is your last chance" he looked at the bead with a bit of hope. But that white mist was silent, as if accepting. His lips rose slightly. Disappointment flashed quickly in his smiling eyes. "Of course, you are someone who has chosen death to not choose this" He would not have gone to death if his master had not insisted on it from the very beginning.
He took a deep breath. Cruelty flashed in his eyes. He doesn't need things that his master doesn't want! Quickly, the stream of energy made its way to his chest and glowed. His soul trembled and his face turned pale in an instant.
"Puff-" as much blood gushed from his lips as a large bowl of water would. The misty vapor from that blood had begun to rise and condensed. The condensed gas curled up into a solid.
Certainly.
Where there was black, there would be no white. Silkworm feeding on the seed of the heart demon flower. It is also called love xan. It's different than the heart flower. The heart flower imposes thoughts. It takes over your mind. And it strains your soul. By making a side effect when you oppose it.
Xan could also be compared to an actual event in the most natural way. Without you feeling it, the poison seeped into your blood and it affects all your emotions before you know it. However, this insect species, which can grow without eating anything but the seed of the demon flower, is not something that can be easily found in the market. Even the name was so rare that it was forgotten.
He stretched out his fingers. The little caterpillar writhed in his fingers.
He lifted his lips and smiled. At that moment the caterpillar trembled, leaving it fluttering. He hadn't even noticed anything wrong until now, let alone feeling his "really extraordinary" presence.
At first the caterpillar shrieked with fear. His head immediately tightened with a delicious smell that came to his nostrils afterwards. He turned the press in the direction of the root and gazed determinedly at the bead.
"Take your eyes back if you don't want to be crushed," he immediately turned to the Press in the deep voice he heard.
Gui Jian smiled, feeling better. He turned his gaze to the bead.
The overwhelming urge, the muffled feelings that had been experienced just before, seemed to vanish in a flash. He laughed mockingly. Certainly! How could it be so unreasonable? He only respected his master! But it fell into the hands of those who wanted to defile his respect by turning it into disgusting things.
He looked at the insect, and it trembled with that ominous expression.
"Make a deal or die" is short and clear.
At the moment, his mood seemed suddenly relaxed.
Since when does he act like a whining baby? He was always firm and clear in his decisions!
The caterpillar made the deal by immediately sucking the blood it had bitten off, for fear of a moment.
Quietly huddled in a corner, Amanda buried her head in both hands and muttered, "Damn, she's already crazy, she's just getting more insane," mixed feelings in a bit of rebellion. He slowly lifted the press and was startled by soulless eyes that were devoid of that keen emotion.
Yes.
The character he writes is never someone to fall for love. It was true that he went mad after his master's death. He has always been clear and sharp in his thoughts. His determined nature made him really cold-blooded. In this state, he would never stop looking for his master.
Amanda bowed her head with mixed feelings.
The fact that Gui Jian wasn't the one to fall in love with didn't mean that this abode was completely empty either. Xan, this insect is truly fascinating...
Gui Jian can deny his feelings. And he may not really be feeling anything right now. However, there was a fact that it was based on.
This is how he might have interpreted his excessive devotion to his master. His respect might have been distorted. But feelings cannot be created out of nothing, this is another form of extreme feelings towards him.
Amanda sighed deeply.
Gujian.
This character was truly the biggest mistake he ever made in his time as a writer.
-To be continued-