「That's all I have to say.」
After she was done talking, she gave out a long sigh and smiled a little using her pale red lips.
It must have been a painful story to recall but perhaps there is satisfaction in finally being able to tell a secret that you can't tell anyone.
「Okay, so, can you listen to me next?」
「Of course, what is it?」
「I'll ask you once again, will you marry me?」
「Were you even listening, Takeru-dono!」
Sensei is seriously agitated for the first time in a long time.
I don't want her to get angry.
「Then, let me ask you something, do you actually consider yourself as a man?」
「No, I don't think that I'm a man given my body.」
「Then, why don't we get married?」
「No no no no! That's not what I mean!」
「Even I will get hurt if you reject me like that.」
「No, I mean, I didn't reject you…..before talking about that, Takeru-dono, have you ever heard of the "furukisha" called androgynous?」
「Ah, I have.」
I don't know if it's the same as my world or not but it's a creature with two heads, four arms, and four legs. It is basically a man and a woman attached to each other back to back.
「Supposed someone were to see my body, I would be treated as a demon. I say I'm a man even though my body looks like a woman's because I don't want to be courted. However, my gender can't be said to be a man or a woman. I can't even be categorized as a human. What am I even saying…..ugh 」
Sensei wiped away the tears in her eyes with her tender hands.
You've been sighing a lot since a while ago. Well, this is probably the first time she has shown me so much honest emotion so this is also precious.
「Then, sensei, let's me ask you another thing, when you pee, do you do it while standing up, or sitting down?」
「Peeing?….sitting down.」
「Then, there's no problem.」
「No no no no no no no! You don't understand!」
「I don't care if Lyle-sensei is a man, a woman, a demon or something else. I'll court you, that's it.」
「I am often surprised by what Takeru-dono says but this time, I don't even know what to say!」
Sensei is pouting repeatedly. She doesn't even know if she's going to be angry or sad.
What should I say?
「Sensei, I've already done it….with a demon. I'm also familiar with a furukisha whose lower body is a number of tentacles. You said you're a monster because you have both but that won't stop me from courting you.」
「Takeru-dono, even if you say that, you will never know how much I suffered because of this body of mine.」
「I won't know that until you tell me. I'm willing to spend my lifetime trying to figure it out.」
I was somewhat satisfied because I saw something very unusual. Sensei wasn't able to come up with a response.
Sensei is a knowledge cheat when it comes to public matters but when it comes to private matters, she can be very weak.
I firmly looked into sensei's brown eyes and never removed my gaze from her.
Finally, I was able to deeply touch sensei. I held her hand and I don't plan on letting it go.
「Even so, you shouldn't like me.」
「So, I shouldn't like you? Isn't your body the only problem? Maybe we can do something about it using magic or something.」
「Do you think I never thought of that!? You can cut it or remove it but if you use a healing potion, it will be restored. There's also forbidden magic that recombines the factors themselves but that's too dangerous. I was born broken from the start so I don't want to break my body anymore!」
Sensei said that in a single breath as if she was letting out something that had built up and then, she turned her face down.
I thought for a moment then, carefully chose my words, and replied.
「In other words, you hate yourself but you also accept yourself.」
「I'm just giving up. There are some things we have to accept in order to survive. There will be more or less of that in all humanity and I'm not the only one suffering. It's just that I have to bear the karma even if it's unreasonable.」
「Then, let me accept it too. Let me embrace all of you.」
「Takeru-dono, you're taking it too lightly. Not only my body but my mind is also distorted so you shouldn't embrace it.」
I'm not straightforward myself so I'll use any means necessary.
Then, let's use my trump card.