I feel free, is this what death feels like?
It feels like my soul has been lifted from all shackles.
While what felt like my entire existence fade out of my body and transcend into something great unknown. I experienced liberation, I no longer felt fear, shame, grief, lies, deceptions, or earthly desires ... all gone—even the opposites; Pleasure, willpower, love & survival.
It felt weird without any attachments to a place where I'd lived for 23 years.
So used to the feeling of fear and pleasure, but primarily survival throughout my entire life. Now that I'm not having these desires, I'm at peace, I no longer feel tied to life. I've always wanted to go back to my childhood to change a few things that mess up my life, but not more.
Though, there is one thing I wish for right now.
I wish I could savor this feeling for eternity.
Fading into the void I could feel myself slowly blackout with satisfaction.
...
Moments prior
"It's my first time so don't expect it to be good, okay?" Mumbled a female voice
"Of course, that's why communication exists right? I'll let you know if there is anything." I said, reducing my expectations to zero.
My expectation wasn't that high, to begin with, but I at least thought that she'd done it a few times considering her appearance.
She told me it was her first time doing it but why did she hit me with the vacuum seal, double hand twist, gawk gawk combo 300?!
"I'll suck the soul out of you, hehe" her voice called out playfully.
"What d-" I couldn't continue my question about her aw full sex talk as she began sucking.
This is nuts, holy shit, there is no way this is happening. How is it so good? I feel like my soul is leaving my body.
I don't want to die! I have so much to live for!
...
Deep in the void, a soul could be seen floating around, having no thought, the soul began mixing with the cosmic energy of different universes around its presence.
Mixing with the energy itself, the soul began to construct a form that's radiating colorless light.
The soul that previously had no conciseness began to become instinctive. Using up all the absorbed cosmic energy, it disappeared into the reincarnation cycle.
The question is, where does it end up?
...
Am I gaining conciseness?
Where am I?
An unfamiliar place?
Is it her place?
No, these walls are not like the walls in my area.
Looking outside of the window I can see that this is not anything in my city. But I can't seem to recognize what this architecture is from. Roman Classical? neoclassical? Victorian? It is similar but also so different at the same time. It's like there are multiple temples, almost as if there's nothing but temples. And they are all connected.
But wow, The temple appears to hang upside down since it looks like it's constructed on the base of a cliff. To get between the many levels of the temple and buildings, steps have been carved into the cliff's side. Between the temple and the ground below, there is an enormous drop.
While observing my new surroundings I can hear a voice in a foreign language "Neng, quod erit nomen tuum ex hoc."
I couldn't pick out anything from what he said but he seems like a cool dude from the arrow tattoo he has on his bald head.
Wait!
I look more closely at his shiny bald head and see that the arrow on his head is blue and then something just snapped, something inside of me made a connection to the specific architecture and the monk-like appearance with a blue arrow on their heads.
They were airbenders, and I'm in the Avatar world!
Many thoughts began to stimulate my head as I began to recollect what I could from the story of Avatar.
While going through my thoughts the monks present fed me and covered me with blankets while putting me down.
Finishing my thoughts I noticed that my thinking is a bit clouded since I have a newborn's mind and all the other chemical reactions that are realizing from my excitement, anxiety, and other similar emotions.
I did just die moments ago. I had a whole life ahead of me. A family, friends, a career. Sort of a career, I was about to graduate from college and start my own company with my friends. I'm going to miss them so much. Will my family be able to handle themselves on their own? My parents did start to get old and needed my help more often. I had already taken care of my sister after she became paralyzed after an accident. The two wouldn't cause any further issues, but now? What are they supposed to do?
Calming down, I looked back to everything that happened before getting reborn. Dying from getting head is rather disturbing. While I did reach a sort of enlightenment during the short period in between from what I can assume be during the process of being reborn, or rather being conscious during that time and letting everything go.
That feeling, I want to experience that again. Did I come here with that in mind? For me to be able to learn a new lifestyle and have a small chance of reaching that state again? I hope so.