LILY
Somehow I've always known that I was still the same girl that had a huge neon sign over her head with River's name on it.
I never changed.
I just got a little better at lying to myself.
How else would I explain feeling how I feel about him.
If it's not even clear enough, I am scared.
The silence between River and I after my words came out is almost palpable.
With a small nod, he lifts his hand to my mouth. Hesitantly, I reach forward and take the food into my mouth.
"You say that like it's a bad thing." He finally says.
'It would be if you decided to leave.' Is what I want to say but I instead opt for a small smile to reassure him I did not mean that way.
"Doesn't seem like a problem to me." I say diplomatically.
Deep down I know what falling for him means. I know that I am putting myself back on the line for him, and I don't know if I'm ready yet.
