I silently turn away from him, trying my level best to rein in my wild thoughts.
I can't indulge thoughts like this. I can't just think to let go and give in to his push about us dating.
He might have mentioned a marriage in the future if things went well between us but I don't want to live in hope of someday.
The chances of things not going right between us are higher than us having a happy ever after.
And it's not even for the lack of the both of us trying everything in our might to make it better.
When I was younger, maybe in high school, being asked countless times by River to be his girlfriend would have been a dream come true.
But even then, I knew we couldn't be serious like him and the numerous heiresses he hang out with.
I had let myself indulge that idea because we were both young, had a whole lot of time before us and we were too juvenile to have anything serious bind us from fulfilling our future when the time came.
