'God! Why didn't no one tell me that being old is the worst thing that could ever happen to a youngest soul.'
"Amy what?" I ask Kai not believing that he just said what he just said
I look at him. "Amy Daniels is your mother?" I ask when he does not say anything.
He nods his head subtly. "Yes."
"But how?" I ask again because I do not believe it.
How is Amy Daniels his mother?
She is an American idol actress, she is a legend in Hollywood. I grew up watching her movies and I got so possessed of thinking that one day I was going to be like her. How come you tell me now she is the mother of the man I am dating and am in love with?
"Listen, Samantha, she is Uhm." ....wait why does Kai look tormented? Was he adopted by her?
I rush to say when it suddenly hits me. "It's no problem if you were adopted by her kai, she is a legend. You should take pride in being one to have met her and known her like that." Even though am saying that, I still can't believe it myself.
Amy Daniels is the woman we all could ever dream of being like.
She does wonders in the Hollywood, she has a golden heart, I read reports and magazine about her and the charity work she does every now and then. She is a star.
We make eye contact and he chuckles.
"Am glad to hear that." He says with a smile on his face. "But no darling, I was not adopted. She is mine and Mia's biological mother."
"Wow." Speak of blows, here they are.
"So why tell me now? Were you kind of hiding her from me?" I ask because I am still trying to process this new information but I feel like the processing unit in my brain went to sleep.
"No, Samantha what would I get from hiding her from you?" I shrug because he tells me.
"I don't know, I mean it's not like recently people do me bad like they would get something from it at all." He looks saddened by what I just said and it's when I realize am getting off topic.
I sigh looking away.
Damn it. I really do not think this pain savannah caused will disappear.
"I'm sorry," I say to Kai. "The pain…" I gulp down biting on my lower lip. I look away trying to compose myself.
God, it hurts.
"The pain... It's just so unbearable." I managed to fulfill the sentence. He stands up and comes closer to me.
He pulls me to lean my head on his abdomen and hugs me while I am still sitting in my position. I put my arms around his waistline and sniffle.
He runs his fingers through my hair.
"It's okay darling, everything will be fine." I feel kisses on my head.
He does it regularly and it does happens to soothes my pain.
He pulls me back slowly.
"I am here whenever you want and whatever you want from me. Samantha I do not want you to hide your pain or hurt from me. I want you to heal and I would do anything to make it happen, please don't keep me out of the door."
I nod my head.
"Thank you," I say looking into his blue eyes.
"It's just it's still so fresh and whenever I think about it, it hurts like it just happened."
"It will pass darling." I nod my head because I look forward to healing this ache that is in my heart.
He kisses my forehead before he retreats and walks back to his seat.
He pulls it and brings it closer to mine.
He reaches for the plate and holds it in his hands. He rolls food on the fork and raises it to my lips.
I smile when I see what he is trying to do.
He nods his head for me to eat and I open my mouth and digest.
"This is cute," I comment and he just shrugs.
"So back to your mother, no back to Amy Daniels. What did you meet up to talk about today?" I ask him trying to take my mind there.
He raises another bite for me to take.
"Am taking over her empire."
A gasp escapes from my lips.
"Unbelievable!! You are doing what?" I ask.
Really how many surprises am I supposed to be taking tonight?
He looks disturbed by it but in my case am famished. Kai? My man? Owner of Dan empire? Since when did my life take this turn, I mean it's my life but really where was I? When all of this was happening.
"She is been asking me to take over her for the past five years but I would not because I wanted to follow my father's footsteps and not hers."
"But Kai you don't even follow the entertainment?"
Dan empire is a legacy company that takes over and manages entertainment.
They own singers, actors, models, dancers, journalists. They are in the production of films. All those are things that I know Kai doesn't like, why would he do it?
But what choice did your father leave for him?
I feel a pit hit my nerve when I think of that.
"Kai." I sadly call but he just feeds me.
"You do not want it, do you?" He looks at me for a moment before he shakes his head.
"No, but one way or another I was always going to take over her." He says and he looks anything but smitten by it.
"Doesn't the news say that your mother has other kids? I mean why can't they take over for you. Kai, me and you we would figure it out." I say.
"It's a long story the kids aren't hers, they are her husband's."
"So?" I ask feeling confused.
"Her husband's children has a lot to inherit from her husband so she sworn that me and Mia one of us has to take over her, Mia is still young and apart from that she is a model herself and she is made it clear that she doesn't want anything from mom." Am still confused but I still nod my head.
"I don't know how she got word of what happened in Rwanda, so she now knows my career in politics is over."
"Does she know me? Does she hate me for causing you to lose your career?" He shakes his head.
"No Samantha, you are not the cause of me losing my job please do it for me and stop blaming yourself because you are not. And no darling she doesn't hate you." I nod my head suddenly wondering what I would do if she were to hate me either.
"So now you are taking over?" He nods his head.
"It's going to be announced in the ceremony she is hosting."
"When is that?" I ask.
"Friday." Great and we are on Wednesday.
Okay, I feel like there is a lot of things happening and going on that I am not following but I need to step out of my game and catch up on my life.
I have heard that heartbreaks usually are healed with time so,
Am putting my trust in time,
Am putting my trust in what me and Kai has, am putting my trust in a new change my life has taken.
I look at Kai but I realize everything he just told me, he doesn't look happy and it's because this is the job that might suffocate him because it's not him. "Kai, can you not do it if you don't want to?" I ask as slowly as I can.
He looks at me with something in his eyes that I can't quite put my finger on. I think it's devastation.
He puts the plate he was feeding me from aside on the table before resting his hand beside it and looking at me.
"For some reasons, yes I have to."
"Please don't, Kai you may see it as a solution now but it may become a burden for us in the future," I whisper at him. God this is so sad!
I know I am being unrealistic and kind of selfish here because he lost his dream job, his chosen job because of me and he is still sacrificing himself I can only think what not having something to do would make him feel but I also fear that going to that job with a heavy heart would turn him bad, all because of me.
God! Why didn't anyone tell me that being old is the worst thing that could ever happen to the youngest soul?
I look at Kai and I know even though I had a fallout with my family, being a coward is the last thing they taught me. And I have grown to always do and take whatever I want and whenever I want it.
"Kai, we are going to figure this out," I say firmly but Kai shakes his head.
He brings his eyes back on me and he is smiling knowingly at me. "We won't darling, hell, I would never think of taking you into something like that. There is no figuring things out darling because that would only mean that I am failing you and I will not ever. I am going to do this for you, for me, and above all for us." It breaks my heart to see all he is willing to sacrifice for me while I am here being a burden only.
"Come here, darling." He opens his arms for me to go and sit on him while straddling his lap, I throw my arm around his neck and hold on to him as tightly as I can.
"Besides, you fell in love with Rwanda when you were so persistent on not doing so. Who knows? Maybe am going to find myself in Mom's world?"
"That was different Kai." I manage to murmur from his neck.
He runs his palms up and down my back smoothly. "How so darling?" He asks and I pull back to stare into his eyes.
"I got you back then."
He smiles at me. "Well, I got you too darling. I mean don't I?" Dumb smart ass man.
I smile rolling my eyes realizing I just lost this battle. He chuckles at me before pulling me down to his lips.
"Now, you haven't answered me darling. Don't I got you?"
I know this is different.
Circumstances have changed.
Damn, we have changed ourselves.
But I still look in my man's eyes and nod my head with a smile.
"You got me wholly, fully, and above all submissively. I don't even know why you don't take me yet?" He laughs.
"Yeah, brave enough of you but no." I groan. Kai is impossible.
"Come on man." He laughs again and I just roll my eyes.
"Now man?"
"Well, soon you will become a brother or a bro." He shakes his head. "You my girl, you are crazy you know that?" He asked and before I could answer. He tickles me and I throw my head back laughing the night away.
He tinkles with me for some time till I can feel my breath being knocked out of my lungs does he finally stop?
I catch my breath so we lean and kiss. He owns my mouth in that kiss and I feel his hands on my body moving up and down at all body parts. I realize that I don't have to worry like he just said because, for starters well, I got my man and he got me.
I raise my hands to his cheeks and kiss him fiercely and possessively.
Well, here we come Los Angeles.
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