After my mother's reaction when she noticed that the ice cream I brought home was actually from Damian, I always try my best not to offend her. I was amazed by the way she behaved. For that reason, I have been cautious in my dealings with any male friend. I also do hide any discussion relating to making friends with her.
But ever since I discussed this with May, she made me see everything relating to making friends as NORMAL. Even the one I saw as the most grievous of them all which was sex, I got surprised to notice that she doesn't rate it as I do. That also made me give my conclusion of abstaining from sex and everything maintaining it a second thought. I'm a human, born into this world to explore it. And I have to explore it. Though with caution since my mother has turned into a special adviser. Always advising and advising me. But there are, however, some important lines to note in her advice. Though, I would be threading with caution.
Despite all my conclusion to distance myself from making friends, Damian had been a turn on my flesh. He has been calling and even texting me that he wants us to continue with our relationship. Not minding the multiple times I'd made him understand that I am not ready for the relationship, he's been promising me heaven on earth. Honestly, aside from the way my mother used to caution me, I have no reason why she won't grant his request. But… I have another person in my life. And Eric isn't bad in his games. Though, Damian was the person who made me know what love meant. But since Eric introduced me to the world of immorality, he's been trying his best to make sure that I don't feel deserted.
While still looking for my attention, Damian sent me a wristwatch. If not because it was a stranger that delivered the watch to me, I could've thought that Eric sent it to me. However, Eric does bring all his gifts himself or tells me to meet him somewhere and collect them. Even as I opened the box in which the watch was packaged, I still found a written note in it.
"I know not how the flame of love we already sparked got quenched. I detest all my wrongdoings. But I only want us to get back to whom we used to be in the old. Rose! Damian miss you!"
I felt pity for him after reading the note. However, many voices were whispering to me not to get entangled with him again. My mum was already aware of our relationship, and she dislikes that. I already have someone who would always do anything to give me peace of mind. I only picked up the phone and texted him…
"Damian, you're a genius. If there's any picture that should be referred to as a perfect man, that should be you. Nevertheless, for now, I don't need anything called a relationship. A lot has been echoing in my head. I want to stay alone. Thanks, as you comply"
Just as though he were waiting for my text, he replied
"You referred to me as a genius and a perfect man. But still, you don't need me around you. You would rather not give me that opportunity to make you feel like the queen you are. Rose, I can't erase the picture of you in my mind"
Reading his text gave me mixed feelings. Why shouldn't I pity the poor Damian? From his tone, his love must be genuine, but I won't have rest of body and mind if we get back together. For that reason, I need to put a permanent stop to that. Then I texted him back…
"I never said you should erase the picture of me in your mind. I only want you to position it where I would be safe and would be at peace. You've shown me how a queen is supposed to be. And only a king can do that. But Damian, it would be better we continue being casual friends than twisting anything into it. Please, lend me your listening ears…"
Once I got notified that the message has been delivered, my phone rang and he was the one calling. For I knew that basket couldn't carry the words that would roll down his mouth if I answered the all. I allowed the call to end without answering it. Then his text followed.
It's no more tales that you've crossed your mind never to reciprocate the love I have for you. But I would forever miss you until the day you chose to take the rightful place in my heart. Rose, your position remains vacant!
Just as he said, since I already hardened my heart, no amount of flattering would make me change my mind. Though, I felt his pain. But it would be better if he feels the pain now than to push it to me. Then I and my mum would turn cat and rat in the house. I had to appreciate him.
Thanks for understanding what I meant. I pray God will give you your dream woman…
I knew not what tickled him. Immediately, he got my last text. I guess he got infuriated. He started forwarding me text messages, I can't imagine whether he wrote them or someone helped him to write them. From what he wrote, someone can easily point out that he's been offended. But I didn't reply to him. He even called me, but since I knew he had left his cool, I seized to answer.
But at last, I asked him whether I should return the watch. He spent a few minutes before telling me to do as I wish. Since I liked the watch, I didn't bother to return it to him. Though I knew if my mother gets to know anything about the watch, I have some explanations to make. I hid it as I could, having in mind to use it when she won't see it or hear of it.