Steve was gone when I came out of the bathroom. My genitals are still a little sore, so walking is still difficult for me. Then I went to the bathroom earlier, so I was torn!
"He's too excited to talk to my parents, and he even left me here! It's hard to walk. Shit!" I mutter as I carefully exit the room. Because of the pain I was experiencing, my painful reaction was consistent.
Even going downstairs was difficult for me. Why is it this way?!
I caught up with my parents in Rose's living room, and their expressions were solemn. Steve was also present, sitting opposite Daddy and massaging his head.
Maybe a hangover.
When Daddy saw my behavior, I forced myself to walk.
I sat next to Daddy and Mommy. Rose is also present. Maybe her parents are at work and aren't here. It's better then because it's more embarrassing.
"Are you my daughter's boyfriend?" my father inquired.
Steve gave us a blank stare. "No," he said coldly, making my Daddy frown.
He gave me a curious look. "He's not your boyfriend?" Daddy's eyes narrowed, indicating he was becoming angry.
"N-no, Dad," I said nervously, bowing to my hands on my lap.
He massaged his neck, removed his mirror, and held it to his nose. Daddy's expressions like this express his annoyance. He even sighs.
"Well, even if you're not her boyfriend, you should marry her."
I immediately looked at Daddy after he said it.
"What?" Steve's brows met. "Why would I?"
"What kind of question is that, young man? You took my daughter who wasn't your girlfriend in the first place. And now, you're asking me why? Seriously?"
"That was just a one-night stand, Sir. It's normal-"
"For you, but not for us. As her parents, I want you to marry her because of that one-night stand," Daddy authoritatively commanded Steve.
Steve looked at me badly. Looks remorseful again.
"Dad, we can talk about this without me marrying him."
"Are you insane? Do we have to wait until you confirmed that you're pregnant?"
"But, Dad, I'm not pregnant-"
"Not yet, Czes ... Are we going to wait for you to get pregnant before he take responsibility for what he did?"
"But I have a girlfriend. I can't marry your daughter..." Steve said.
"Marry her or I will sue you for what you did to my daughter?"
"Dad..."
"What? Why? She wanted what happened too, Sir. Why sue?"
"She's drunk," Daddy replied.
"I'm drunk, too ..."
"And I don't care! Just marry her or see you in the court, boy. End of discussion."
Daddy got up so Mommy got up too.
"Mommy ..." I called to Mommy pleading.
"You know your Daddy's word, Czes. You made a mistake, and face the consequences."
"Let's go, Czes."
They went out of Rose's house in silence.
"I'm not marrying you!" stern Steve said to me before leaving the house.
"I'm sorry, B, I didn't realize-"
"It's okay, Rose," I said as I turned my back on her. I first thanked her before finally following Mommy.
Our drive home was very peaceful. But I was nervous on the inside. I knew we'd have another conversation once we got home.
So when we arrived, I sighed deeply before getting out of the car.
"Let's talk," Daddy said solemnly as we entered our home, and all I could do was follow Mommy and Dad.
He entered his home office and sat in his swivel chair. Mommy and I took the seats in front of his table. Mommy hasn't looked at me since we got here. I know they're upset about what happened.
"What now, Czes?" Daddy inquired. I was simply staring at my hands. "Didn't you just finish college? Then what? Instead of working for our company, here you are, and you need to get married."
"It's okay, Dad, not to marry-"
"Are you even thinking right?!" Daddy demanded angrily, "You did stupid thing last night to someone who isn't your boyfriend, and now you want us to just let that crazy guy run away with his responsibility?"
"But, Dad, he has no responsibility to me. We both didn't mean it."
"Can you hear yourself? Aren't you really thinking? Where's your brain already, Czes ?!"
Whenever I do something that Daddy doesn't like, I always hear hurtful words from him. He always wants to be right, he wants to be perfect. Since I am an only child, I bear all the pressure from my parents.
"I'm sorry ..." I replied weakly.
"If you suddenly get pregnant, do you think you can still help our company? And if you get pregnant and we let that man leave you, it's a big shame you did! What will other people say?!"
I heard those words again, what other people can say.
They were always thinking about what others would say, but they didn't think to ask if it was okay with me. Once, I wish, I had a brother.
"But, he has a girlfriend. I don't want to ruin the relationship-"
"I hope you thought of that before you had sex with a stranger! Have you been doing that for a long time, huh, Czes? Having sex with a stranger?!"
"No, Dad, no..." I answered quickly.
"Just make sure, Czes, because it's embarrassing to have a slut child!"
"Calvin ...." Mommy scolded Daddy.
It was as if I had been stabbed repeatedly because of what I had heard. Because of a mistake, Daddy looked down on me even more. He is no longer proud of me. He had even more reason to embarrass me.
I always force myself to adapt to the world that Daddy wants.
It's very difficult ...
I need to pretend to be perfect just to flatter him. I need to be someone for me to meet his expectations. But, deep down in me, I'm really tired-emotionally and mentally.
"If you don't want to and if you want to, I don't care because you need to marry that man. I don't care if he has a girlfriend. Don't excuse me that it was just an accident. You both want it! The reason is already scratched. It's just an accident? If the one-night stand is okay with you young people; if it's normal for you; it's different from your parents, from us! It's not good to hear that many men are having fun with your body! Because it will ruin your personality! That shouldn't be proud of! "
I was shocked of what I hear.
I know what Daddy is up to.
But why he doesn't believe that Steve is my first? Why do they look so disgusting when they look at me?
I looked at Mommy. I saw her staring sadly at me. Suddenly my eyes watered because of what she thought.
"I'm sorry, Mom... I'm sorry..." I said and my tears started to fall.
Mommy shook her head. "You disappointed us. Why, Czes? Why? Did I fail as a mother?"
My eyes widened at Mommy's question, especially when I saw the tears in her eyes.
"No, Mommy... No..." I quickly approached mommy and knelt down. She was my only ally ever. To see her like this disapointed because of me is very painful. To see your mother cry is so painful!
"Then, why? This is not my dream for you. You promised me, you'll reach that dream for us."
"I'm sorry, Mommy... I'm really sorry... Please don't cry, Mom..." I said crying while looking up at Mommy. I was still on my knees at her feet while Mommy was still sitting.
"You're the only one we have, you're the only one we hope for. But here you are now, you need to get married early."
"Mom, it's okay not to get married. We can still pursue our dream. Mommy, please ..."
"And you want to be disgraced? No! You did it, so stand for it."
After that, she left me.
I cried out loud. This is painful.
Seeing your mom like this is really painful. Because of my wrong actions, they are treating me like a stranger.
I deserve their cold treatment towards me.
But, my mom doesn't deserve to have a daughter like me. She doesn't deserve to have a child like me. She’s always been there everytime I try to be someone else for Daddy. She was there to lighten my spirits. But I retaliated with resentment.
"I'm sorry... I'm really sorry, Mom... I'm sorry... sorry..." I whispered while crying while sitting on the cold floor alone.
I knew there was nothing I could do about my cries, my apologies. But I still want them to know that I regret what happened. Because it caused Mommy to turn away from me. It caused Daddy to lose even more love for me.