One lonely day after another I have carried the same thoughts. And this day did not seem any different; matter of fact it felt worse, after my latest test in math and failing it miserably I was confident in my ability to become a nobody but anyway I still carried myself with the same image of someone who knows where he is going and what it will take to arrive at his ultimate goal but the only destination I had in mind was going back home...as usual I went to the cafeteria to buy something because I was so dried up from inside that thinking was becoming tiresome, I also loved going to the cafeteria because she was there...I don't know how, but seeing her always relieved me. In this foreign land where everything is different and hard to adapt to...well, I did adapt to it quite easily but I still felt lonely maybe it's because I wanted to, or maybe it's my lack of charisma.
Short curly black hair well brawn eyes...you know they are not too big nor too small, she had nice batt and breasts that it would have been hard for me not to stare at if her smile was not as bright as the suns light and her voice soo charming that I always felt like I was in a spell. Her simple "Hey how are you" was more than enough to fill in the gap that occupied a part of my heart. I was more than certain that she was the one for me; if I could interact with her and show her that I am more interesting than I seem, then she will be mine.
To the same extent I was things were going well she gave me her number and we started interacting with each other frequently.....I was amazing, I was controlling the conversations because every time we meet after classes I would lead by bringing new topics and stories so that she does not lose interest or get bored of me...well how naive of me, just because she always smiled when she saw me just because she always laughed and I talked and brought up some my best jokes just because they got shy and played with her eyes and she blushed every time I complimented her I thought that the bag was more than secured....but she was just being nice.
I become the fool who got fooled, she did not do anything she was just being nice. The compliments she gave me and the dazzling smile that she always showed when she saw me. Every time we meet she would ask me if my day was going well and I would say "it is now" you get it I was trying to sound cool, I wonder if she thought I was a cool guy or if was she just being nice so as not to hurt me...I guess I will never know because now am more afraid to talk with her since am never certain if she is being herself with me or just being nice and that I won't trick myself.