After a month from Laura birth day, Massimo received a text message from Laura since she was sick and feelin weak, she felt lonely and tired she said in her text message. "Massimo are you awake?.. can i sleep call with you I'm not feelin alright if that's alright with you." Massimo wasn't ready or even expect her to come to him or need him ever again after what happen between them, but Massimo he always make a time for her even if he was in middle of something he would drop everything and focus on her, he didn't question or asked anything he legit was happy that she came and asked him to be there for her. he said " i mean of course yes please. i can stay in call with you i won't go anywhere." after that sleep call Laura she start falling asleep since he joined her call. but Massimo stood for hours looking and staring at Laura while she was sleeping in video call, he start asking himself, " i hope she's okay, she looked abit different than last time we saw each other, but I'm sure she's strong and able to fight since she have a big strong heart." after hours Laura she start waking up from her sleep she looked at Massimo and start texting him. "are you there? I'm sorry if i kept you up for me."
Massimo replied in her text message "no not at all Laura I'm here for you if you ever need or want anything".. and in return Laura said something that got Massimo thinking about something , she said "Massimo you know i have had a few bad relationships. i need to fix myself and the issues others have passed onto me before dating. i feel jealous and bad things i should not feel with someone i love because of bad things others did to me and i wonder why am i too much or too hard to love, like how you are with your little best friend .. i get jealous and sad even if it is the most innocent thing, although i still think of being around you all day. Sometimes all i want is to see your face. But i think I'm a fucked up person when i feel depressed and it made me sad to hear you feared i would hurt myself i feared that with my high school relationship that he would hurt himself and it feels terrible not o be able to help. and it's always the same for you like, like i just see so much i have to deal with and i don't need you to feel worse for me and to watch it every day . it's not something that goes away. i want us both to feel better."
Massimo was stunned by her text message he didn't know how or even where to start but he was calm and said this. " Laura what you just said made me feel actually sad and bad lemme tell you something, for the past few months that we stopped talking to each other i always thought about you days and nights there's no day i never thought about you, like if you feelin alright, are you eating good?, like i got so many thoughts i can't say or tell if it was good or bad thoughts back then but, i knew few things that is for sure that you Laura are phenomenal to me in many ways, i may misunderstood your feelings in anyway but i never ever in my life or even while we were together crossed a line and harmed you. and i can say that i achieved that and imma keep it on even if we aren't together or if you wanna be friends with me. i still got your back and support you and i learned a lot from you Laura you also taught me how to love myself, how to appreciate smol things even if it wasn't matter or big deal i still gotta be grateful for everything and not asking for more when you already have enough, and I've never also judged you for whatever choices you made because i do understood your reasons now if i was late to understand it before, and whenever you post something in social media during in our relationship i always feel jealous because i don't want to people to see you in a sexual way or something bad and yet i want people to understand that you mine and im yours, and also to respect us, as couple, i also feel jealous when some guy getting close or start being funny or flirt towards you, like i get it the joke can be funny but don't overdoes it when you see a couple and yet you keep doin it in purpose that's sussy, like please show some respect and back up."
(no fue cupla tuya , Ni tampoco mia, Fue culpa de la monotonía, Nunca dije nada, pero me dolía, Yo sabía que esto pasaría, Tú en lo tuyo, yo haciendo lo mismo, Siempre buscando protagonismo, Te olvidaste de lo que un día fuimos, Y lo peor es que)
imma get off from Massimo and Laura for a little bit and wanna explain and talk about few things that some people until now don't actually understand how men or woman feels after their first breakup.
for Men: if you ask them how they doin and they answer you with this: "I'm alright" well I'm here to tell you that that man is not alright, that man is battling demons that you can not even possibly imagine. that man is struggling every single day. to find a reason to keep going. and the reason men say we're alright is because as a man nobody really fking cares what you going through so why we bother to say it? but you know what i feel you bother, because .. i'm alright too.
but also whatever you're going through right now, it's happening on purpose in order to forge you into the person that you were created to be Ultimately, but if you quit you'll never get to be the person that you were created to be.
and i've said this before and imma say it again there's no human bein that never made a mistake we all as humans we all do and make mistakes after all in order to learn from it and being better version of ourselves, like you gotta fuck up, you have to fuck up, like you have to take risks or you never find what works, but for me as writer i call it fucking up, you've got to fuck up man you have to and it's like i want people to understand that it's OK. There's nothing wrong with fucking up as long as you learn, you have to learn from it or you gonna be and stay dum dum. everyone done some fucked up shit in our life's but we or some learned from it, but it's because from the mistakes that you or i made, if i don't make those mistakes, i don't get to sit here and be the writer that i am today.
also The greatest version of you is not the " i can do anything." version of you, the greatest version of you is the disciplined version of you. the greatest version of you, is the first one that has parameters. no i don't do that, i don't drink that. i don't go there with these people. I'm focused, i have a prize that's in front of me. i know what I'm supposed to do, and that ain't it. i have to stay right here.
here's some quotes that may helps some of you guys while you reading:
"everyone can make you smile, but not everyone can make you happy"
"sometimes you gotta stay silent, because no words can explain the things that are going through your mind."
"Block me, hate me, hurt me, talk crap about me, but never forget who was there for you when you needed someone."
for woman there's also many things that men needs to understands.
Woman want to feel loved: Many women feel insecure about our love for them, First, reassure her. In times of conflict, we should tell them we love them no matter what and that everything will be okay—"I love you. We'll get through this." When she's upset, she doesn't need space," she needs a hug and to be held. Second, pursue her. Women need to be pursued throughout the relationship, just as we pursued them before we got married.
Woman want to feel understood: Women need us to understand how they think and feel, even though that is virtually impossible. It would help us to understand that most women's thought lives are like computers, with multiple windows open and processing all at once. Unlike men who can only process one thing at a time, all at the same time. On more than one occasion, I've watched my wife, daughters, and their friends having a conversation where three of them were talking at once about three different things. And guess what, they all understood each other! So, hopefully, if we can generally understand how women think, we might be better able to understand how they feel.
Woman want to feel listened to: Men, she doesn't want us to fix it, she just wants us to listen. She doesn't want or need our solution to the problem, even if she asked for our opinion. about the problem and identify with her in that feeling. "Thanks for sharing that with me" or "I'm so sorry that happened" might be good words to consider saying to her.
here's some quotes that also may help to motivate:
"I think it takes a strong man to be in a relationship with a strong woman. A lot of people hear the word 'diva' and think of it as a negative. I see it as a positive. I want somebody who knows what they want out of life and isn't afraid to show it."
"Every girl and every woman, has the potential to make this world a better place, and that potential lies in the act of thinking higher thoughts and feeling deeper things. When women and girls, everywhere, begin to see themselves as more than inanimate objects; but as beautiful beings capable of deep feelings and high thoughts, this has the capacity to create change all around. The kind of change that is for the better."
"You will find that it is necessary to let things go; simply for the reason that they are heavy."
back to our story to were we stop.
Laura she understood what Massimo is trying to say and she got his point. after the text messages they both slowly get back together as friends, they both start sharing memes and jokes, and asking how they been before and what's new how's the family doin nowadays etc, days and weeks passed and they getting it back to their old relationship after what they been through and knows how painful it was, but later on Massimo was ready to meet Laura family starting from her mom Hermione she saw Massimo face and how he sound like, she was curious about his accent and where is he from but Massimo told Laura that he still feels shy, so Laura told her mom that he's from different country and he's very shy so like yeah hehe, later on while they been in call Dobby jumped into Laura's bed because she was feelin scared of the dark and she was shaking so she hides under her blanket while Massimo and Laura are in the call, Massimo saw Dobby and starts compliments her, since he haven't seen her dog for months so he got a chance to see her again, later on week, Ron and Jessie came home to stay with Laura and her mom for a few months, Laura was so happy about it because Annie is here, and she will get the chance to see and play with her all day, since Laura's mom brought a new bed for Annie to sleep on, Laura asked her mom if she can sleep in her room since there's a space for her.
Mom agreed on that the next day Laura she starts preparing her stuff and her toys and dippers and she start organized her room together since it was abit messy. also there's something about Massimo that he loved about Laura that she was being like a mother towards Annie like she takes a really good care of her, she even stays late at night when sometimes Annie having hard time sleeping, but Laura never complain because she been in this before and she knows how kids be in that age. Massimo thought that one day Laura she's going to be a wonderful, amazing, carrying mother in the future since she been talking about having kids alot.
some day Laura's mom she decide to have a trip with Laura just both of them, to go to a Lighthouse a place that is abit far from where they live but it's a beautiful place to visit and stay in to smell some fresh air and to see beautiful sea, for few days of course Laura said yes to mom and she told Massimo about the trip they are going to, she took Massimo like they been in video call and texting like she want him to be part of this trip like if he's with them in the car, when they reached the place they found a smol house that is for rent for them to stay in for few days, while they in the house they start exploring the place to see if there's a store around there to order food or buy. they also got the chance to see and watch the sea and the lighthouse, Laura brought her phone, and she start texting and calling Massimo, she told him to see and check out the place and how beautiful it is, Massimo was actually so happy like he saw how she was feelin free and happy being outside without feeling danger or if someone is watching or stalking her, that made her feel calm and relaxed.
while Laura and her mom been outside the whole day they came back to the house to get some rest and eat food that they brought with them, her mom she cooked some pork with eggs on a side, while Laura she was eating Pizza rolls and drinking cola, after dinner they decide to watch a horror movie together while Massimo in a video call with Laura so he can live this moment with them as family, after the movie they all went to bed cuz the next day they want to go to the lighthouse to take some pictures, in the morning Laura's mom she woke up first and she start cooking and making breakfast for her, to start their day, they took shower and getting ready to walk to the lighthouse while Massimo is still in the call with Laura, after Laura and her mom are getting ready Massimo, took a chance and wanted to surprise Laura with something she didn't expect from him, Massimo was actually planning to make a cute short video with a sweet lovely text message for Laura for her birth day even tho it already been passed but he want to give her a special gift for her, since she did it to him on his birth day, he wrote a message explaining how he truly feels and how much Laura means to him, while Laura and her mom are still walking , Massimo was almost done with the gift and he told Laura that he got something for her and it's special, Laura was so curious and told him that she doesn't like surprises or anything, Massimo replied to her, i know that Laura but this one is very important for me, also i never done this to anyone before but you since you someone i adore and means alot to me, she said alright Massimo as you say, while they been in lighthouse Laura and her mom they start taking selfies together, then they came back home, while they are tired and want to eat some snacks, so Laura she got ice cream, and her mom she start drinking Pepsi, while Massimo was in a call, Laura's mom took the chance and she start talking and asking Massimo questions, like "what is your religion, how old are you, tell me your full name, what is your favorite food?"
Massimo here was start getting into like, he start answering and talking to her mom, like if he got the power to speak freely, while Massimo and her mom are talking she was surprised and stunned, her face explains everything, like you talking to my mom now, she start laughing and watching, then Massimo decided to be funny and make a joke he made both of Laura and her mom laugh, that made him feel comfortable like if he was sitting with his family, then her mom she went out cuz she got a call from her work, while she been out, Massimo sent to Laura the message with the video he told her i wanted to do this long time ago but like things and you know what happen didn't and wasn't good or right but here you go Laura, you deserve much more love and happiness, this is less i can do so i hope you enjoy it and like it, Laura got emotion and she start dropping tears of happiness, she loved his gift and start thanking him and she felt that he really wants her, later on her mom walks in and she told her that Massimo got her a gift that it was supposed to be for her birth day, she saw it and she was like aww that's so sweet of you Massimo, and then her mom she start telling Laura that Massimo is really one hella nice and good guy, i don't know how you guys met but i can say that i really feel comfortable he looked nice and gentleman he respect and he's not like other dudes you been with before, so hold him tight don't lose this one, Massimo heard what her mom said about him, he said to Laura did you hear that you gotta keep and hold me, she start laughing, then they both went to bed for the next day which is last day of the trip, for them to get back home. so they woke up early and start packaging their stuff and clothes, to put it in the car, then they start moving and heading home.
they got home from the trip and they missed the house and Dobby was happy that Laura and her mom are home now since she was with Ron and Jessie and Annie, they enjoyed the trip. later on after 5 months of being together with Laura, Massimo was getting ready to ask Laura out to be his girlfriend he was so ready for it, he waiting so long for this moment, he asked Laura if she's alone in her room she said, yes Massimo why do you ask?
he said i have something to say more like something to confess to you about, then he start telling her how he feels, and how much he loves her and value her more than anything in this world, Laura to him was like an angel from heaven, a queen, a cutie amazing wonderful girl, they both loved and respect each other and also value their relationship alot, then he asked her to be his girlfriend, she said yes without thinking or hesitate, that made Massimo the most happies guy in the world, Laura told her mom about it, that he asked her out to be her girlfriend, while they are in the call she stared at Laura's phone and said Congrats Massimo now you have a girlfriend, Massimo got shy and said thank you Mom and start laughing and smiling, they both start loving each other more than ever, and also they start playing video games together whenever they have time to play or sometimes when Laura gets back home from work Massimo be waiting for her so they can play the game.
Until Massimo's birth day came and again Laura surprised him with a sweet cute message also she wanted to be the first one to wish him a happy birth day, and also to made his day like she always do to him, she said to him in her text message "happy birthday baby, without a question, meeting you was the best thing that has ever happened to me. in addition to being my best friend, you are also my true love. I'm aware of only one person who i cannot live without: you. you stand out among all the people I've ever met. I'm so fortunate to have come across you. compared to other men I've met. you are the most considerate and respectful. o appreciate your love for me. i appreciate how much effort you you take to brighten my day. i hope i may make you as happy as you make me one day by doing the same for you. Being with you has only brought me happiness: i have no regrets. There will never be anyone as perfect as you are for me, so i want to spend all of my good and bad days with you. All i see is you. i simply need you. you're going to be my wonderful, powerful, compassionate, humorous, and real spouse, i would say that i wish the world had more people like you, but you are a one of a kind to me. Never will i be able to love someone as much as i love you, Massimo. Always and forever. you're also the only man I've never had to second guess imagining marrying. i would do it in a heartbeat. you are my dream."
Through that message Massimo dropped his phone and start crying really bad because her words was so so so real and touchable like if it her heart was speaking to Massimo's heart, he wished if he was there next to her so he can hug her tightly or cuddle her, Massimo also was preparing something unique for Laura he was searching and looking for a ring for her to propose but he found a amazing and beautiful ring for her, he bought the ring online but he didn't know it will come late so he was that's alright i can wait, but for Laura she doesn't know anything or what was he planning on to do so he kept this down and never talked about it with anyone, after his birth day, after time of a month things start being not good between Laura and Massimo.
because Massimo had a smol issue that he never thought about, that might hurt Laure while he didn't notice that, his issue was that whenever Laura get's mad or upset about something she disappear like she leaves the call, and when Massimo asks what's going? cuz he was confused like if he did something mad or wrong that got her leave the call or if someone mad her upset he start questioning himself, but Massimo has this issue which is that whenever something like that happen he says or answer Laura that to take her time, it thought that saying that will solve the problem or whatever the issue was about, but he didn't know that, Laura she doesn't like that the way he handle or deals with this. Massimo didn't know or pay attention until its late, one day she got mad and left the call, and Massimo did same thing when Laura didn't explain or told him that she doesn't like the way he treated her like if she needs space or object that needs time to be calm. then Massimo woke up more like he realized his mistake and that he needs to change the way he treat the issues and when she be upset or mad but he didn't know what's coming for him, and that Laura she already made her mind and she decided to breakup with him again, but this time it was real and more painful for Massimo and for Laura as well, he never thought that she will actually take this decision, he felt something isn't right but didn't see that coming, like if he start living in a nightmare, and yet he gotta accept this again. he apologized to her the way he treated her, and she also didn't want to take this decision but like she didn't see any other options but that one, and for Massimo he can't do anything since that's her decision and like she already made her mind, and gotta move on. Massimo was planning for alot of things for her like wedding and proposing ring, but all that will be for nothin, since things start falling apart, later on a week, Massimo received the package that has the ring for her but he didn't know what to do with it since it was late and, like he was lost and completely broken heart, he took a picture of it and told to Laura that this ring meant to be for you, i never talked about it because i want it personally to give it to you one day but, since things went down. i don't know what to do with it. Laura replied with " wow, it looks beautiful but how would you know that i will say yes?" Massimo replied saying: " i just feelin that you would say yes and know that for many reasons Laura, but like i said this meant to be for you and i was so ready and prepared to take that step and to have a family, but i honestly don't know about you if you like ready for that big step?" she replied with " i feel embarrassed, i don't feel like talking". that was her last text messages to Massimo but was like lost he didn't know what to do with the ring so he kept it safe in sound with him perhaps one day hoping for her to coming back to him, but after few weeks, Massimo went outside walking alone listening to music, and he saw Laura but he didn't go to her or anything he stood staring at her, until she was with someone new, then Massimo realized that she seems to be happy, so i guess it means it's over gotta carry on, i don't know what's going to happen in the future, so he wished her the best and a happy life.