I am sure they don't know, or just cant realise how mentally exhausted they have made you. How much their gaslighting and manipulative words hit you like little needles, how their unconsidered opinions and talks left salt on your wounds. And how you still tried to heal something that was being cracked and broken by the its own owner.
You did fall victim to their hurtful and guilt tripping words. You did feel guilty for things you had apologised for, for things that weren't even your fault.
But those action showed you what would have been blinded to forever. You will find your worth, you cant be spoke to like that love. You saw their real self, you grew, you became stronger, you will put your self as the first priority.
Like you have always deserved to be.
Your true powerful self.