I was mere 12, when I used to live in my granny's house . She was a calm person . Her beauty never faded with her age. She had pale skin, dark brown eyes and rosy lips and top of everything her calm aura which could make anyone feel like in heaven around her. Her embrace was as cold as snow and warm .
It was month of June ,I was resting in back of our house . Our garden was filled with sunflower and rose . The wind was blowing and my hair was covering my face. I went into deep sleep due to mesmerizing weather.
A soft but tiny hand touched my face. A soft voice came "Naru wake up . Your parents are coming today to take you home with them ". While saying that a sad expression was visible on her face.
"Mom is coming! but I want to stay with you grandma. They left me to live here when I was three years old . You know grandma I don't want to go with them anymore". I firmly denied to go with them. But my grandma knew I had to go back no matter what. It was impossible to get such life in village like my parents will provide me in city.
I was fighting with grandma while running away from her . She was trying to catch me to convince me to go with my parents. A car stopped at the door of our house.
Grandma left me to welcome them.I shouted "Grandma don't go!!. I don't want to go! ". But she left me . I knew how much she was sad to send me with them. But she was doing that for my future. I felt pain in my heart and my eyes filled with tears hard for me to figure out wheather it was anger towards my parents or sadness due to leaving my grandma behind.
I entered the room . Mom was sitting in front of me!. I truly wanted to ask her why? why she abandoned me here in a remote village?why she left me and never visited once?. Did she ever missed me! ever?. I was disheartened to see her. My dad was sitting next to grandma and I was unable to utter a single word. Mom stood and stepped towards me , she opened her arms to hug me . I should be happy to hug her afterall I missed her so much , cried several nights and was haunted from cold nights and sense of loneliness. Shouldn't she have visited once or twice in a month or year at least. I laughed insanely inside my mind and stepped back.
"N..n..no, I don't want to". Last words from my mouth before sitting in car. Grandmother folded her hands in such manner as if she was requesting me to stay silent. It was my first time seeing her that desperate. She was everything to me. I decided to leave and live in city . I managed to come out of house to a shop on street. I bought a tiny Doll and gave that to grandma. I was leaving the house of my childhood. I turned back and hugged grandma tightly. I wanted to cry but instead i kissed on her cheeks and put a candy in her hands.
Grandma was sad but I wiped her tears and hugged her tightly.
"My granddaughter is a lovely child,take good care of her . She hates scolding and witnessing violence, avoid such things in front of her. Loud voice can make her dizzy and she is not fond of too much of sweet, don't push her to have it. I will visit her more often . Don't let anyone bully her results will turn ugly. She Hates it that someone doesn't listen to her , so atleast give her chance to speak clearly without disturbance". Tuns of instructions were coming out of her mouth. She putted all of her strength in speaking those instructions as if she doesn't wanted to leave a single thing about taking care of me. "Grandma!!", I was so desperate to leave my mother's hand and to grab my grandma's hands . Her beautiful fingers were waving in air while talking, desperate to hold my hands but hiding her emotions behind her. Grandma filled car with stuffs needed for me . Who knows how my parents who abandoned me would treat me!. My grandma was cleaver. I hugged her oneore time and sat in car. With a determination in my mind I firmly made promise to myself" I will come back one day for you grandma, I will definitely come back".Tears were nothing for me to express my feelings and I was burning into anger and sadness.
As the car was moving my grandmother's house was leaving behind as if sand was slipping out of my feist. I wanted to stop time or atleast grab that house in my tiny hands but I couldn't. Why?why i could not? why not?. 12 year old myself was unable to understand,but still doesn't wanted to give up. I knew I could not stop anything that was happening. I shouted "Grandma..aa.!!" in my heart loudly that I felt sudden sharp ache . My hands could not resist but pressed my chest towards my heart. As if I wanted to take out my heart.
Mom didn't noticed first but after i fell unconscious she asked my dad to turn car towards hospital. They took me to nearby hospital. Doctor told my parents cause of shock I fell unconscious and will wake up after few hours of rest.
Mom wanted to inform grandma but dad stopped her. He knew I was in shock to leave grandma behind.
Mom was anxious regarding my health. Dad was holding mom's hand and standing. He couldn't sit silently. I was their first and last child left in this world.
After few hours, I woke up shocked "grandma !". She left me in my dreams and I left in her reality.
Doctor informed my parents about my condition. They entered into room, hesitating to come near me as if what will happen if I again get shock or get unconscious.