During the night Ren was awake. Sitting on his bed with Laila in his hands, Ren was in a state of depression mixed with sadness.
Ren - I went through many difficulties to get here. I went through bad times, times when I thought I had no place in this world. That's when Laila appeared with the nickname of Nightmare.
With a slight smile on his face as he scrolled through his happy memories of the past with Laila in his head, Ren for the first time felt what it's like to lose a loved one.
Ren - I've killed a lot of people these last few years. So this is how they felt ha...ha...ha, it's horrible. If I hadn't gone to that church, would my future have been different? I don't know why, but I feel like I've changed. Maybe it's because of Laila not being there anymore, I'm kind of starting to regret everything I've done so far. Laila wasn't called Nightmare for nothing, I was never a psycho killer, I had a good heart. With all that pressure on me, the desire for revenge only attracted Laila. It would be impossible for a person to be the master of a spirit with infinite malice and not receive consequences. Thanks to Laila my heart was corrupted by a sort of curse, I ended up falling in love with her in the process and that's nothing I regret. In the end I went from an innocent to a murderer. My sanity seems to be starting to go back to the way it used to be and I currently have two choices, overcome all my enemies in this tower and live a life as a normal person disguising my identity or kill this weak side of mine and continue to fight until I reign over the entire world. I already know which option I will choose, once a murderer, always a murderer. I can't go back, my destiny was already mapped out the moment I decided to enter that church in the middle of the forbidden forest years ago.
Ren gets up from his bed and activates a magic circle over himself.
Ren - This magic circle is a new ability that I created using knowledge from the crafting room. When I kill myself with Laila, my good side will disappear forever and I will never be able to return to normal, that is, I will remain as a psychopath for all eternity. Only darkness will remain in me. Yes, I can't be with these weak thoughts. I must move forward not only for myself but also for her.
Ren draws his sword from its scabbard.
Ren - Laila, I promise that I will become the Emperor of this world, no matter who comes to challenge me, I will manage to break down this barrier. I will meet you in hell very soon, until then just watch me! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SSSSSSSPPPRAAAAAAAACHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
Ren stabs himself in his chest with his sword and passes out in the middle of the floor leaving blood all over the room.
Hours later...
Karen - Good morning, how are you feeling? Ready for the floor 50 boss?
Ren was standing in his room, not responding to Karen.
Karen - Hello? Are you there Ren?
Ren - ...
Karen - REN ARE YOU THERE?
Ren - Shut up your annoying slug, I was preparing myself psychologically, I don't know why but I feel like I can kill a God right now.
End of chapter 26