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Chapter 40 - Chapter 40

JADA'S POV

I told Ryan the truth two weeks ago even after knowing three months ago. I didn't know how he'd react because he has always known his real mother didn't want him his whole life. How was I supposed to tell him?

Hi Ryan, I'm your real mom. Sorry?

I told him and he had an open mind. We hugged but after the hug, he ran off to his room and I could hear him cry.

"Jada..." I hear the voice of my soul tormentor call. I look at her and let out a breath.

"Hmmm?"

"You didn't answer my question. Did you tell Ryan about your condition?" She asks and I let out a breath then smile thinking about yesterday night.

"Yes I did. And I think it brought us closer." I reveal making Dr Amanda curious.

"How so?"

"He's happy. He said he's always wanted a sibling." I say laughing at Ryan's face.1

"What about Jay?" She asks writing down and for a second I get annoyed.

These are some of the reasons why I want to leave this building and never look back but I have to be better. I need to get better for my baby.

"He's the dad. I can't let another baby of mine grow without a father." I answer placing a hand on my three month pregnant tummy. Dr Amanda nods as she writes down.

I knew about my pregnancy two months ago and I had already decided to have an abortion but Dr Samantha talked me out of it.

She advised me to visit Dr Amanda and talk to her and after my first talk with her, I got so mad and uncomfortable so I stopped until a month ago when I decided I wanted my baby.

I was scared that I was too broken to have another child.

The last time I saw Jayden was three months ago when he told me about Ryan and when my baby was conceived. Dr Amanda wants me to acknowledge my feelings towards him but it's still hard.

I still think where just two different people who met coincidentally and have lost people precious to us making us these cold hearted people.

My sessions with the doctor ends and so I go back to work. I'm working for a gay couple who design different kinds of dresses. I specialize with the wedding dresses.

Ryan met Shawn, one of the men, who is my neighbor and we talked. He 'forced' me and Ryan to have dinner with them and then I was introduced to his husband Peter.

Peter was working on a design and I pointed out some corrections.

Turns out Peter and I had the same classes on campus until I left. He remembered me but I didn't.

He and Shawn have a fashion house where they sell their own designed clothes. I promised to visit them and later on asked me to design a wedding dress.

They loved it and asked me to work for them. It's a small place but Shawn and Peter are good to work for.

They are used to my personality and I'm starting to warm up to them. Everyone's got a soft spot for a gay couple... right?

"Jada honey. Is that you?" Shawn shouts from his office just as I pass. I had really hoped he didn't see me.

"Yes Shawn?" I ask politely. I find him sitting with another coworker, Tom, who looks so stressed.

"Tommy boy here got issues." He says and I furrow my eyebrows looking at him quizzically. He lets out an exaggerated sigh rolling his eyes. "And, we're going to help him. He's sending the customers away." He says and I almost laugh at this absurdity.

"There's a design I n..."

"As your boss I'm telling you we need to help Tommy boy here so bring that sexy ass to this chair." Shawn says and I laugh as I shut the door. Tom looks at me before putting his hand in his pocket and removing a box. Shawn lets out a dramatic gasp and takes it immediately.

"Careful." Tom says but Shawn is already gaping at the ring.

"This is so beautiful. When are you doing it?" He asks and Tom shrugs.

"I was to do it yesterday but Tina canceled." Tom says and I almost roll my eyes. I didn't sign up for this.

"Again?" Shawn asks looking at Tom sadly but Tom only nods.

"She isn't interested anymore I guess." Tom says. Tom is a 6'1 guy with brown hair. He has these beautiful brown eyes that shine when he laughs. He laughs a lot and seeing him this way is... different.

"Then talk to her." I blurt out making Tom look at me surprised.

"I texted her but she only responds with these one words." He says and now I roll my eyes.

"If she gives you dry texts then her coochie is wet for another man." Shawn says nonchalantly and Tom laughs.

"I figured out." Tom says with a sigh. "But I love her so much." He says.

"Love is brutal at times." I mutter but only Tom hears me. "Just tell her how you feel. You'll know what to do after that." I say making Tom nod.

"If you need romantic ideas, I'm the man for the job." Shawn says suddenly excited and Tom smiles at him.

"Now that we're done, I'd love to go back to my station boys. I have a queen bee's order to finish." I say as I walk out of the door.

I walk straight into my office as I think about my session with Dr Amanda. I had decided to tell Jayden about my pregnancy but I don't know how.

"I didn't know that being a designer makes you unaware of your surroundings." I hear a voice to my right making me jump. I look at Jayden and glare at him.

"What are you doing here Jayden?" I ask unamused. He smirks at my startled posture and I walk to my seat. I drink a glass of water suddenly nervous as he watches me amused.

"You've changed."

He observes a few minutes later and my eyes raise to him quizzically.

"What?" I ask. "Why?" I look away as I see he still studying me.

"You seem... happier. Your eyes seem warmer too." He says and I nod.

"I am happy." I say and he nods then suddenly becomes serious.

"Mr Kings has been trying to find you." He says handing me his phone and I look at the message.

"Why Is Ivy after me?" I ask. "You didn't kill Julian and his sister."

"Ivy believes Julian killed himself because of what I did to him. He could never walk again." He says and I nod slowly. "Ivy was Julian's pregnant girlfriend and Julia told her to look for you. She blamed you for his death when it's supposed to be me." Jayden says making me gasp.

Jayden looks at me weirdly. "You are showing so many emotions." He says slowly as if I'm a toddler.

"I know. So where is Ivy?" I ask trying to steer away the topic to Ivy.

"We're yet to find her but she seems to know so much about you. We found her hideout today morning and we found pictures of you and Ryan." He says and for the first time my heart speed up in panic.

"Ryan. We have to get to him right now." I say as I take my bag that has gun. I open the lowest drawer and take out three knives. Jayden smirks and moves closer to me.

"I sent someone to his school before I came." He says before suddenly bringing me closer and kissing me. I kiss him for a second before I push him away.

"I need to get to my son." I say as I take out my phone and call the school on my way to the car.

"Bri..."

"Hi, I'm Jada Costa. I just need to know if my son is okay." I say rudely cutting off the lady's voice.

"And who is your son ma'am?"

"Ryan Costa." I answer impatiently.

"He is.. He's just been picked up ten minutes ago by his aunt." Comes the hesitant respond seconds later.

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