"Being attached to you was like throwing your weapons during the war and missing you was like accepting defeat in a war you were about to win."
Armin
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They say that one's affection can never be replaced, just as how a given trauma remains exactly the same till that person who gave you that and happy memories, remains in your heart; and its always for a long time. Although some might say that I only knew that person only for 1.5 months, I still started to fell for him and why? Because he gave me happy memories that now has started to become trauma.
It has been almost a month since we parted our ways and said goodbye for real this time. I sometimes wake up in a cold sweat because of him. My heart, soul and thoughts miss him as if he were an essential part of my systems. The day when I was almost r*ped has became a nightmare because in it, no Adrian comes to rescue me and that terrifies me. My past wasn't all that happy to be reminded to my heart so....I am just trying to survive. My friends has tired to set me up on dates or even blind dates and I even tried to cooperate but its of no use. I feel like as if there was some sort of enchantment spell cast upon me.
Frain has set me up on another date this weekend. He seems nice and attractive but he is not.....him. "Come on! You can do this Armin, I mean you are still in your early twenties and so young; so relax and go on this blind date with an open mind...." Frain said as she was fixing her make up in the little mirror of hers.
"I know...I will try my best!" I remarked as she put on her lipstick. "Frain....can I use your lipstick as well? Its such a beautiful color. You know I am a slave for good makeup and paints." I said as she passed me a happy smile while handing her whole make up bag to me. I actually like make up, not because I feel insecure, but because there are so many colors and options that can help you truly express yourself as an artist and can help enhance your natural beauty. I put on the lipstick, touch up my make up because Frain said so and we left to go to a nearby cafe.
"Hey ladies! what can I get you today?" the waitress in front of us spoke as we sat down.
"Hey! can I get a strawberry milkshake with extra foam and whipped cream with a strawberry and cherry cake." Frain spoke as the waitress hummed in agreement while writing down our order. "And for you?" the waitress spoke to me in such a sweet voice. I smiled at her pretty face.
"I would like the chicken cheese bread with cold boba ice tea with extra milk please?" I spoke as she nodded with a smile and left towards the kitchen I presume. I stayed silent while looking around the cafe, I once came here with Adrian....
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FLASHBACK
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"Well you have a taste in picking places" I remarked .
"I tried to pick the best for my best" he said as he gestured towards me. I just gave a small smile trying to hide this sudden heat in my cheeks. I looked around at the walls and the decor. "see anything you like?" he asked.....
"What?" I chuckled at this sudden question. "I am just looking at the decor, its so unique and beautiful." I said as he nodded in agreement.
"Yeah I know, like this place is vintage and modern as well. I thought this place will be up to your liking" he said in a low tone while his cheeks got a little redder as he smiled a little...he was blushing.
"You picked well!" I said as his head lifted up and his eyes met mine, he looked so happy to hear that. I rose up from my seat and walked towards his chair, "Armin, where are you-" I placed my hands on his shoulders from behind and leaned down to plant a small peck on his left cheek and then went back to my seat.
"What...." he said as he just smiled so brightly as he put his left hand gently on his left cheek where my lips touched. "I don't know why you did that but I am never going to wash this side of face from now on!" he exclaimed in such utter joy that it made me giggle. His smile turned into a devilish smirk "But may I ask about the occasion?" he asked in a almost flirtatious tone while leaning towards me while his hands rested on the table gradually holding my hands, and the heat in my cheeks increased.
"It was a reward for choosing such a perfect place!" I said as I also leaned forward and gave his hands a little squeeze."Well I should do this more often and step up every time huh?" he said with a satisfactory smirk.
"This is not the deal of 'the more you take care of me, the more the award will be nice!', okay?" I said while giggling a little.
"No but still, can it get to a point of.....kiss?"
"What....." I sighed and looked at him with a chuckle "Yeah it is possible....satisfied?"
"Absolutely! I shall look forward to that!"
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PRESENT TIME
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His memories still lingers inside me, it was like as if I had read some amazing novel and I can't seem to move on. I kept asking myself as if its normal and every time I would tell myself, yes it is normal. We only knew each other for like almost 2 months but I still...got attached to him.
"Ummm....Armin....your phone is ringing." Frain spoke as I snapped out of my thoughts and looked down at my cell phone, it was buzzing so much. I flipped it over and saw Zara's call ID. Although me and Zara were together as roommates, she only calls me like 2-3 times in a year or when I am needed to pay my duties as an honorary police woman, what can I say, I AM indeed in the first class resort honorary police woman so when help is needed, I am the one who is called first.
[On The Phone]
"Hello? Armin speaking."
"I know! Armin how are you? everything's well?"
"Yeah of course! May i ask why are you calling me?"
"I heard you are in upper Alaska town these days."
"Yes, I am. I had some office work here."
"Well that's good to hear so listen up carefully, I am here as well and the team captain has asked me to call you to attend to duty for some time, you see the fire that happened here at the office branch of where you work, is one of the most important branches and that building was way more valuable than you think."
"So....?"
"That fire wasn't an accident, but it was arson for diverting attention so that access to the underground levels becomes easy. It was done by the White mafia..."
"Yeah, The news is filled with this piece of information. So the underground levels are so much important and that's why the construction has started rapidly after the fire.....I understand"
"Look Armin, I am going to fill you up on details later so its better if you report to duty today at the upper hill police station as soon as possible because its urgent!"
"I got it! I shall see you soon. Good bye"
[call ended]
And with that I hung up and immediately grabbed my bag. I explained the sudden situation to Frain. I didn't tell her the details because that's off-limit but I explained enough to make her understand the sudden rush.
Now here I stand in the station, In my uniform as Zara is quickly filling me up with details before we meet the team captain. But I have no idea why a black hole was forming at the pit of my stomach. May this all be my false alarm!