The stir came suddenly, but it didn't affect Xue Xue's reason.
She did not ask Chi Yu anything else, and just used her shoulder to support him up and brought him to the wooden chair placed on the right side of the entrance.
"I'll get you a glass of water."
When Xue Xue was about to turn around, Chi Yu grabbed her.
Not the wrist, but her forearm.
Xue Xue took a look and then looked up at Chi Yu.
"I'm not thirsty." His voice was hoarse. "Just sit with me for a while."
Hearing this, Xue Xue nodded.
As soon as she sat next to Chi Yu, the man held her elbow and rubbed his fingers over the area where a red mark had been left. "Does it hurt?"
Xue Xue didn't speak.
Chi Yu didn't seem to really want her to answer, but just continued the same movement until Xue Xue felt itchy and couldn't help but want to tuck her wrists into her sleeves, then he said slowly: "I'm sick, I know."
Xue Xue's body trembled.
Chi Yu was not joking, but was stating the facts in a very serious tone, which Xue Xue could feel.
She thought that Chi Yu would choose to confess everything this time, but obviously, Chi Yu had no such plan.
The man repeated the movements of opening and closing his eyes, closing and opening them again. During this process, although he no longer rubbed her skin with his fingertips, he still held Xue Xue's wrist cautiously and did not let go.
Xue Xue sat and quietly accompanied him.
There were no thoughts in her mind, and Xue Xue knew that she shouldn't have any thoughts now.
She didn't forget the stirring in her heart just now.
This was not a good phenomenon, Xue Xue knew it very well, so she was doing the same thing while Chi Yu was calming down.
The two of them leaned shoulder to shoulder, very close to each other, but they both thought about their own things in their hearts, and there was no interaction.
Xue Xue dropped her gaze on the wall clock on the wall. The time until they arrived at the airport was shortening bit by bit, and as it got closer to noon, the traffic on the road would definitely increase, so even if they made it out in time, they would probably have to settle for lunch at the airport.
"Let's go out."
Chi Yu said suddenly.
Xue Xue glanced at him, the man's expression has returned to normal, but his eyes were still bloodshot, making him look a little tired.
Xue Xue didn't say much, just nodded.
"Does it hurt?"
"What?" Xue Xue frowned before she understood what Chi Yu was asking. "A little bit."
She originally wanted to say that it didn't hurt, but she turned around when the words came to her lips. As expected, Chi Yu's eyes were filled with complex emotions such as regret, annoyance and self loathing.
"I'm sorry."
Hearing his apology again, Xue Xue didn't know whether to cry, laugh or ridicule.
"Chi Yu, you have told me twice today that you are sorry." Xue Xue got up and pulled the suitcase next to the shoe cabinet, while looking at Chi Yu who was patting his cheek, trying to cheer up. "Remember what you said before? I'll return that sentence to you now. What lovers want is not apologies, but honesty."
Chi Yu froze.
"We can quarrel, we can get angry after the quarrel, and we can try to sit down and solve the problem calmly after the anger is over, but we can't just rely on evasion and pretend that the problem doesn't exist."
Xue Xue always thought that after this period of communication, Chi Yu should be able to figure it out, but now she felt that she thought things too simply.
Chi Yu may have really changed, at least he didn't run all the way in the direction of blackening without turning back as Xue Li remembered, but it was not enough.
Chi Yu was obviously full of negative emotions about his past. Although he has promised Xue Xue that he will explain it clearly at an appropriate time, judging from the current situation, she is not sure how long will it be delayed or would it even come.
What can't be broken can't be built. [T/N: 不破不立 (bùpòbùlì): without destruction there can be no construction]
The glass was too thick to be broken with one blow, so Xue Xue had to try harder to see if she could make the crack bigger.
"Chi Yu, I can give you trust, but trust is something that can not afford to be worn out again and again."
"If you really don't want to talk about it, I won't force you, it's just that the two of us may not be suitable ..."
"No !" Xue Xue was interrupted by Chi Yu before she finished speaking. The man stood up vigorously, his expression was distorted, and he was flustered. "Don't say that, Xue Xue, don't say those two words."
When Chi Yu said the end, his tone was almost begging.
Xue Xue felt uncomfortable seeing him like that. After all, Chi Yu has always given people the impression that he shouldn't be a man who makes such compromises, but now that he has done it, Xue Xue can clearly see Chi Yu's embarrassment.
Her grip on the handle tightened.
Chi Yu lunged forward and brought Xue Xue into his arms, embracing her tightly. Probably because of the experience just now, Chi Yu was very restrained this time and hugged her around his chest with such strength that Xue Xue would not feel pain.
"I know what you mean, Xue Xue, don't worry, nothing like this will happen again." Chi Yu buried his face on Xue Xue's shoulder, sniffing the faint fragrance from her, and said in a muffled voice . "Give me some more time, please, just give me some more time."
Hearing this, Xue Xue didn't answer, but just pinched the back of Chi Yu's neck with her left hand.
That was the man's sensitive zone, if she do this when the passion is not there, it was more a caress than a tease.
She felt Chi Yu's body gradually relax.
"This is our first trip together. No matter what, I want to leave a good memory for this relationship." Xue Xue gently rubbed Chi Yu's muscles with her index finger and middle finger. "So during this period of time, I won't mention this matter again, but I hope you can seriously think about it when you come back."
"If we want to go on together, there are some things we have to face together."
"Even if it's not easy…remember what I'm going to say next, Ah Yu." Xue Xue said as she lowered her head to press a gentle kiss on his hair. "As long as you don't give up first, I will always be with you."