Watching Victor working out have been the hardest part toward my pregnancy, my hormones being going through the roof, my best friend told me to make a deal with him but it getting hard to keep my boundaries up, I want Victor I can't lie to myself anymore, with so much going on in my life his the only one that get me, through out my whole pregnancy he been there for me more than anyone I know, he stood up for me against everyone even some of them I have wrong out , my heart beats so fast when am around him, I feel like it about to explode, the connection towards him is indifferent than anyone I care about, but the way my life draws out I can bring him in to it, his way to good for me, how much I wish to go back and meet him first, how much, tear bring out my eyes, I need to walk away before i humiliated myself more.