Mariah halted in her tracks to get the carton of milk from the fridge.
"I know we're not very good friends, I mean we just met like a week ago, but I really needed to talk to someone who wasn't judgemental and who knew Adonis as well" Thelma voiced out in one breath.
Mariah was not stunned about the Adonis issue, what shocked her was the assumption that she wasn't judgemental. "What makes you think I'm not judgemental?"
Thelma could not keep her gaze still, like she was searching the room for her answer.
"You and I have never had a conversation where I expressed my open mindedness to everything in life. So what provoked such trust?" Mariah asked.
Thelma finally found her answer "You look like you've done a lot of bad things in your life. You look like nothing could faze you anymore, nobody could possibly be as awful as you are"
Mariah smirked.
"What makes you think you like him?" She walked to the sofa, expecting that Thelma was in tow.
Thelma was. "The other day, I think three days ago, we had a drunk conversation. He was poetic and insightful, he was smart and open-minded. I already had a crush on him just because of his looks, however, listening to him talk about life and all that, I think it's not a crush anymore."
Mariah could not relate. Hell, she could not find a reality where she would be able to fit Adonis in the same sentence with the word intelligent. The boy always seemed to ask stupid questions and say inappropriate provoking things whenever they stumbled upon each other.
And with the idea of him being good looking. She wondered if they were all looking at the same person.
Nevertheless, she couldn't say anything regarding her own notion, it wouldn't be appropriate "I see, go on"
"He was talking about life and the obvious reality that people probably don't pay attention to, I couldn't help it." Thelma immediately buried her face in the sofa.
Mariah already knew what came next.
"You kissed him"
Thelma lifted her head, her cheeks were red and her lips were full. She really looked like the nature of everything was taking a huge toll on her.
"What was his response to that?"
"Well, after I kissed him first, I was stunned so I moved back, then I apologized." Thelma smiled as she remembered how the event played out the other day. She made sure to keep eye contact with Mariah as much as she could. But she couldn't hold it for much longer, her eyes moved on their own to stare at space while the memories played over in her head like they did these past days.
"He grabbed my chin with the softest hold, Mariah. His voice became so deep and soft. He said these exact words 'No, no, no. You don't have to apologize' then he tucked my hair behind my ears before pulling my head closer to himself." Thelma moaned. "My God! Mariah, he kissed me so roughly but yet at a pace that feels like he did not want to assume anything, he did not want to think that anything would come out of the kiss. I don't know how to describe it but Mariah, he was respectful"
Mariah brought a sliced apple to her mouth. Listening to Thelma talk about how Adonis kissed her provoked out the memory of the other day in the elevator. She believed Henry would kiss better than Adonis. Adonis, according to Thelma, was hesitating, Henry wouldn't and that was how one would know. The confidence would ooze out of the kiss, Adonis was not confident in anything regarding Thelma and might probably not like her, while Henry was different. Henry had confidence and he might like Mariah too.
"Did anything come out of the kiss?"
Thelma stayed quiet for a minute. She stared at Mariah with her bottom lip in-between her teeth. "We had sex"
"Wow!" Mariah was truthfully stunned. "How was it?"
Thelma smiled brightly at Mariah's question "Do you read those smut books of the male lead being a very good and kinky fucker?"
Mariah nodded, already connecting the dots.
"Just imagine those men came to life and all of them were one in Adonis"
Now, that stunned Mariah, mostly because it was unbelievable.
"God! Mariah, Adonis knows how to fuck. It was not in any way vanilla. His foreplay lasted for almost an hour, I climaxed from the foreplay alone. And when he eventually went in. Mariah" Thelma grabbed her face "he is so big. He is very big, literally the biggest I have ever seen"
Mariah chuckled "how many have you seen?" She asked rhetorically.
Thelma ignored her question "I think he was over twenty centimeters, I think longer even. And it was fat and thick. It tasted divine and he smelled so good"
Mariah nodded in approval, never had she met anyone that smelled as good as Adonis did. She could understand the whole fawning over his scent.
"He used dirty words, he praised me, he choked me. Mariah, he did a lot of things." She squealed.
"Don't you think you just want to fuck him again and this feeling isn't as simple as feelings?"
Thelma's face contorted in confusion "as simple as feelings? Do you think feelings are so simple?"
"Definitely not. I mean like life is regarded as hard but we assume it to be so facile. Thelma, sometimes we can't just know how we're feeling, that's the mystery of life. It's like when a person develops an interest in both men and women, obviously one would refer to it as.."
"Bisexuality" Thelma answered.
"However, it isn't so obvious, because there exists also, pansexuality. And that is not just basic developing interest in both sexes. It's more complex. Now, you obviously appreciated Adonis for his good looks before all of this, and then you had an insightful conversation with him which exposes you to the possibility of him being shockingly intelligent. Then you fucked him. And it was more than what you imagined. I'm saying maybe it's not feelings, maybe you don't want to hold his hand in public, maybe you don't want to walk through a sea of sunflowers with him, maybe you don't want the taste of beauty and love from his kisses, maybe all you want from him is to slam you against the wall or the bed and fuck you like his life depends on it"
Thelma nodded her head, "I see. How can I be able to say what I want?"
"Maybe fuck him again or just talk, I don't know" Mariah stared at her cautiously.
"Ahh!"