We are now inside the ship while the children are in their rooms and resting. I turned my gaze to Yanyan, Red and Blue, Black and Dark who were sitting on the sofa while watching a TV show.
I breathed a sigh of relief and stood up, making them all look at me. I looked at them seriously and signaled that I would just go out for a while to get some fresh air.
Yanyan nodded at me which made me smile. I left there and they went back to what they were watching.
After I got out, I immediately went to a chair and sat there. I put on my sun glasses and leaned my back against the back of the chair. I smiled because today is our return and the match between everyone is close.
I can't wait for this fight to be over. I want to leave where I grew up and where I experienced to become who I am today. I don't want my children to experience what I experienced when I was young. Who did nothing but kill, do missions and fight with organizations that are enemies of our organization.
I am afraid of what will happen to my children but I know it will end. I will not let them be the next leaders of the organization that grandma and grandpa created.
But I know that no matter what I do, it still won't end because the day will come and will still come when they will have something against me that they didn't expect.
I closed my eyes and sighed softly. I looked in front of me because it was so beautiful to watch. I looked up and smiled bitterly. The sky is beautiful to watch today.
I came back to myself when my cellphone suddenly rang so I immediately looked at it. I took it from my table and immediately answered without looking at who was calling.
"What?" I asked coldly.
"Queen," he said on the other line, making me sit up.
"What's up?" I asked coldly.
I heard him take a weak breath that scratched my forehead. I stood up and went to the front of the ship. I was waiting for him to speak.
"They're moving," he said seriously, making me grin.
"Really, huh?" I asked in my mind.
I bit my lip and held onto the handle of the ship while looking out into space.
"Let them go, just follow their movements. We will come soon," I said coldly.
"Okay, Queen. Be careful when you travel," he said.
I smiled and hung up. I breathed a sigh of relief as I watched the sea in front of me.
It was beautiful to watch, the waves and the dolphins playing. I smiled a little and went back to where I was sitting earlier. I leaned my back against the back of the chair. And looked at the sky.
I couldn't help but smile bitterly when I saw two birds flying freely above. Grandma and Grandpa suddenly entered my mind.
I watched the birds fly freely above me.
"Grandma, Grandpa," I said softly.
I smiled bitterly and closed my eyes.
"I miss you all," I added.
I promise you that I will finish this fight. When I get there I won't waste time to finish the fight that should have been finished long ago. I will not let my children feel and catch up with it.
I will finish this fight myself. No matter what happens, even if it's my life in exchange, let my children have a good life and be peaceful. There will be no chaos, and there will be no organization to fight against.
This is not the life I dreamed for my children. I didn't even expect them to come into my life and I prepared for it. No Mother wants their children to enter the trouble they grew up with.
Although I am strong in the eyes of others and a demon, but when it comes to my children, I become weak and become an angel. I don't want to lose them because I might die. But I also know that eventually I will leave them. I'm not always by their side every day. Although I can't promise that I will stay by their side, they will always be in my heart.
Even if I want to stay with my children for the rest of my life, I can't because if I don't gamble this fight won't end. I am happy because they are my children but I always ask myself if they are also happy that I am their Mother?
I woke up when I felt like my cheek was getting wet. I immediately wiped it off and fixed the seat. I smiled bitterly and looked up at the sky.
I hope that when the day comes that I will be gone from this world, my children's lives will be happy and peaceful. It hurts me to leave them but it hurts me more to see them become like me in the end.
It is better that I lose than that they lose. I can't do it when that happens. I don't want them to be like me. Being called a demon like me. It hurts a mother when you hear your children called like that.
I have made up my mind, I will finish this fight no matter what happens for my children. They don't want to be like me. They deserve to be happy and have friends who won't leave them and hurt them.
They deserve to be happy with the people they love in the end. That's right, that I was the only one who experienced all the hardships that happened to me before. Just don't be my children.
I also promise that when I'm gone I'll still be there by their side, watching over them and protecting them.
As much as it hurts me to do this and leave them, I can't do anything else than let them experience what I experienced before. The fear, being shunned by the people around them, hurt, and called a demon.
I don't deny that I'm really a demon when I'm angry but I still have a heart for people who are good to me and care about me. The only ones I kill are the people who are in arrears with me. And not innocent people. I only become a demon when the person in front of me is also a demon like the father of my children. I can't wait to see him again and have him die by my own hand.
I smiled at my thoughts. The battle between organizations led by different people in different countries is near.