Some people say its always hard out there its cold, wild, vicious, venomous and others claim its quite simple just show up. Yeah maybe they are right or maybe they are just speaking there imagination but tell this its never soft for anybody out there hearing the screams of your brothers, friends ,the smell of gun powder, the blood spread on everything surrounding you , that strong breathtaking noise of the guns and boom sounds when people are loosing different features of their bodies.
Every after two years everybody is home pleading for God's mercy that their beloved ones get home with safety. Many of them we had to look at their faces with the courage to tell them that they will never see them again, same as mine i knew one day someone had to go face my lovely wife Diana and my little cutie Merrylin and tell her that they were never gonna see me again. As that had come we had to say goodbye with respect to those who had given their souls to serve the Nation in fact it meant the whole world to everyone of us (R.I.P to those we lost).The helicopter had to drop were our loved ones were waiting for us, as soon as we landed i saw my beautiful girls that I had taken long without seeing. Of course wow Merrylin was a grown up now she was already eleven as for Diana beautiful as ever. We arrived home and surprisingly unlike the other times this the house felt so warm and safe , they both gave me a warm hug and welcomed me home , I kiss both their foreheads to show them how much I missed them they are my home. In no time we were having dinner and everything looked happy and simple. We watched a movie and soon after the girls were falling asleep. I carried Merrylin to bed , you know how much it means to me and her since these are the few moments we have together. I touched my wife's wrist and kissed it asked her to join me for bedtime, and soon we were in bed. Everybody was so tired and sleepy since we all had a long day as for me my long nights were about to begin.
Its so dark, so cold am hearing the sound of leaves falling softly onto the ground. No body , no visuals no nothing.I normally have nightmares but always this one comes repeatedly and most crucial point is that it doesn't feel like a dream, its like really me I can feel my self I can feel everything but I don't always go beyond this dark space. You know hope is one of the most important things in life and on the other hand its one the most dangerous things. I just keep hoping someone wakes me up cause its pretty getting scary.