Gods are the omnipotent and benevolent beings
God is a belief and supreme being that every human in the world believes in despite being in any corner of the world.
Although the gods they believe may differ, a character titled god exists in each and every record of the countries that exist now . Even when the world was not connected , countries were not discovered ,connections were not made ,these omnipotent and all powerful beings were part of people's memories , believes and
Emotions….
I also used to believe in them..
Which is very natural as I am a native of India, a country where there are too many gods in history as there are many of those who believe in them , where devotion is taught in families.
Until that incident… ;After which I had stopped believing in them. It's almost been 7 years since I changed my way of thinking about gods .
HOw many people would you find exactly ? who didn't think ,'oh god if you really exist! Please make this one thing happen'. honestly i don't think we would find anyone in this entire world.
And how many times would this wish come true ? that would also be very few. And if you think straightly it would have nothing to do with the wish you made .
In these past seven years I also had many movements where I would have begged God for clearing my hardships . Ahhhh..! Let's not talk about those seven years. I don't want to remember those days.In my life i stopped going to temples,Or wishing to gods'
I thought relying on my luck and coincidence while hoping for my desires to come true were the most reasonable things I did rather than relying on god.
In these past years i had only one goal or reason no PURPOSE would be the right word.
Yes, i had only one purpose in my life and that is to live my life without relying on others while taking care of my family and this purpose of mine isn't something that would happen right away
So ,to reach my goal the only thing I had to do was study .so, I did just that .
Although I may not be the smartest, I did score above 90 percent in almost all my examinations and To escape from the cruel reality all i could do was search for a way to escape from my problems, a way to soothe my pain, burden and responsibility .
And I found my happiness in watching anime ,reading manga and manhwa. Basically I became a geek, I think ?
I many times thought " I wish I would be taken to some other world or some type of dungeon or something would appear in this world , ahhhh.... Who am I kidding ? Those things only happen in fiction ".
And now when I think back to it where I told myself that it would only happen in fiction, I want to go and slap my past self for losing hope on that possibility. Although it is not quite the same scenario . Here I am in the same world but along with common people there are those who can use magic ,control elements and those whose power level scales to that of gods….
Ha, that was a character i stopped believing in for a long time but here i am seeing that omnipotent character eye to eye while my whole reality which i believed in my entire life is crumbling down..
What will happen to me ....? Will I not be able to complete my purpose in life…? What will happen to my family after this..? I am scared !