Sanhyul's POV:
I went straight to my room and closed my door frustratedly. What was that? How did that happen? Why does it have to be him? So many questions are arising in my head right now. I threw my jacket on the couch and unbuttoned my shirt. I am feeling so suffocated right now. I poured myself a glass of water, sat on the couch and took a heavy breath. I am jealous and I know that. I thought she was not ready, that's why I never took a step. Still, I was always with her. I have always tried and did everything to protect her from the evil eyes of those lurking bastards so that no one harms her. I wanted to be her first and last love. I want to be hers forever. I want her to want me only.
But when did this happen? He was not supposed to meet her. That was the deal. I was pacing back and forth in my room trying to calm the tangling knots in my stomach. I always made sure no guy even dared to roam around her. But, when did I become so careless that Han got a chance to swoop in. She always came to me for everything. I love teasing her, annoying her and our little moments. Her rosy lips and her blushed face is all I can think of right now.
But, it wasn't for me, it was all for Han. I hope it's just an attraction and she hasn't fallen for him. I need to take a shower to cool myself. I went to the washroom and took a hot shower still I can't shake all these lingering thoughts. I have to stop these thoughts or it would drive me crazy.
I brushed my teeth and did my night routine. Even when I look into my mirror, her face, her laugh, her sweet smiles, the way she was speaking and blushing because of Han was coming like flashbacks in my mind. Her existence drives me crazy and I have accepted this fact long ago but she has never blushed like this for any man, not even for me just once. I remember, just once it happened when she fell on me while I was teasing her with her book. That day has been engraved in my memory and I will always treasure it. That day only I was sure, even if I try my best and I can never stop thinking about her. I love everything about her, even her silly little squeaky voice that comes in between her laughs.
Today she was looking so breathtaking. Her lightly glossed lips, that green dress, her sweet vanilla fragrance, everything was perfect. I didn't know when I came out of the washroom and slept on my bed. I don't even remember when I took off my shirt. That's exactly what she does to me. She makes me forget my reality. She makes me forget my loneliness. Her thought is enough for me to forget all my difficulties and whatever I have to face in the future. She is my distraction, rather say a pleasant one. She is my comfort.
I sighed thinking what I have to do now. I can't let her go. I have to confess to her soon but I don't want to haste. Even more important, I can't let Jass fall for him.