"I have been busy didn't have the time" I have no idea what exactly I was busy about was the therapist we should moved past it, or the text and letters I have to apologize for it is was rude of me to treat her that way, she deserves a place in my heart not only did I snob her I locked myself so she couldn't even reach me.
"I blame myself everyday I wanted to apologize to you because you took out everything on me like I was responsible for their death-
Is she kidding me this is not real housewives of Orange County I'm supposed to apologize to her and there is no way I blamed her for anything it became complicated for me because she was really getting into my Space the more I try to reach it the more awkward it became for me.
"You are my mum best friend-
I sounded like the first time I got admitted here the first thing I looked at was how organized and fashionable she looked, a principal look this good I don't want to go to any other school as a person that knows all the fashion brand without even reading it's names just the abbreviation I know what category was this, her nails look so beautiful as she hand me my profile with pregnancy principal Felicia still slayed the fuck out of the gown.
"I never for once blame you, you kept coming in my space it was the wrong time to do whatever you plan on doing I'm .....
I stutter that came out so raw i have in mind to apologize to her so ugly the word didn't come out, I saw how eager her eyes is to have me say the word sorry I'm not sure I'm ready to do that, is her fault she can't listen.
"I never thought things will get so awkward between us just so you know I never gave up on you, your parent house is on listing why selling it" she asked of course she cares that house will only remind me of memories I'm getting rid of at least my parent graves are convenient enough for me to visit any once in a while,
"Things change so as people I'm not that kid anymore you don't have to expect me to be the same after what happened, congratulations on your baby-
I smile but quickly darken my face I was getting attached again if I do i might end up opening up again I can't risk it, I saw her face lit after I smile I feel horrible what a beast I am, she rubbed her belly someday I'm going to look like this carrying lil daddy jnr inside of me.
" you carrying a baby your body has always been the first thing first always in shape I'm happy you sacrifice it for your little person growing in your stomach is motivating" well I referred that to me she has always been my motivation right from day one, a woman I look up to so kind and selfless I know she will be a great mom.
"I have to go now-
"To where Biebie? I'm not supposed to say this my ex I mean the father of my baby..... my fiancé he cheated on me so I call off my wedding, come live with me Biebie I live in a three story building house you can have all the space pls don't go away-
Shake off her hand off me I was stunned about the cheating how can a man be this stupid to cheat on a flawless woman like principal Felicia, intelligent, hardworking, a writer for a big publication company, independent, I heard her trying to convince me that she can set me up for the upcoming examination with assurance I will passed it made me scoffs unknowingly is a good opportunity I mean if my parent were alive she doesn't need to even offer the future was so bright a lot of people had a glimpse of it now look at me a street girl.
"Your baby is important don't worry about me and I think the father of your child should be involve in your baby life's you ain't going to take that from him.... ain't you? I can't live with you I understand he did you dirty is totally acceptable not to be with him, as far as this baby is concern do not take away the fatherhood his infidelity is between you two so take up the phone and text him when is your next doctor appointment, please stop hoping I might return one day I'm with family now I Certainly wish for the graduation right now there is so much on the table and my hand is pretty much tight I'm sure my kids will archive that, make sure you take care of your baby"
Biebie went closer to her and took a selfie with her iphone they end up hugging each other.
"Thanks for all you do someday I will repay you I love you the most and tell you kid there is two aunties that ran away from home like cowards out there hopefully one day come around to visit which is not promised Fate will decide" Biebie kissed her belle leaving as fast as her leg could carry, she can't stand to be more emotional than this.
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Biebie didn't head straight home decided to take a little road trip and view the beauty of the city still unbelievable how principal Felicia is going to have a baby the good bad part though, moving on to the worst part why will a man like her ex fiancé cheat on a gorgeous woman as she is, did he ever wonder why the whole school love her hell yeah because of her calmness, kindness, selflessness her baby doesn't deserve that, he's a dick to do that to her Biebie curse him.
She realized the pain she's going through right prioritize other people like they were hers, is hurting to give your all to a man, vulnerable, trust at the end of the day instead of him to treat her like a queen, worships her, this is a flawless perfect woman in the picture instead he choose to broke her.
Biebie is not trying to be judge-mental think of it how he treated her like some piece of shit, disrespect break her one rule just to carry his baby.
Looked around the car before asking the driver if there is any alcohol in the car he nod and took out a pure vodka handing it to her she took it uncapping it gulping a good amount screwing her face from the harshness she exhale.
"You okay madam" the driver asked glaring from the rearview, she nod ever since she moved in with lil daddy that's what they call her except his boys, is a fact she bragged he owns the biggest house on the street technically a madam to the street lord his ambition is to become a mafia, a madam to the high demand weed distributor how lucky is she when it comes to men.
Her first time and it turn out beautifully, she gulp the longest vodka this time it wasn't harsh like the first one well the first Is always the hardest, she laughs at herself advising principal Felicia isn't it crazy well she will do the same life is already hard than adding the pressure of not having a father around his kid is insane who does that.
The driver asked her again if she's alright. "Why not you quit asking me every ten seconds if I'm alright and focus on your driving" age replied back trying to keep her composure, all over a sudden she begin to feel drunk.
Taking another long shot well is worth celebrating attending prom and trucing with principal Felicia, the driver knew Biebie is really drunk at the backseat mumbling about her life how it's suck, he asked her again if they should head home.
"Yes home, take me home you piece of shit" did she really say that out loud, she covers her mouth with her hand frighten hoping he didn't hear the last part, she barely say the last part out loud, glancing at him look like he didn't hear her and if he does there is nothing he's going to do about it but is not right to call someone old enough to be your father a piece of shit for no reason, she chuckle the vodka is really strong, she didn't even suppressed it with a soft drink or lime.
They finally get home after dozen of missed calls from lil daddy and Toby to confirm if she's home neither did she respond, he parked the Range Rover with other exotic car all cleaned on the garage, she snicker like is her first time noticing lil daddy garage, he has three fast cars that cost more than five hundred thousand dollars I'm talking about fast cars like Buggati and Lamborghini, taking off her shoes from her feet holding the vodka with her other hand she take a long shot before getting down the driver tried to help her but she pushed him aside.
"Take your hands off me" she yelled struggling to get out of the car when she burp using the shoe hand to hinder the release of the gas, lil daddy at the patio watching the drama going on decide to go get her, never seen her this drunk maybe something happened.
He came over to helped her stand on her feet but she kept mumbling not letting go off either of the shoe or vodka. "Oh my gosh I love this house at night I mean the pool" she finally let go of her five hundred dollars Tonford heel on the ground pointing at the pool.
"Come on let me take you inside, Ahmed you can drop the keys and have some rest yourself thanks for bringing her safe" lil daddy told the driver who disappeared within seconds.
"I said I want to go in the pool" she pushed him so hard.
"You're drunk babe let me get you inside" she struggle to get out of his grasp and ran jumping into the pool lil daddy guys who were playing one of his sick raps blaring from JBL had their splash of water,
"Babe you should think of going to the studio your songs are great like toliver....
"Toli what"? He asked his eyes fixed on her, the pool soaked her completely his guys went on doing what they were doing smoking and playing poker with their own money games are better when money is involve, one of them were leading tonight looks like he's taking everyone money home enjoying it, why lil daddy isn't with them is because he's worried about Biebie after calling her several times.
"Don to-li-ver" she stressed out the name lil daddy knew of him but is he an actual rapper he asked his girlfriend that the pool helped mould her breast, her hair wet so damn hot and sexy.
"He's a rapper babe how come you don't know him one of Travis Scott signee-
He gasped it all ends in Travis Scott why are they talking about this right now she retorted is about his rap that he's not proud of it.
"I want to fuck you like crazy tonight" he said it, Biebie blushed, swimming upfront to meet him he helped pull her from the pool, she wrapped her arms around him lil daddy grabbed her ass well he's always grabbing her ass, her face smudged with makeup still yet he manage to kissed her deeply.
"I love you" Biebie muttered she just so grateful to have lil daddy in her life considering what would've been life without him.
"I love you too cmon let me take you inside" she pushed him not ready to go inside.
"You're drunk babe let me help you" she started laughing lil daddy wonder was funny he's guy wasn't even watching they were so busy gambling yelling on top of their voices their guns stay side by side besides them.
"You know what I'm so thrilled babe" she looked upto him poking the right side of his cheek.
"We are going to rule the street together after we take down the cartel and his throne will be yours and I will be your Monalisa, your queen"
"You're drunk babe-
Biebie pushed him so hard this time.
"Stop saying I'm drunk of Course I know tell me we aren't ambitious there is nothing I want more than see him die by my hands stop fucking telling me I'm drunk" she said the last part so loud lil daddy guys paused and glanced at them then went ahead continuing the gambling boss and his chick always doing drama one of them swear not to fall in love is much burden and drama he loves to pay and fuck zero stress.
Biebie walked by herself taking the wrong direction when she slipped and fell, lil daddy checked on her she's fallen fast asleep. Lil daddy was relieved as he exclaimed Thankgod!!!