It was embarrassing that Arabella was worried about losing control now as well. It used to be just Ferdinand. But now, she had to worry about herself too.
She realized she had become honest with her desires in this life. She ate the food she liked, said what she wanted, and did as she pleased.
Now, her carnal desire was awakened by Ferdinand and she somehow knew from experience that it would keep bothering her for a long while.
Since she was already experienced in this matter, Arabella thought she would be just fine even when Ferdinand triggers her lust just as he did in her past life. But just from what happened today, she could tell it did not seem like it would be easy for her.
But then again, she did say she would maximize this life. Aside from atoning for her sins, she would also live her life to the fullest.
Her mind was old enough to know sex was a normal part of life. She should just enjoy it too.
