it was early in the morning and all the students were crowding in front of the bathroom to take a bath to get ready and leave as soon as possible for venturing into the City. after one hour all of them were done and then the other teachers two and caretaker agrreged them into a line with the group of two people and as u know there are always some who are left out because they can't find a partner because some people would make group of three even if it's not allowed.
same happened with a little boy who was just staring at the children. pov of little boy: right even if I do everything no one will ever choose me , why ? why ? what did I do why I am the one who is always left out it's seems so hopeless why can't I just disappear even if I do despear no one will know or even care so why was I even born , why no one wants me first my parents my family why God your so cruel to me I don't care if this happens with many all I see now I want someone to be there but I guess I will never be special for anyone why?"
the boy was just staring at the group's lost in his own train of thought when suddenly someone held his hand he was sacred and screamed " aaaaaaaaa!!!!!" whushh and a second hand appeared and covered his mouth the boy's eyes were round like a plate when he saw who it was.
" shuuuu!! what the heck did you scream for? "
the boy was shocked to see who it was he pushed the hand away from his mouth and spoke " Sonu ? that's your name right? what are you even doing? "
Sonu gave the boy a pretty smile before saying " I was looking for a partner to hold hands with and everyone already found one but you were standing alone so I thought I can hold your hand "
the boy was confused as to why Sonu wasn't with Rani , bani , and Teeja
" but Rani , bani and Teeja what about them? why didn't you just pair with them ? "
Sonu " oh that Rani is paired with bani and Teeja sis is older so she will walk ahead the group to guide them and will walk alone "
the boy " but why didn't you pair up with Rani and bani ? "
Sonu looked at the boy like she is annoyed by his question but replied anyways " because three people pair are not allowed now stop asking questions unless you want me to go alone " after hearing this the boy shut his mouth and keeping his head low as they started to walk hand in hand, the boy was constantly staring down at his feets after a while the boy quitely spoke " so you came because you just didn't want to be alone? "
Sonu " yea offcourse" the boy raised his head looking at Sonu and saw that sonu had a very serious expression on her face knowing that sonu is always cheerful and bubbly the boy never thought he would see Sonu's serious face.
"obviously there is no one out there who takes care of me so I will do it myself right and to be honest and really doesn't matter if there is someone or not" the boy was still staring at Sonu " you know why because even if there is someone who takes care of me one day we will part right? so I have to be the one to take care of my needs and that's ok because even if the good time is not permanent we can atleast keep it in our memories although we only remember bad things and think that nothing good ever happened with us when in reality do you really think something like that is possible sure there are sad ending but a small amount of cheerful time is there.
and hey who are we fooling ourselves? by thinking that there are people out there who will call us when they don't need us ? but that's ok every relationship has a goal and that's normal because it could be as small as just talking to someone and hearing their voice or money or any kind of work they have with us , don't worry we don't have to become perfect for an imperfect being because animals make mistakes and we are also an animal sure we are advance in everything but in a sense we are an animal right ?"
Sonu still didn't stop and kept saying as the boy focused on her intensely " and hey I know it feels dark and hopeless to be the last one and an option for someone but one thing is sure we can't be always with someone who thinks we are special so does others who can't be with us who we think are special for us so at the end it all downs that it's we who have to be good to ourselves before being good to others treat others as you treat yourself if you treat yourself like hell you should be hell to others and if you treat yourself like heaven treat others like heaven we can't satisfy someone because human needs are always growing and expanding right so no need to be perfect for someone else don't let something which hurts you even get near yourself "
the boy was just staring at Sonu even after she finished speaking, Sonu looked at the boy and gave him a kind smile.
the boy was stunned, it was like something in him was sparked or invoke in his dark filled world it was like a shining fireflies after a while he was just observing others and Sonu but in his silence this time had many answers like everything did fall in place finally.
Sonu was looking at the road side Shop curiously not knowing that the boy was staring at her. the boy just looked at Sonu and smiled from joy whispering to himself " thank you"
he thought that sonu didn't hear unknown to him that from the start Sonu only paid attention to him.
Sonu's pov : after hearing the boy say thank you Sonu was smiling even more and just said in her heart °• your welcome •°
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hey sweeties I know it's very heart breaking when you think you are close to someone but turns out you were just a time pass to them and getting picked last or being left alone is the worst feelings but sweeties we have to become the person who doesn't let others choose Know that you have to make a boundary that we should not let others think us as a backup plan I know it's hard but we both can start from 1st step of saying no to things you don't want to do. let both of us take it step by step no rush just know that we are individual person if there is something we don't want or don't like we should create boundaries with a simple no .
hey sweetheart I know you are doubting yourself but we can take this step.
when ever you will read this let's start to choose ourselves 1st.
wish you a day where you can feel proud for yourself for choosing yourself and I will also feel proud of you 🤗.
my sweeties