I’m myself

The first son of the family seem like a role model to others.Being the first son of my dad gives me a life opportunity although I have two sisters.well I come from a polygamous family where my mum and dad have been separated while I was small and grew up with my family.family like,stepmom and grandpa .I face a lot of life and I had to live the way it went and not the way I wanted.Family can be lovely but not every time which makes me feel unwanted.unwanted in sense that you can’t please everyone but to be yourself always and that’s the basic of life!I always want to be myself,being generous,loyal and being respectful but not as I think so family life becomes a battlefield of fight for yourself,talk to yourself and when you are happy you smile to yourself without anyone noticing.I lost myself all because no road to follow and have being through sorrow of all the time of my life .