Ten years have passed since then , and all I learned in these past ten years was life is nothing but a hassle . I live with negativity freely residing in my mind , insecurities killing my enthusiasm and confidence, surrounded by unknown darkness . And as time passed by I kind off got used to the darkness , I felt as like I was safe here , as though it was my home . After a particular time the light began to hurt , so I buried myself deeper into my own thoughts , my own world, filled with nothing but darkness .
All I wanted to do was to protect myself from God knows whom and what . I promise myself to not let anybody hurt me , and it was only me who could protect me , and that I should protect myself no matter what .
I am not aware of what is disturbing me , what is causing all these mental and emotional battles in my mind or who it is that I need to protect myself from ; the others or me .