I can't feel the concrete under me or the hottest of the sunrise over me. I can only feel the hole ripping through my chest, I'm kneeling helplessly watching her as she takes over his emotions. I couldn't have imagined this- never in my wildest fucking dreams, I have thought that I'd fell this type of pain.The sting of loss, I've heard it called. I haven't had anything or anyone to cherish, never felt the need to have someone, to make them completely mine, I haven't wanted to hold on to someone so fiercely.The panic -the complete and utter of fucking panic of losing him was planned.None of this was. Yet this handsome looking gentleman crept his way inside of me , until I slowly fell of him so hard that I came believe it. I didn't realize how much I loved him until this thing happened.I hate ,hated every moment of it but I didn't stop.