Jihyun noona.
How the hell did I end up like this with noona?
At first, I just thought of her as the crazy noona helping out with Joo-ha's insane plan.
Plus, she runs a tattoo shop and a waxing place... I thought she was some kind of scientist or something.
But nope. Not even close. So, I was kinda thrown off.
She's pretty, kind.
A bit scatterbrained and all over the place, but still a good noona.
In a way, isn't it because of her that things ended up like this with Juha?
Should I be grateful or hate her for it...?
The first adult I've been tangled up with since becoming one myself.
Honestly, there's a bit of a distance between us.
The age gap is pretty big, and we only got involved because of OnlyFans. We weren't even close before.
She's just... a noona with big tits, that's all.
Juha's got big tits too. Is there some kind of bond between people with huge tits or something...?
She's nothing like the older noona I had in mind.
Someone confident, experienced, who leads the younger ones. Always ahead, knowing everything.
I thought that's what an older noona would be like... but Jihyun noona is far from that.
At 23, I thought she'd be confident, independent, making good money, living as a proper member of society...
I thought it'd be a cool age.
But the 23-year-old noona I met... wasn't much different.
Sure, she's more mature than us, but she's just as scared.
She gets lost and wanders around just like us.
Maybe that's why I'm drawn to her. We're similar in some ways.
But it also makes me wary. What if I end up falling like her?
"..."
What kind of experiences has noona been through?
What kind of people has she met? What kind of men?
My mind settled down.
'Heh... heh...'
Noona, nestled in my arms, breathed faintly.
Is this how defenseless people usually are...?
Or does she trust me? Or is it just because she's drunk...?
Just like noona needs someone to spoil her...
I need someone to spoil me too.
I buried my face in noona's chest.
I felt a vast maternal love. This is noona...
*Swoosh...*
I grabbed the strap of her dress and pulled it down, revealing the top of her chest.
I hadn't even fully undressed her, but she was already way bigger than Juha.
I swallowed hard and pulled the dress down to her sternum.
*Plop...* With a small sound, noona's chest was fully exposed.
Her breasts glowed white in the darkness... her chest stood out in contrast to the rest of her skin.
'...'
Fuck, they're huge.
So big they're spilling out, struggling to stay in place. Even at this size, they're perfectly shaped...
Large areolas that matched her big tits... a soft pink spread evenly, like peaches. So this is what she's been hiding under her clothes...
Just imagining it made my dick throb painfully.
I gently lifted them, and they were warm.
The warmth of her flesh...
Feeling the urge in my dick, I slowly fondled them.
Just this much.
This much is enough.
Just touching her chest while rubbing my lower half against her...
I was most curious about noona's intentions.
Did she bring me here thinking this would be okay?
Or did she think, "Joonhyung wouldn't do something like that," and brought me here?
I really don't know. I can't figure out women. Men would think it's okay to go this far...
Even if she's drunk, she'd still think about that much, right...?
Pre-cum was already dripping.
What would happen if I just pushed in?
My dick had been nestled between noona's thighs for a while now.
Smooth... wet... the entrance to noona's pussy.
Just rubbing my dick against her protruding mound was dizzying.
What if I pretended to lose control and just shoved it in?
I pressed the tip of my dick against her pussy.
Dangerous thoughts kept dominating my mind.
*Creak...* Just rubbing the tip against her pussy made me feel it opening slightly.
The hole quivered like it was breathing.
I didn't put it in... but isn't this basically sex?
Isn't it pretty much the same thing?
I pressed the tip against her pussy again.
As if welcoming me, the hole quivered and opened slightly.
I subtly moved my hips back and forth. Pretending it was an accident, trying to slip in.
My urethra twitched. It felt like I was about to cum and thrust at any moment.
"Ha..."
My breath was hot.
It'd feel so good to just push in. I'd probably cum almost immediately.
Rubbing against her walls, pistoning my dick up and down... it'd feel so good I could die.
I don't have work tomorrow... it'd be fine.
What kind of reaction would noona have?
If I shoved it in and started thrusting wildly, would she wake up in a panic?
What would she think seeing my dick buried inside her?
Would she just quietly go along with it? Shaking her big tits, going "Huh, huh," and reluctantly adjusting?
Or would she sob and try to push me away?
Would she beg me to pull out? Tell me not to cum?
Or would she just wear a resigned expression?
Even if I shook my dick like a monkey, would she just give up and let me have it all?
Would she just think, "All men are like this," and give up, swaying weakly like a doll?
"Ha..."
I shook my dick up and down.
I didn't push in, just moved the tip down and up,
only pressing it against her pussy, doing pointless things in the air.
I was scared... it felt like I shouldn't go any further.
Sometimes the tip dangerously aligned with her pussy, almost slipping in...
Even when I felt the sticky, dangerous sensation at the tip of my urethra...
I didn't fully push in.
That was my limit.
"..."
Noona's eyes opened again.
It was the face of the kind noona I knew.
"Mm... ugh..."
As if she felt my dick, noona slowly reacted.
Maybe she's still half-drunk, or maybe she's awake but still out of it...
She just swayed weakly in response to my movements.
"Ha... hah..."
Looking at noona's face, the urge surged.
I wanted to shove it in deep, cum hard, and watch noona's expression change.
I wanted to see noona, panting and trying to push me away, not knowing what was happening.
"Ugh... ugh..."
As if pretending to be someone else... pretending to be that Chanyoung guy.
I wanted to cum, clean up, and pretend nothing happened.
I felt gloomy. Yeah, I'm not a good person. I'm just a loser who can't speak up and seems nice because I'm obedient.
Someone who imagines this kind of stuff in this situation is definitely not a good person.
If I were really a good guy, I wouldn't have done this in the first place.
"Ha... huk..."
Noona slowly reacted and stroked my head.
As if praising me. As if proud of me for holding back.
I buried my face in noona's body.
It was so warm, I didn't want to leave.
"Ugh..."
A slow build-up of cum started in my dick, which had been meaninglessly rubbing against her entrance.
Luckily, no disaster happened.
Noona, as if praising me, slowly rubbed my dick with the inside of her thigh.
Just the touch made me feel like I was about to cum... not satisfying, but...
"Noona..."
No response.
Was she doing this in her sleep, or was she awake but out of it?
Since she didn't say anything, I couldn't tell. Maybe she'd accept whatever choice I made...
Her thigh, stroking me as if cheering me on, made my waist tremble.
I couldn't tell what noona's eyes meant... just staring blankly. I panted and tightly grabbed noona's ass.
"Ah... ugh."
*Throb... throb...*
Nestled between noona's thighs, my waist trembled.
My dick, tightly squeezed, trembled and spurted cum.
I felt the thin cum splatter and drip onto the blanket.
I'm sorry...
I muttered softly. The blanket... must be really dirty now.
The inside of the blanket was a mess of cum... even though it was dirty, my dick kept moving. As if it just liked rubbing.
"Ha..."
Noona also let out a hot breath and hugged me, stroking my head.
Yeah... this much is okay. Just this much...
My body relaxed completely.
I nuzzled against noona's body like a spoiled child and closed my eyes. I felt drowsy almost instantly.
Cum... it's dirty.
The cum stuck to noona's body and the sticky feeling on the blanket...
From her thighs to her calves, everything felt sticky and wet...
The more I rubbed, the thinner it got, sticking to her...
But I stayed like that.
As if this state was good enough.
I snuggled into noona's arms, rubbing my waist against her as if seeking comfort.
My neck, armpits, chest...
Feeling the rising heat, I closed my eyes.
I just liked feeling noona's skin.
It was dirty but warm. Like that, for a long time... I drifted into a light sleep, a deep sleep, a hazy state.
It felt like being comforted.
*
A few days passed.
I was still in a daze.
That morning...
Noona didn't say anything.
I couldn't think of anything to say either.
The body I was hugging was a bit sweaty, just warm.
Noona got up first.
*Squelch...* The blanket was a mess.
But noona didn't say anything. She just smiled faintly.
With her body a mess, noona staggered to the bathroom... the sound of her washing up lasted a while.
But I just lay there, dazed, unable to move.
Was what I did right or wrong... good or bad?
I couldn't tell, so I just kept thinking about it.
Would she have forgiven me if I had pushed in?
Or would that have been the end of our relationship?
Endless questions kept popping up. What if I had done this instead...? It was the first time I'd been so curious about the outcome of a choice.
What would've happened if I had...? The obsessive thought of wanting to go back in time and make a different choice...
"Ha..."
That strange night ended with the morning.
Noona washed up, and I did too, drying off before coming out.
Noona's scent still lingered on my body.
Noona just patted my butt a few times.
Words rose to my throat, but I didn't ask. It felt like I shouldn't...
It was awkward, but not bad.
At least it didn't seem like noona had cut me off...
But for some reason, the thought that noona would've accepted it even if I had gone all the way wouldn't leave my head.
Not because I regret it. I'm just curious what the right answer was in that moment.
"Ah---."
I banged my head on the desk and closed my eyes. I couldn't focus on class at all...
Until the seniors came running to play soccer... my mind felt tangled up.