Gael
I wasn't really angry at him. I just wanted to see whether he would crack and tell me what he and my dad discussed but he didn't. He's a
hard one this one. You could say like a diamond. Something tells me everyone around me (except my sweet Beau of course) is hiding something from me. I couldn't wait to turn twenty-two as everyone was saying and find out all the secrets.
Anyway, after we went to bed that night, I don't remember what happened because I have never slept like that before. I slept like a child and when I woke up, Adrian was in my arms. In my arms! I was spooning him and his head was lying on my chest and he looked like a baby with his silver grey hair almost in my mouth. Aawww! I felt like kissing his hair (Wait! What! No. I. Did. Not. Think. That! Ahem! Perverts! *wink*)
We looked like an old couple (Oh, gods, forgive my thoughts. But I used that for the lack of a better analogy.) I didn't want to wake him up because he looked so peaceful and so I tried slipping my hand slowly from beneath his head and he moved and groaned in dissatisfaction.
He held my hand tighter and I knew I was done for. My strong heart couldn't take it and it started beating a thousand and two beats per minute (Okay, I know I'm exaggerating but it's just an analogy for you to understand exactly how I was feeling. And don't you dare judge me. I know it is the second day since we got to talk but I feel this familiarity with him. It was like we had known. each other for a long time. I hope you understand why I'm trying to say.)
Then, as if I wasn't smitten enough, Adrian turned, hugged me by my waist and kissed my lips. It was just a peck but I swear I fainted. I did. I didn't understand myself. The normal me would have punched him by now but this me was just lying there. Smiling like an idiot while looking at him. I felt like I had won a gold in a lottery. His lips were so soft and I wanted to do it again. Maybe make it deeper this time? This feeling was a feeling of Someone in... aaaaaaaah! Am I falling in love? I'm falling. (I swear if you call me a girl for screaming like that I will look for you and kill you! Ha ha ha! I'm kidding. If I kill you, who will I tell my story to? But please don't laugh at me. Imagine a man like me falling for another man! He's not even girly or a.... You know what I mean. He's all masculine like me and all. Could this be real?)
After I realized what I was feeling, I wasn't subtle about waking up. I couldn't risk Adrian waking up and seeing my flushed face and I swear I felt feelings I had never felt. This stir in my loins wasn't normal. I thought I would only feel this for a girl but here I was, with a man and getting aroused (it was a nice feeling though - grin).
This, this, I looked at Adrian and I wouldn't mind if it was a gorgeous creature like him but not unless he allowed me to be top. I would never be bottomed by any man. Not in this life.
Anyway, I pried his hand off of me and moved his head and rushed to the bathroom. A cold shower will cool my body and thoughts down before I embarrass myself.
As I was in the shower, I heard Beau, my alarm clock as usual, waking Adrian up. I chuckled because I know he must have been surprised and he wasn't used to it. I heard him laugh and that brought a smile to my lips.
As long as he liked my family and didn't judge us, I was all for being his friend.
Or, is it just friendship I want?