Things changed, the new year came, and 2021 was gonna be a good year. Every now and then I talked with Julia even though our friendship was at its end when she got kicked out from our friend group. Well, there wasn't a friend group anymore and I really had missed her a lot, so we started to talk again. After new years I really got her back, I got my best friend back! We started to hang out almost every single weekend, since we were in different schools now. I was kinda skeptical about her because of what had happened before, but the new year was a new start, so I decided to put the past behind me where it belonged.
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I had so much fun with Julia. We hung out on Omegle a lot and we drank every weekend. She was acting lesbian or bi sexual to my neighbor and messed with her. I felt bad for her, because we used to be friends. This wasn't the right way to bond again. It was Julia's own thing what she was doing. I hoped she had some conscience so she would realize what she was doing to her and would stop. She didn't, not until my neighbor Alyssa fell in love with her. Then she was done.
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I still was working at the stables, because Veronica and I bought a new horse. It was a beautiful, young, big black gelding. Julia came to the stables often to help me and we had fun there. I wasn't even thinking of boys. I wasn't thinking of you. We hadn't talked in over a month, and every time you sent me something it was a picture of Floyd. I didn't know what you were trying to do.Were you trying to make me jealous? I wasn't and I asked you about it. You got mad at me and blocked me on Snapchat. I just felt bad about the fact you were trying to make me feel bad. I was still in love with you. I was trying to forget both you and Floyd, so I talked to over fifty guys on Snapchat. I didn't even remember their name or age, but I never saw any of them. I was't a serial dater, I was just trying to make myself feel good. I wanted to know that someone still cared about me. I wanted to know if somebody thought I was beautiful. I was feeling lonely again, because the distance that grew between me and my parents because of Floyd, and for some reason didn't stop growing. I loved my parents, but I was afraid to say it.
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I was having fun with Julia now. I missed you, but I didn't say it. I knew you would come back, you always did, I just didn't know when that would happen. One day I was driving near your house with Veronica, Miles and Julia. They said that now was the time we would figure things out with you, so that's what we did. We didn't actually talk about anything important, but now you knew we were still there, and even though you decided to be with the boys, we missed you. Little by little things were getting back to normal. Well, almost normal. It used to be us four, me, you, Miles and Veronica. Now it was us five, us and Julia. I didn't like the idea remembering the past, but I made a new year's promise: to let go of the past, so that's what I did. I didn't want to let go of my best friend, and now I had you back, so everything was ok. We were almost a year older now, and hopefully wiser. Everything was going to be ok.
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We hang out quite a lot now, so one day we went on a road trip to another big city, all five of us. I was so excited to spend time with you all and make some unforgettable memories. The trip was fun for a while until Julia started flirting with you, again. I got jealous. Julia knew that I still had feelings for you, and she was always supporting the idea of our relationship. Now she was flirting with you like it was her last day on earth and she saw nothing wrong with it. She was so toxic, but yet again I forgave her. Maybe I shouldn't have, that most definitely is not something your best friend should do.
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Weeks went by, but because of COVID the schools were still on distance learning. Everything felt the same. I learned to play games with you, we helped V and Miles move again, and we both had corona at the same time. We were also there when Veronica's dog gave birth to seven beautiful puppies. I kept one of them, and named it Becky. You were calling to me again almost every day, and everything was good. Everything was normal and I was relieved. Julia was still flirting with everything that moved, so I let her do that as long as she wasn't trying to get between us, which she from time to time most definitely tried to do. I felt threatened. She was still smaller and prettier than me. I had gained weight since I broke up with Floyd, and that made me even more insecure. I tried to starve myself from time to time, but it always ended up with me stuffing myself with as much food I could get. Being addicted to food wasn't a joke. I had a criminal record from my youth because of that. When I was fifteen I shoplifted food from the store next to our school every day for six months. Every day for twenty dollars I stole food, I couldn't stop. One day I got caught, and the police took me. I never did that after that.
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Julia was so needy. I couldn't focus on my relationship with you, I had to focus on her. She was an attention seeker, and she needed all eyes on her at all times. On the spring break we had much more fun than in a long time before. We took a hotel room from a fancy hotel and spent a night there. Me, you, Julia, V, Miles and Ryan. He was hanging out with us now, and said that Floyd was childish. We were also celebrating my seventeenth birthday, so we went swimming, we drank (a lot), I cried to the girls how I still wanted you, but then I found out that you were outside with your ex. Why on earth would you do that Max? You were only saying hi, or that what I was told, but you were gone for a long time. You killed the mood by tailgating her, but I was still happy. I had my best friend and that was all I needed. Yet everything was weird.
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Few weeks after my birthday I saw Floyd with his new girlfriend. That was the first time I saw Floyd after the breakup, and it was like I didn't even know him anymore. He was a total stranger to me, so I didn't feel anything. I wasn't jealous at all, and the girl was nice. Everything was weird. My sister and Miles were fighting a lot. Miles still accused her of cheating and Julia was oddly quiet too. I started working somewhere else near Julia's house, but I didn't see her much anymore. She was smoking weed every day three times a day, because her parents were growing and selling it. That household of hers wasn't great I can say that, but I didn't get why she was trying to push me out. Now she was always angry and mean to me even though I hadn't done anything wrong and I only saw her maybe once a week if lucky. I wanted something good to my life again, so I applied to a singing contest, The Voice. I wanted it to be a surprise to my family and friends so it would be a happy thing also for them, knowing that they have had some hard times lately, so I did it.