"Fuck!" he said. Iwas clinging so tightly to the bedsheet when he suddenly accelerated his movement.
He lowered his face on my neck and sucked a skin of it. I could do nothing but moan. He's good at this I can say.
I held his naked back and my naild dug on his skin as I feel myself coming. I also feel that he moved even faster before.
"Hmm ..." I moan. I bit my lips as I release and spasm in a pure bliss and ecstasy.
I blink my eyes several times as I felt James flicked his fingers in front of my face.
"Are you even listening to me, Sam?" he said frowning while looking at me.
We're inside his condo unit and my son is playing with his nanny on his room, while James and I are here in the living room and watching a show from the television. We're talking about my son's future, and I can't help but to reminisce the memory I had with his father.
"What again?" I asked and scratch my nape.
He rolled his eyes at me. "I said, I have a small house in Alabang. But not as small as what you think, small but just enough for a family to live in. And I'm suggesting that I'm taking Kai with me, he's safer in my arms, Sam. It is dangerous for the child to stay here, he is getting closer to his real father." he said.
Seriously, James has a point but, "I don't think I'll survive another days or months without seeing my son. You know, James. Making and building an airport is such a big task to do. It means, the longer the project, the longer I can't see my son. " I said. I Just can't take a day without my son by my side. He's the only one I have.
"Then, would you risk your son having him near you? What if your parents found out about it. Look, no secrets can be hold in our hands. But wouldn't it be so sooner? You hid your son for a very long long time, Sam. Are you still going to argue with me in this matter? You can visit him there. We can home school him if you want. I'll take care of Kai, his nanny is also there." Jame said full of authority.
I could do nothing but to sigh and turn my gaze to the television.
"I'll think about it." I said, almost whispers.
My gaze is focused on the child who is currently drawing something on the paper. Maybe he inherited that one from me, he's good at arts, and I'm very proud about him.
" Kai, could you please try to come over." Smiling I command the child.
He stopped drawing and immediately stood up. He went towards my direction, I immediately made him sit on my lap and kissed his head. I'll surely miss this big boy of mine.
"Mommy has to ask a favor from you, baby. It's up to if you'll accept mom's favor or not." I said. Trying to hide the sadness in my voice. I don't want to do this. I don't want my leave my son but I need to work for him, to be able give everything he want.
I saw how his forehead knotted. Damn, Isaiah, your son really looked you.
"What favor is it, Mom?" my son asked, using a Japanese language. I took a deep breath and look ay him .
"My favor is that you'll stay with your Tita Jamie and I'll just come to visit you." I said. I cupped his litter face to look how handsome he is. He is a carbon copy of his Dad.
"Mommy is working for your future, baby. And I can't babysit you since I'm busy. Would you accept mommy's favor?" I asked him.
Suddenly my chest tightened when I saw the change in his expression. His face suddenly saddened with what I said.
"Are you going to leave me for a long time, again,Mommy?" he asked. I can feel the sadness in his voice and I feel like, my heart is broken into pieces.
I immediately shook. " Of course, no. Mommy won't leave you." I said. I bit my lower lip while waiting for his answer.
When I saw him nod, it was as if a thorn had been pulled out of my chest. "Are you working with my Dad?" he asked. Suddenly, my eyes become teary. I don't know what to say. I don't want to lie at him. Not my son.
How can i tell him that his Dad is now happily married with my sister. Oh God.
I don't what to do, anymore.
If I could just change everything, I'll glady do it for my son. I want to give him the complete and happy family he always asking for. I want to give him everything, introduce him to the world that he is my son but I can't. I just can't And worse this is, I need to hide him from my own family.